Chapter 30 "The Truth"

Authors note: Hello people of this fanfic xD anyways thank you for voting and commenting, sorry for slow updates but I need to get ready for school. Well here is chapter 30 enjoy XD. I do not own any of the kuroshitsuji characters, I wish I did!! XD!!!!___________________________________________

After a few hours of napping you wake on the couch, with your head resting on Sebastian's lap. You blush and sit up fast. Sebastian chuckles seeing your reaction and blushed face.

Sebastian: Glad to see you have finally awaken.

You: Please tell me I was dreaming. Please tell me Ash wasn't here. Sebastian... Please tell me Jake is fine!

Sebastian: *sighs* I am sorry (y/n)... But I cannot lie. Ash was indeed here, he has your friend Jake, and you weren't dreaming. My sincerest apologies. *pulls you in for a hug*

You: Do we at least know where he is? *gets hugged*

Sebastian: No, I am terribly sorry. We tried to have Pluto sniff out his scent but.... Apparently he's allergic to your friend's necklace.

You: *sighs* I have to go back.

Sebastian: *eyes widen* Go back? To where? *afraid he knows the answer*

You: To where I came from. Sebastian I know you know that I'm from another world. And I know that you know on how to get back. So I want you to take me.

Sebastian: May I ask why?

You: So I can bring Lobo. Lobo is great at tracking people down, he will be able to find Jake!

Sebastian: *sighs* We must first speak to the young master, he wishes to speak to you about this current situation. He wants you to know why you were brought here. He wants you to know everything.

You: Everything? What do you guys know? What is even going on Sebastian?

Sebastian: My master and I will explain everything to you, in his study room of course. *stands up*

You: *stands up as well* Fine.

Sebastian walks upstairs to Ciel's study room as you follow him. He opens the door and allows you to enter first then closes the door behind him once you are both in. Ciel puts his paperwork to the side and gestures you to sit. You nod and sit on the chair in front of his desk. Sebastian stands by your side instead of Ciel's which took both you and Ciel by surprise.

Ciel: (y/n) we need to talk. There's is some explaination we need to give you. *he sighs*

You: Look I already know I'm from another world. Although I'm still confused on why I'm here, Ash told me he brought me here to cleanse my soul, whatever the fuck that means in his words.

Ciel: *nods* I see, I'll tell you everything what we both know and you listen. Is that clear?

You: Aye Aye Captain. *sighs*

Ciel: A few days ago on the day that we predict was your arrival here, I sent Sebastian to your world. We discovered of this new world a few months ago when we were investigating on why Ash was being so quiet lately. Then we soon found out, Ash was after you, he was looking for a soul that was darker than mines. And he found it, you, however in a different world.

You: Uhuh..

Ciel: Ash needs a really powerful soul to help him cleanse all of England. However he knew it was useless trying to get mines and Alois's soul so he tried looking for new ones close to our souls strength or even stronger. And he succeeded, he found your world and yours was the darkest and strongest of them all. What made it dark was the fact that all you had was almost pure hate, you didn't believe in god which made it darker, your foul language, you murderous actions and behavior. Almost everything, which also explains why Sebastian and Claude fight over you. Also that the fact I ordered Sebastian to protect whatever Ash was after.

Sebastian: *growls lowly* Except, I have fallen in love with you. At first I was after your soul. But I started falling for you. Even for a demon I couldn't believe it, but ever since I met you, ever since I got to know you. I knew right then and there, you were the one for me.

You felt your heart racing, you never felt this happy. Never have you experienced such love.

Ciel: Ahem! As I was saying! *sighs* Ash somehow managed to connect our world and your world, which is a huge problem. If they remain connected any longer... Both worlds... Will be destroyed!

You: Shit! That can't happen! We can't allow that to happen!

Sebastian: We found a way to disconnect our worlds before they are both destroyed, however we need to do it when the moon is full or else it won't work.

Ciel: The next full moon is in two days, exactly the same amount of time both worlds will be destroyed and the time limit Ash has given you.

You: Tch... That motherfucker is going to pay!

Ciel: So in order for this to work we need you help.

You: Why my help? What can I do?

Sebastian: In order to disconnect the worlds, we need you to say the ancient words in this book. *hands you a book* While I go in and disconnect them. I would have the young master do it, but he hasn't been studying his Japanese like I asked him to. *annoyed*

Ciel: What? It's complicated okay!

You: What about Ash? Won't he try to stop us? And what about Jake, how do we save him?

Sebastian: We will try to save Jake today, with your idea of course. *smiles*

You: You mean! *your eyes widen*

Sebastian: Yes, I will be taking you back.

Ciel: What!?

Sebastian: It will only be a few hours young master, just for her to get her things and her dog to help find her friend.

Ciel: I'm not done yet. *sighs* (Y/n)... In two days, when the worlds are disconnected....

Sebastian: Young master please. *begs*

You: What? What?!

Ciel: When the worlds disconnect you will be back in your world.

You: No.... No... I can't go back! I can't!

Ciel: You don't belong in this world. You belong in your world.

You: Please just let me stay, I can't go back... I can't! *tears threatened to spill on your eyes* I CAN'T!!!

Both Ciel's and Sebastian's eyes widen, never have they seen this side of you.

Sebastian: I'm sorry (y/n). Maybe I can go back with you, with the you--

Ciel: *cuts him off* No Sebastian. We are staying, and she is leaving. End of discussion.

You: Give me a damn good reason why I'm leaving!!

Ciel: You belong in your world. We need things to run its course.

You: I refuse....

Ciel: I'm afraid I cannot allow you to do that.

You: I REFUSE GOKU DAMN IT!! SO TELL ME, WHY I CAN'T STAY!!

Ciel: BECAUSE I DON'T WANT YOU TO DIE LIKE MY PARENTS!!!

Your eyes and Sebastian's eyes widen in shock. Tears were rolling down your cheeks but you haven't noticed. You were shaking slightly from all this yelling.

You: C-Ciel...

Ciel: Sebastian... This is an order... On the night both worlds disconnect...

You: Please Ciel. Don't!

Ciel: .... (Y/n) is to return and stay in her world... Forever. *he avoids eye contact*

You: Sebastian! *you look at Sebastian, begging with your eyes to convince Ciel to let you stay*

Sebastian: Yes.... *has a hard time saying it*

You: Sebastian.... you can't... Please... *tears kept rolling down your cheeks*

Sebastian: *avoids eye contact* My lord....

You: S-Sebastian.... y-you... *you take a deep breath* gomenasai... for my actions *you stare at the ground* I'll go get my things.

Ciel and Sebastian were surprised, you just accepted it. Just like that, no more arguing no more fighting. You just accepted it.

Ciel: I'm sorry.

You: Don't be... All backstabbers are the same... I'm use to it *you leave the room before they could stop you*

Ciel: I didn't want her to... *sighs* Sebastian go talk to her.

Sebastian: With all due respect young master, I believe your action on deciding for her was rather unfair.

Ciel: Life is unfair. *turns his back on Sebastian*

Sebastian: Indeed young master, but however it is her life and her decision. She should decide if she wants to put her life at risk or not. And who knows what if Ash finds another way to reconnect the worlds?

Ciel: Sebastian, what is said is done. She is leaving and that's final. Is that clear?

Sebastian: *sighs* Yes... My lord....

Ciel: Now go have a word with her.

Sebastian: Yes, my lord.

Ciel: And Sebastian, give her the tea that reverses the effect of her cat like features.

Sebastian: Yes, my lord... Anything else Bocchan?

Ciel: That is all, you are dismissed.

Sebastian: Very well. *leaves the room and walks to yours to speak with you*

Your thoughts: 'I'm so stupid thinking they would let me stay! I let my emotions get the better of me! Like always! ALWAYS! Sebastian you lied! You promised to stay by my side, you promised to protect me. Fucking liar and a backstabber. Then again, what should I expect from a damn demon! A damn demon... That I fell in love with. A-Ash was right. Sebastian did end up hurting me... But my fault for allowing this to happen.'

Your thoughts were interrupted when there was a knock on your door. You open it and you see its Sebastian. You turn around and go back to putting away what little things you have.

You: What do you want? *you said coldly, wiping your tears*

Sebastian: May I speak with you?

You: Why, so you can lie to my face again!?

Sebastian: It wasn't my choice or decision.

You: No, but you agreed to it! Mr. Yes my lord! *you close your backpack*

Sebastian: (y/n) please.

You: Sebastian... Give me my inhaler please. *you asked emotionlessly*

Sebastian: (y/n) please just listen.

You: No you listen to me! All my FUCKEN life I have been put down! I have been beaten! I have been bullied! I have lost many friends! I lost my pride! I lost my faith! I lost my grandmother! HELL, I LOST LOVE! AND I FOUND HATE! ALL MY MOTHAFUCKING LIFE SEBASTIAN I WISHED FOR A BETTER LIFE! I WISHED FOR FREEDOM! MY LIFE WAS A LIVING HELL!! DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TREMBLING IN FEAR AT THE CORNER OF YOUR ROOM BEGGING FOR THE KICKING, OR PUNCH, OR CUTTING TO STOP! HUH!? DO YOU!? NO! DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE HATED OR TO BE BACKSTABBED BY THOSE YOU LOVE, OR SHOULD I SAY USE TO LOVE!?... *your face was drenches in tears, you were hiccuping from crying so much* NO! BUT I DO!! AND MY HELL IS GOING TO CONTINUE!! AND WORST OF ALL I AM LOSING YOU!!

Sebastian's eyes widen at your sudden outbursts and your last comment. He felt a sharp pain on his chest and you felt it to. Ciel heard the screaming from down the halls and decided to go see what's going on. He was your door and was watching silently, none of you noticed.

You: J-Just forget it! W-Why should I-I even b-bother telling y-you!? It's n-not like y-you can do s-shit anyways! *you were a sobbing mess*

Sebastian: *wraps his arms around you* I am deeply sorry, I truly am.

You: Let me go!

Sebastian: *holds you close* I am truly sorry. *he buries his head on your neck*

You squirm more and try to break free from his grasp, until you felt it. You felt something wet on your neck. Your eyes widen, you felt a tear drop.

You: S-Sebastian....

Ciel saw everything at your door without you or Sebastian noticing and was shocked. For the first time in his three years being with Sebastian a demon, he saw his butler crying.

______________________________________________Yeah yeah I know a bit crappy, gomenasai. Do not hate meh for it DX anyways chapter 31 is coming up soon! So stay tuned!