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Brett quickly spotted the slightly lighter patch on Eddy's neck when he and Victoria returned, it obviously, from the colour of it, being Victoria's foundation. He really tried not to think about that it very likely was Victoria who applied it, to not be jealous of her being so close to Eddy. He would have succeded too, if it wasn't for the voice sneaking up on him again, ruining any chance of rational thinking.

He probably liked the intimacy of having make-up applied by her on his neck, don't you think?

"Hey, she fixed it", Eddy said, giving Victoria a pat on the shoulder. "A proper life-saver, don't you think?" He was asking Brett, but was looking at Victoria."Yeah, a life-saver", Brett echoed Eddy, trying to force himself to focus on keeping afloat. He smiled at them, feeling like it was forced, but hoping it looked real."Most people seem to be heading out, though, maybe you guys would want to hang out a bit closer to the entrance?" Victoria suggested to the two, seeing as they had been gone for most of the mingling after the concert. Eddy agreed enthusiastically and the group went to talk to the last couple of people, Brett dragging his feet along a few steps behind the ither two. Because anything she suggests is a good idea, right? Eddy seems to think so.

When they finally got back to their wardrobe around 45 minutes later, Brett wasn't sure how long he would be able to keep it together anymore. The last thing he wanted was to break down in front of Eddy, making everything about himself again. He hoped Eddy hadn't picked up on it yet, but he knew it was only a question of time. Maybe he could get a shower to himself when they got back to the hotel? Would that be enough to keep him going, though?

"There were sooo many people", Eddy sighed when they closed the wardrobe door behind them. "Stresses me out." Brett kept his face away from Eddy in an attempt to hide the emotions passing over his face."Yeah, that's... really stressing me out too", Brett mumbled, his voice cracking at the end of the sentence. It wasn't what bothered him the most, but everything was just too much for him with the voice and the guilt and all that. Eddy, of course, immediately noticed the change in Brett's voice and almost ran over to comfort him."Bretty mine..." Eddy half whispered, wrapping his arms around Brett just as tears started streaming down his cheeks. He hid his face on Eddy's chest, and the taller man kissed the top of his head. "Shh, it's okay. No more people today, okay? Just me. It's fine." In a way, Brett felt relieved that Eddy hadn't understood why he really was crying at this point, but at the same time he felt bad for keeping it from him. As you should."It's fine, it's gonna be fine, love." Eddy took Brett's soft face between his hands and wiped a tear with his thumb. Brett's eyes flickered from Eddy's worried, caring eyes to the slightly paler patch on his neck.He's ashamed to be with you. You don't deserve him.

"Bretty... is it just the stressful people? Or is it...?" Eddy ended the question before he could complete it, as he realized where Brett's eyes were flickering to. "What is it, Brett? Talk to me, please", Eddy said softly, letting Brett's face go and instead taking his left hand in his."It's... it's nothing... I'm fine... I'm sorry..." Brett sobbed, taking off his glasses with his available hand and wiping his tears with the back of it. Eddy's heart broke in a thousand pieces at the sight unfolding in front of him."Please, Brett, just talk to me." He felt so helpless, watching his boyfriend break down in front of him and refusing to tell him what it was. "Is it something I did? Please, I'll do anything..."