Self Control Is Key

I walked through the hallways of school, trying my best to avoid Stiles because I really didnt feel like answering any of his questions. As I was walking to my next class, sucessfully avoiding Stiles all day so far but now there was no more avoiding him.. considering we have next period together, I saw Scott at the end of the hall. 

He looked completely distraught, plus he was talking to himself. I walked closer as he was repeating Allison and Jackson's names, saying how he needed to stay away from them. 

Weird? 

"Hey you all right..?" I asked him while he jumped back and held his hand to his chest, as if i was actually giving him a 'heart attack'. 

"You scared me." Scott breathed out before quickly nodding his head. Once we saw Allison at the end of the hall by her locker, she looked and smiled and waved. Scott cursed under his breath before dragging me off in the oposite direction. I looked at him weird before pulling on his arm, getting him to stay still for a minute.

"Okay what's going on? I mean, why did we just run from Allison?" I asked him, raising an eyebrow. 

Scott sighed before running a hand through his hair. "Derek told me I have to stay away from them until after the full moon. So I can protect them and whatever." 

I looked at him shocked before giving him a dumbfounded look. "Really?" I asked him, as if was just kidding and not being serious. "Why the hell are you listening to Derek? He's kind of a psyco path!" We stopped by Scott's locker while he started getting his books. 

"Because he's the only werewolf we know of!" Scott complained before slamming his locker shut. He looked at me before sighing, apologizing real quick. "If you can find me another, nicer, calmer, werewolf then by all means, I'll be more than happy to change teachers." 

I looked at him curiously, studding his facial expressions. "So..what you're saying is that..if you knew of another werewolf, you don't need Derek..?" 

"Yes that is exactly what im saying but since he's the only werewolf we know of, he's all I got right now." Scott complained while I just shook my head. I placed a hand on his shoulder, giving him a warm smile and telling him everything was going to be okay. 

Scott let out a huge sigh before looking over at me with a friendly smile, thanking me for comforting him. 

"So.." Scott began. 

"So?" I asked him kind of confused by the sudden change in tone. 

"Stiles called me after what happened last night..." Scott gave me this knowing look before frowning a little bit. "He only called me to tell me what happened before hanging up..I think he hates me.." 

I shook my head lightly, understanding what he was going through. "Stiles doesn't hate you..He's just upset that his dad got hurt..but it's not entirely your fault. You didnt ask for this.." I smiled before letting out a huge sigh. "besides, im kind of avoiding him too..dont really feel like him bombarding me with questions about what happened.." 

"What did happen last night..?" Scott asked me, clearly disregarding anything I just said. 

I sighed before deciding that I should talk to him about it I guess. Well since I was avoiding Stiles, there was really no one else to talk to about these kinds of things.. 

"Last night..I was sitting in my room and Derek shows up. He asks me what I saw at the video store but then we fight and I try running..I stab him with a knife from the kitchen but he's so fast and he ends up stabbing me..He leaves me there at the bottom of the stairs, bleeding out..He gives me a warning.." 

"A warning?" Scott asked me with a confused face. 

"Yeah..he says that we dont know what we're up against..then he leaves.." I said while avoiding eye contact with him. "But the weird thing is..I wake up and..it's like it was all a dream...I mean I know it was a dream..but everything felt so real and..everything was trashed..and I was laying there still , bleeding out and dying with the knife right next to me just like it was in my dream..It really happened..I just..I just dont know if it was actually Derek..' 

"How do you know it wasnt Derek..?" Scott asked, clearly getting ready to go kill Derek. 

"Because I already checked. He was at the dinner during the time I got attacked. He was sitting there eating and obviously making the waitresses melt with his face." I rolled my eyes at how much I hated this guy. 

"So do you think you really did that to yourself..?" Scott asked, not really sure what to say..

"I dont know." I shrugged. "Maybe it's the full moon coming up or maybe it's just stress or maybe it has something to do with the alpha and the fact that it was sniffing me at the video store.." I began running my hands through my hair, feeling like my head was about to explode. "Honestly all i know right now is that im having a major headache and there's something freaky going on in this town..I mean..maybe Derek put something in my water or i dont know maybe im just going crazy." 

I through my hands in the air in defeat before sighing and getting ready to walk into class, but Scott stopped me by grabbing my hands. 

"Look, I dont know what's going on but..i'll keep you and Stiles safe..' Scott told me while I avoided eye contact.

"All i know is that...while I was lying there bleeding..I couldn't think of anything besides Stiles..how I wanted to..be with him..tell him how i really feel.." I sighed while looking down. "But unfortunatly for me..he doesn't like me..." 

Scott raised an eyebrow at me before looking at me with wide eyes. "Holy crap you like Stiles!"

I looked at him with wide eyes before slapping my hand over his mouth. I looked around us, seeing if anybody heard him. I glared at him, still keeping my hand over his mouth. "Look, I may or may not have feelings for Stiles but that doesn't matter. He doesn't feel the same, he told me himself that we're not going to happen so..why am i going to bother myself with the trouble when he wont ever consider us an option." 

Scott removed my hand before giving me this grin. "You like Stiles, this is great. i knew you two had a thing for each other." I rolled my eyes before reminding him that Stiles doesn't like me. "Oh that's bullcrap. Stiles really likes you, trust me." 

I shrugged my shoulders, feeling this weight lift off my chest and my heart. "It doesn't matter..It's not like we can be together.." 

Scott looked at me confused, asking why not. 

"Because Scott..we're all in danger now..with the alpha wanting you to be in it's pack, it'll do whatever it can to get to you. Mainly, it'll go through Stiles and me..and I cant handle the idea of him getting hurt because of me..It's just too risky..so i'd rather not be with him and have him safe than being together with him ending up in a grave.." 

Scott shook his head. "If you care about someone, then you'll do whatever you can to be with them.." His voice trailed off a little bit at the end and I knew who he was really thinking about. 

"Allison?" I asked him with a small smile.

He blushed before nodding his head. "Yeah." 

"Well wish I could say the same but Stiles practically told me that we were never going to happen..besides I have other things to worry about than a relationship." 

Scott gave me this sympathetic look while i just shrugged my shoulders, letting him know that there was nothing he could do. He just sighed before we both walked into class and my eyes immediantly found Stiles. Scott and I exchanged a look before looking at Stiles, who seemed to completely ignore Scott's presense before locking eyes with me. Stiles had this concern look written all over his face. 

Okay sure I had some sort of nightmare and I was sleep walking. And sure I thought Derek attacked me but it turns out I stabbed myself with the knife. Big deal...

I mean it was nothing to freak out about. 

Okay it was something to freak out about but if I started thinking about it then i would need to try and understand what was going on. And frankly, I dont think I could handle anymore weirdness. This probably just had something to do with the alpha or something. I have no clue, maybe there's a witch in town or maybe Derek poisened me. 

As I took my seat next to Stiles, with Scott sitting behind him, I tried not looking at him. I knew that if I started talking to Stiles then he would want me to try and explain what happened to me and I just didnt have an actual answer. 

"If you promise not to ask about last night then yes we can talk." I told Stiles before he had a chance to say anything. He just looked at me shocked before shutting his mouth and nodding yes. 

No matter how hard, I couldn't not talk to him. We both smiled a little bit at each other, just looking at each other, until Scott had to go and ruin a moment.

"Still not talking to me?" Scott asked Stiles, leaning forward in his seat but Stiles stood quiet. Scott sighed before leaning forward again. "Can you at least tell me if your dad is okay. I mean it's just a bruise right? Some soft tissue damage? Nothing that big right?" 

Stiles didn't answer Scott, he just had this annoyed look on his face while Scott looked like he was ready to break. I know Scott feels bad and I know that Stiles is kind of mad at him for not caring about anything besides Allison. I mean.. Scott basically chose Allison over people he's known for much longer and who have been there for him. But Stiles knows that Scott didnt mean for anything to happen. 

"Look what if I told you that im trying to figure this whole thing out? And I went to Derek for help?" Scott leaned forward again, this time getting Stiles attention. 

Ooh, nice play Scott. Stiles would never be able to stay quiet when it consisted of something, mystery related. Thank goodness for Stiles curious personality. 

"If I was talking to you, I would say you're an idiot for trusting him." Stiles said, not turning around in his seat but turning his head just slightly. "But obviously im not talking to you.' 

I rolled my eyes at how they were both acting. You would think they were the girls, not me. "You're both acting stupid. Stop being a little bitch and just accept the apology." I rolled my eyes again but he just glared at me. 

As soon as the bell rang, the teacher went to the board and started writing something out. From the corner of my eye, I could see Stiles tapping his pencil in anticipation. He was dying to know what Derek had told Scott, you could just see it writen all over his face. 

It was only a matter of time till he-

"Okay what did he say?" Stiles asked Scott, turning around to look at him with an excited look on his face.

 Scott and I exchanged a small smirk before Scott started explaining to the both of us what Derek had told him. 

*

After the bell rang, we were walking out when Stiles kept going on about what Scott had said. 

"He wants you to tap into your animal side and get angry?" Stiles asked Scott in disbelief because if that's the advice Derek gave Scott... Well we're screwed. 

"Yeah." Scott shrugged his shoulders. 

What else was Scott suppose to do? Derek was the only one who could help him with the whole werewolf thing as far as he knew... 

"So he wants you to get angry? Derek does realize that everytime you do, you usually try to kill someone. Namely one of us." I pointed to Stiles and me before giving him this disapproving look. Scott knew I didnt' like Derek and I didnt particularly trust him. 

"You just dont trust him." Scott pointed out. 

"I trust him about as far as I can throw him." I smirked while we continued walking. "All im saying is that his advice sucks coconuts. I mean he wants you to get angry Scott? If you get angry, you could kill someone. And that someone just might be one of us." 

"I know, that's why he doesnt know if he'll be able to teach me. But i have to learn to control it." Scott shrugged. 

"Self control  is key." I shrugged.

"Well how is he going to teach you?" Stiles asked, stepping back into the conversation, probably feeling left out. 

"I dont know and I dont even think he knows either." 

"Okay well when are you seeing him again?" I asked Scott. 

"He told me not to talk about it. Just try and get through the-" Scott tried exlaining but Stiles insisted that he know. 

"Just tell us." Stiles had an annoyed tone in his voice, most likely still from being pissed at Scott for letting his only parent get hurt. It's understandable. 

Scott sighed before staying quiet for a couple of seconds. He knew he wasn't going to win against Stiles so he eventually told us. "He's picking me up at the animal clinic after work." He reluctantly told us. 

"All right that gives me till the end of the school day." Stiles said, having this look on his face like he was already planning something. 

"Wait what are you talking about?" I asked Stiles.

"To teach Scott myself." He smirked lightly while I heard Scott groan from behind me. 

I had a feeling this was not going to end well.. and it might be painful. 

*

As we sat at our usual lunch table, Scott had his face burried in one of his textbooks. Maybe it was because Allison, who was sitting two tables before us, he was suppose to be avoiding. I looked up after taking a bite from my chicken salad and noticed Stiles looking at Lydia as she got up and left Allison there by herself. 

Wait- 

why is Stiles looking at Lydia like that.? 

No- stop it. You are not jealous, you are not jealous. 

"I think maybe the book is a bit obvious." I smirked lightly at Scott, trying my best not to let my emotions get the best of me. I had no reasons to be jealous of anybody Stiles looked at but honestly, i could stab a bitch if they go near him. 

Ugh, I sound like a jealous girlfriend. Which im not. 

"Besids she's reading something anyways..So you're in the clear." I told Scott, lowering the book. 

"So have you come up with a plan yet?" Scott asked Stiles.

"Yeah I think so." He said taking a bite from his sandwhich and trying to take some of my chips but I acted like I was going to stab him with my fork. 

"Does that mean you dont hate me?" Scott asked hopeful that his long life best friend was no longer pissed at him. 

"No but your crap has infiltrated my life so I have to do something about it." 

I looked at him with a small grin, laughing while I tossed a piece of salad at him. "You really are such a kind person." 

He rolled his eyes before turning back to Scott saying, "Besides, im a better Yoda then Derek." Stiles looked at me and Scott, as if he was announcing it like he had just won an award. 

Scott looked confused. "Yeah, yeah, you teach me." 

Oh god, had he not seen star wars? By the tone in his voice, I dont think he has... 

"Yeah i'll be your yoda." Stiles laughed. 

"Yeah you be my yoda?" Scott said, still not getting the reference. 

"Your yoda i will be." Stiles laughed as he tried to impersinate Yoda. Scott looked at me and Stiles confused before Stiles looked back at him. "I said it..i said it backwards-" 

"yeah I know." Scott said interupting Stiles.

"You know what? I defenitly still hate you. Uh huh, oh yeah." Stiles started gathering his things before ripping the book from Scott's hands, causing him to freak out a little bit. I couldn't help but laugh before waving Stiles off and trying to calm Scott down. 

Author's note: 

hey guys, thanks for everyone who's read it so far. thanks(: Sorry if it sucks, first teen wolf fanfic but it's going to get good :D BIG surprise coming soon in the next chapters maybe by the next three :D 

anyways thanks guys(:  comments are appriciated (: 

&&Sorry that i suck at spelling >.<