Chapter 71

01:45, 2 May 2015

YOUR P.O.V.

*a while later*

Priest- I now pronounce you man and wife.. *looks at Diggy* you may now kiss your bride

Y/N- *smiles*

Diggy- *lifts your veil over your head* *kisses you passionately*

*guests stand and cheer for you both*

Diggy- *pulls from the kiss* *pecks your lips twice*

Y/N- *beams* I love you.

Diggy- *smiles* I love you too

*two months later*

Y/N- You want? *holds her spoon up*

Diggy- *opens his mouth*

Y/N- *feeds him some food*

Diggy- *chews it* Mm, what's this called again?

Y/N- Eggs, avocado.. and beans babe

Diggy- *nods* We need to get that at home

Y/N- *laughs*

The honeymoon. The long-awaited vacation we both needed. The wedding was... truly a dream come true. An enormous mansion in the Hamptons is where we had it. Reciting our vows, giggling between them and with the guests, sliding the rings on each other's fingers and Diggy kissing me, lifting me up and carrying me out of the mansion was like a fairytale scene.

Meeting each other's families and the distant cousins, aunts, him dancing with my mother and me with his father, having the best night of our lives... Now we had our second Honeymoon in Antigua two months later. Beautiful, private and so far away from work and home. And with my new husband, I couldn't be more blessed. We needed another since the first was only five days because of both our schedules and the kids took up our time.. I oved to getaway..

Diggy- *eats and looks up at you*

Y/N- *looks at him* What?

Diggy- Nothin.. you just look so beautiful in the morning

Y/N- Aw.. shut up *shakes her head and laughs*

Diggy- *stands up from the table* What do you wanna do today?

Y/N- I was thinking.. why don't we go sightseeing? Antigua is beautiful and all we've done is relax for the past week.

Diggy- *smirks* You mean have sex?

Y/N- *rolls eyes and chuckles* You know what I mean

Diggy- *laughs* Yeah.. babe, we can do whatever you want. I want you to be happy, okay?

Y/N- *smiles* Okay. But no phones. No internet, no nothing. Just us and this camera.

Diggy- *bites his lip* A lotta things we can do with us and a camera... *feels on your waist*

Y/N- Oh my God, you're so disgusting!! *pushes him away playfully*

Diggy- *laughs*

We got up and dressed and headed out to explore the island of Antigua. The place we were staying at was right by the white sand and the aqua blue sea. It was amazing. We spent so long walking along Turner's beach just talking under all the palm trees and the sound of the waves. To think I wasted my first marriage and I could have been with h.. wait. Come to think of it, that marriage landed me in Diggy's arms. Right now, I had no regrets other than keeping him at such a distance for the last few years. But now I was happy. Oh so happy.

We'd decided to visit a nature park in St. John's. It was so amazing. The peacocks, deer.. and a lemur befriending Diggy was the most amazing part of the day. We'd been here for a week, relaxing, spas, sex.. among other things.. It was great to get out for once.

*the next day*

Diggy- *laughing*

Y/N- *sits on his lap* This is why you should watch international TV more often.. you might learn something!

Diggy- How do you even know this language?

Y/N- It's Antiguan Creole. It's similar to French, genius

Diggy- *blinks at you* When did you learn French?

Y/N- *shrugs* When I had Kelani

Diggy- *raises his brows* Oh.

Y/N- *shrugs* I could teach you some

Diggy- Nah I've been to St. Barts enough, I don't need to learn any more. I'm almost fluent *chuckles*

Y/N- *kisses him and whispers* Voulez-vous coucher avec moi ce soir?

Diggy- *smirks* Oui... You know I know what that means..

Y/N- *gets up* I'll meet you there.. *walks to the bedroom*

*half an hour later*

Of course when it came to my husband, I had to be ready.. shaved legs? Check. Hair did? Check. Make up on point? Triple check. Lingerie.. check on check. I was all ready, called him to say I was waiting.. but I waited for ages. I heard conversation, then I wondered if he'd fallen asleep or was eating like I'd suspect he was doing.. then I heard nothing at all.. I slipped on my white cotton robe and walked out to see if he was okay..

He was just sitting on the couch, his phone in his hand.. but his face was as if he'd seen a ghost. Plain and unemotional, he just stared at the ground. I crept over to him and sat beside him.

Y/N- Babe? *touches his hand* Baby, are you okay? I was waiting for you. You don't look too good.

Diggy- *stares at the floor and clears his throat* I... I just got off the phone with Jermaine.

Y/N- *stares at Diggy* What did he say?

Diggy- *pauses* He said my dad just died of a heart attack.

Y/N- *face drops* What?

Diggy- *covers his face and starts to sob*

Y/N- Oh baby.. *hugs him* *tears come down her eyes*

DIGGY'S P.O.V.

*the next morning*

Diggy- *lays in bed*

Y/N- *walks in with room service* Babe, you awake?

Diggy- Mm..

Y/N- *walks over and sits on his side of the bed* Babe, if you wanna go back home, you can. We'll both go right now. We have a plane on standby

Diggy- *shakes his head* No..

Y/N- *confused* Diggy, your father just died of a heart attack. If it were me, I'd be flying out there the minute I hear, I couldn't bear to wait a minute longer

Diggy- *sighs* I spent most of last night talking to my brother, he says it happened hours before he called me, but he didn't wanna call and disturb the honeymoon and dad had a heart condition he told no one about. Hours before. You know how that makes me feel?

Y/N- *shakes her head a little*

Diggy- My mother is gone. And now, my father is gone babe, he died way before and I couldn't be by his side... it makes me feel like I've lost everything

Y/N- I know.. I don't know what to say to you to make it better. We gotta go back home. You gotta be with your brother, you have to be back home

Diggy- *shakes his head* No..

Y/N- *holds his face* Yes.

Diggy- *kisses you*

Y/N- *kisses him back* Dig...

Diggy- *moves you to lay on the bed*

Y/N- Mm, Daniel.. *tries to move away*

Diggy- *moves his hand to your inner thigh*

Y/N- *slaps his hand* No. *sits up*

Diggy- *gets off you* But ba..

Y/N- No. *wipes her tears* That is not how you deal with grief Diggy! Your father is dead! He died and you want to have sex with me right now? That's not right! You have to be with your family right now, they're hurting and they need you like you need them. Not sex, that doesn't solve anything!

Diggy- *holds your hand* You are my family, babe..

Y/N- *nods* But I mean the family who's last name I now share. We're going home. We have to.

Diggy- *pauses and nods* Okay.

*the next night in New Jersey*

Jermaine- *opens the door*

Diggy- *hugs him*

Jermaine- *cries* I know..

*a while later*

Michelle- How's he been? *holds her coffee*

Y/N- *sighs* Not good at all.. he's almost in denial. He doesn't wanna talk about it. I know it's horrible of me to want to force him to, but he can't keep it all bottled up like this

Michelle- *nods* Jay's been all over the place. He can't stop sobbing.. he's spending a lot of time with Xalia to take his mind off it, but I know he's stressed, but he's trying to accept it. The media's been outside camping for days now..

Y/N- *nods* I know, it was crazy getting up here.

Michelle- He just wants privacy. You know what Jay's like

Y/N- *nods* Yeah..

Michelle- *raises her eyebrow* Doe she know?

Y/N- *shakes her head* No.

Michelle- *gasps*

Y/N- *pouts* I know, but right now isn't the time to be getting that out in the open.

Michelle- Maybe not.

DIGGY'S P.O.V.

*later*

Jermaine- He wasn't even my dad.

Diggy- *looks at him confused* What?

Jermaine- *chuckles* This whole time, my whole life I knew him, from when I was.. what, seven? I wanted to be just like him. Someone who had absolutely no connection to me whatsoever. How could I look up to someone I wasn't even related to?

Diggy- He was your dad as much as he was mine. He brought us up together

Jermaine- Till you went off with your moms and came back after a couple years and whatever.

Diggy- We were his sons. He was so proud of us Jay. You can't say that you weren't his son

Jermaine- *shouts* I wasn't! I was a puppet and he played me around.. *stands up*

Diggy- How? How the fuck was he playing you and not me? He didn't force you into being J. Cole, you chose that and he supported you!

Jermaine- The fuck he didn't!

Diggy- *gets in his face* *shouts* You were the only one he ever was rooting for!

Y/N/Michelle- *run in*

Y/N- *looks at them both* What the hell is going on?

Jermaine- *pushes Diggy* You know that's a fucking lie

Diggy- *points at him* You're fucking stupid for saying that. You know you were more of his son than I ever was!

Jermaine- *laughs* You're funny.

Diggy- *shouts even more* *rushes toward him* I'm not kidding, Jay!

Michelle- Guys, stop it!

Y/N- *stands in front of Diggy* *puts her hand on his chest* Babe, stop..

Diggy- *looks at Jermaine* You saw it from the moment I came back home. The way he treated you, favoured you.. he put you before me all the time. Remember when I just got on the hip-hop scene, then I fell off and he was all over you and your albums from the get go? He's always been all over you. I wanted to be like you because he loved you so much more than me!

Jermaine- *looks to the ground*

Diggy- Ain't nothing I've done that he's ever been proud of me for

Jermaine- *looks up at him and Y/N* You know what you don't know? He started getting onto me the moment you brought her home *points at you*

Y/N- *looks at Jermaine confused*

Jermaine- When you let her in, when dad caught glimpse of her and that she's a college student, she's smart, beautiful and well-mannered, good family, he was pressuring me to get a girl like her. Asking why I couldn't be like you and find someone. You know how fucking insane that drive me?

Diggy- Insane enough to go after her, I know.

Michelle- *looks at them both* What?

Jermaine- You know that's in the past

Diggy- You didn't stop though, did you?! Was that dad in your ear telling you to pursue her as well?!

Y/N- *pushes Diggy out the room* That's enough!!

Diggy- No.. he needs to hear th.

Y/N- *shouts* I don't give a fuck about what y'all have to say to each other! *looks at them both* You both have lost your father! Does that not sink in your brain that you have ot stick together! The past does not matter anymore, what matters is what you're gonna do to preserve the best memories and work together to give him the proper goodbye he deserves. Not fighting. There's the kids upstairs sleeping and y'all acting like fools at this time.

Diggy- Fine.

Jermaine- I'm sorry..

Diggy- *sighs* *hugs him* I'm so sorry..

Y/N- *smiles at them*

Michelle- *glares at you*

Y/N- *looks at her* *frowns*

Michelle- *grabs Jermaine's hand* Time for bed huh?

Jermaine- *nods* Yeah..

Y/N- *looks at Diggy* Yeah, babe, we gotta talk.

Diggy- Oh. Okay *holds your hand and walks upstairs to the bedroom*

YOUR P.O.V.

*ten minutes later*

Diggy- *paces the room* I just.. I can't get my head around it. A heart attack? The man was healthy, he was strong and exercised often..

Y/N- *sits on the bed and nods* I know baby

Diggy- And then at the wedding, he was fine.. no problems, he spoke to me almost all night, you remember?

Y/N- *nods*

Diggy- How could he keep a heart condition form us? The man had so much pride, he never wanted me to see him weak, struggling.. he was always afraid to ask for anything because of who he was..

Y/N- Something you and Kelani got from him, huh?

Diggy- *chuckles* Yeah, I guess so.. man, it's crazy that he ain't here.

Y/N- He'd go crazy at us being in a different room right now. I can hear him shouting "why don't you kids spend any time with me?" *laughs* Then all his grandkids running down and tacking him to the floor..

Diggy- *smiles* I remember him telling me of his Run DMC days.. when I was little and he'd bring me and Jay on his tours, in his videos.. him telling me to be crazy on tour. Have fun, don't let the label control you.. and not to forget where you came from. Stay humble he said *looks down*

Y/N- *rubs his back* Looks like you kept his word to me *lifts his chin wit her finger* He's proud of you. Remember that.

Diggy- Yeah..

Y/N- He's proud of you and the father you are. To your kids and your baby.

Diggy- *confused* What bab.. *looks at you and rops to his knees*

Y/N- *nods* *covers her face and eyes fill up with tears* I know..

Diggy- Are you su..

Y/N- *nods frantically* I hope so. I really do.

Diggy- I'll do anything to protect you. you know that right? *puts his hands over your stomach*

Y/N- I know babe..

Diggy- *lifts your top* *kisses your stomach* You better be worth it

Y/N- *laughs a little* Your dad would be so proud of you Daniel.

Diggy- *looks up at you*