Chapter 20

DIGGY’S P.O.V.

Y/N- *sighs* I shouldn’t ha..

Diggy- *kisses you* Maybe we should *gets on top of you and kisses you deeper*

*the next morning* 

Jordan- *walks in the kitchen*

Diggy- *stops talking and looks at him*

Y/N- *turns around* *rolls her eyes*

Jordan- Y/N..

Y/N- Leave it.

Jordan- Diggy, can I talk to her for a minute?

Diggy- *looks at you warily* Sure…

Y/N- No. *looks at Jordan* We’re over

Jordan- Diggy, seriously I’ma need that minute with her alone..

Y/N- No! I’m not gonna sit here with you and listen to you pleading and begging for me to take you back and get back to where we were… that’s not happening

Jordan- *walks up to you* *holds you* Babe, I’ll do anythi..

Y/N- *pushes him away* *walks off* 

Jordan- Y/N, come on..

Y/N- Leave me alone. We’re done. *turns around* And you know what, you can have those hoes. You’re theirs now. I don’t want you. *walks upstairs*

Jordan- *sighs*

Diggy- *looks at him* You fucked up

Jordan- What do you know?

Diggy- I know you lost a good girl . That’s all anyone needs to know.

*later* 

Diggy- *knocks on your door* *walks in* You ready?

Y/N- *nods* *dabs her tears away*

Diggy- *walks over to you* (your initial), don’t cry.. I’m here, okay? Last night I was there and I’m still here

Y/N- *pulls away*About last night… it shouldn’t have happened Diggy.

Diggy- Y/N, you feel how I feel, you know it was right

Y/N- *shakes her head* No, I was angry and upset and.. I used you to get over someone I was crazy in love with and it was wrong.. and I was vulnerable and…

Diggy- And you needed me. I was there.

Y/N- Diggy, dont’ try to defend it. I love you like.. a bestfriend. It shouldn’t have happened.

Diggy- *steps back*

Y/N- *sighs and rubs her head* Can we just get out of here?

Diggy- *nods* *leaves with you and your bags* *goes downstairs*

Jordan- *sees you coming and stands up* Babe..

Y/N- *throws his keys at him* Don’t call me. Just stay away from me *walks out*

Diggy- *looks at him* *leaves with you*

*at the hotel*

Diggy- You okay?

Y/N- *doesn’t reply*

Diggy- *sits on the bed next to you* *kisses your cheek*

Y/N- *smiles a little*

Diggy- You like that huh? *kisses your lips*

Y/N- *pulls away* Um… *laughs nervously* Goodnight Dig

Diggy- *looks at you* Really? It’s like that huh?

Y/N- *nods* It’s… not what I want right now

Diggy- Alright *kisses your hand* Goodnight *leaves the room*

*four months later*

Interviewer- So.. let’s get to the real part the ladies all wanna know..

Diggy- *chuckles*

Y/N- *phone rings* *answers it* Hello?

Diggy- *glances over at you*

Y/N- *mouths* I’ll be over there *leaves*

Interviewer- Is there anyone in the picture right now? How’s your love life going?

Diggy- It’s… *sees you in the doorway* It’s great

Interviewer- So, you do have a lady you’ve been keeping from us?

Diggy- *laughs and blushes* Kinda. She’s amazing.. really intelligent and understanding of what I do.. *looks up at you*

Y/N- *looks in the hallway* *laughs and hangs up*

Jermaine- *walks over and hugs you*

Diggy- *face drops*

Jermaine/Y/N- *laugh*

Jermaine- *grabs your hand and smiles at you*

Interview- I think that’s it.. *shakes Diggy’s hand* Thank you so much.

Diggy- Yeah, yeah thank you. It was an honor *stands up* *walks over to you*

Jermaine- *reaches his hand out* Wassup Dig?

Diggy- *looks at his hand* *pushes it away* You know the deal wit me

Y/N- *raises her eyebrows at him* The hell is wrong with you?

Diggy- *pulls you to the side* What you doing with him?

Y/N- Going for lunch to talk business, I told you before..

Diggy- You didn’t say it was with him

Y/N- *blinks at him* Why, are you jealous?

Diggy- Becau.. *clears throat* I’m not

Y/N- *gives him the side eye*

Jermnaine- *claps his hands together* Y/N, we goin or not?

Y/N- Yeah… I’ll meet you out there.

Jermaine- *leaves*

Diggy- What about us?

Y/N- *looks at Diggy* Us? Diggy… what happened al that time ago is all that will happen, okay? I was wrong for taking advantage of you when I was vulnerable and I needed someone. 

Diggy- You know how I feel..

Y/N- I know but.. this whole complication with us, the media ego you have and the fact that I don’t even know what my feelings are with you… *sighs* I’ll see you later tonight, okay?

Diggy- Alright *watches you both leave*

YOUR P.O.V.

*hours later*

Jermaine- *picks at his food* So.. you and my brother huh?

Y/N- *glares at him* What do you want?

Jermaine- What? I’m just asking if there’s anything between you two

Y/N- Nothing. *sips her drink*  Why do you even care, you hate him

Jermaine- I don’t.. He hates me but, I just pushed him away when we grew up. I didn’t wanna be associated with someone who didn’t work for what they wanted

Y/N- *shakes her head* It’s different now. 

Jermaine- And.. I didn’t just wanna ask you about managing me

Y/N- Which I decline, by the way

Jermaine- *chuckles* Not yet… I wanted to ask you out.

Y/N- *blinks twice* What?

Jermaine- Come on, we’ve matured, we’ve grown up a little… and I do kinda feel for you. Always had little feelings for you

Y/N- That’s cute.. but your brother is my bestfriend. He wouldn’t like that

Jermaine- You need his approval?

Y/N- *shakes her head* No, no..

Jermaine- *smiles* So why not? What’s holding you back?

Y/N- Nothing, it’s… *sighs*

Jermaine- *holds your hands* Let’s just try baby steps… okay?

Y/N- *looks down*

Jermaine- *kisses your hand* No need to be scared, okay?

Y/N- *looks at him*

*two months later*

Okay, so as bad as it sounds, I worked out out and I was now working between Roc Nation and Def Jam for their management.. I managed Jermaine a little, and he was great to work with. So easy, fun, motivated but laid back.. and a perfect gentleman. Hiding this relationship from Diggy would be something that would be hard. It would… crush him. I didn’t wanna do that. 

Don’t ask me why I can’t just end up with Diggy.. it’s complicated to me. I’m scared of being hurt, messing up, everything going badly at this point. I know he’s good for me, I know how I feel and how he feels… but when you’re such good friends with that person and know them so, so well,  it’s hard for you to be romantic with them and risk ruining what you first had. I’m scared, I admit. He’s all I have here and I don’t wanna lose him.

DIGGY’S P.O.V.

Jermaine- *opens the door for you*

Y/N- Thank you *walks in the studio*

Diggy- *looks at him* What’s he doing here?

Jermaine- I’m working on something here too

Diggy- *looks at you* You booked us both in at the same time?!

Y/N- I had no choice.. he’s flying to LA in a few days and when he’s back, he’s too busy and so are you.

Diggy- *sighs*

Y/N- Just show me what you’ve been working on since I’ve been gone

Diggy- *grabs the computer*

*hours later*

It was cool that Jermaine was out of the way.. he’d be in the other room writing down lyrics, in the booth or just on the phone, I had Y/N all to myself. We laughed, talked and enjoyed each other’s company like we always did. I finally felt close to her.

YOUR P.O.V.

Diggy- *sighs* Why did you agree to sign him tho

Y/N- Diggy, it was an amazing opportunity. He’s a great guy to work with, great energy and passion for what he does

Diggy- *rolls his eyes*

Y/N- I see yo..

Diggy- *points at you* Don’t say you see me in him, don’t ever day that

Y/N- *pauses* I was gonna say, I see you both collaborating one day

Diggy- *looks at you* Whatever..

Jermaine- *walks in* My turn in the booth?

Y/N- Yeah, yeah.. just lemme get the song up there. *gets up*

Diggy- I’ll go get some food.. *gets up and goes to the door*

Jermaine- grabs his arm* Daniel.. I just wanted to *sighs* Can’t we go back to that one time when we were younger and be best friends?

Diggy- *looks at him*

Jermaine- For Y/N’s sake?

Diggy- Why her sake?

Jermaine- Cause she’s my g.. *clears throat* our manager.

Diggy- *shakes head* Not even for her sake.. *leaves*

Y/N- *swivels around in the chair* *looks at Jermaine* I’m sorry

Jermaine- Don’t be babe.. get the seventh track.. I wanna record that for you..

Y/N- *looks at the computer* But it says it’s finished..

Jermaine- Lemme rap you a little something.. *gets in the booth*

Y/N- *plays the song*

The song.. he sang a little, he rapped a little fast, slow on the chorus.. he just rhymed about how much he… loved me. How no one compared to me.. he’d wish he could spend his life with me.. how he got so lucky to even find me and be with me. Almost like a proposal. My heart… melted.

DIGGY’S P.O.V.

Diggy- *hears music playing* *walks in the room*

Y/N- *walks in the booth*

Jermaine- *stops rapping* *sees you and smiles*

Y/N- *wraps her arms around his neck* You actually wrote that about me?

Jermaine- Every word babygirl, you’re made for me

Y/N- *laughs* I don’t think so

Jermaine- *smirks* *kisses you gently*

Diggy- *walks over to the laptop* *presses pause*

Y/N- *looks over* *pulls away from Jermaine*

Diggy- *folds his arms* You got something to tell me?