Chapter 11

YOUR P.O.V.

Y/N- Really?

Diggy- Yeah.. I mean..  I can’t do this on my own.. I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for you

Y/N- *holds his hands* You wouldn’t have been kicked out of your house and broke if it wasn’t for me

Diggy- *holds your hands tighter* I wouldn’t be chasing my dreams either. I don’t know what it is, but you bring out something amazing in me. Making me feel like I can do anything when you’re around. I mean you love New York, you work there, your college is there…

Y/N- Diggy, how the hell am I gonna do that? My family is here, how the hell are you gonna grab your stuff and just move to New York?

Diggy- *shrugs* I have enough for a small apartment somewhere, I know it. I just know I can do it

Y/N- And with me? Dig, I’m in college. I have two years to go, I’v got this job that I need to hold down, I have this divorce I’m dealing with and I literally just got back home. It’s so much

Diggy- It is.. *looks away*

Y/N- I’m sorry. I really would but… not right now

Diggy- *shakes head* It’s fine. It can wait. 

Y/N- No, Diggy I don’t want you to

Diggy- *shrugs a little* *gets up and leaves*

I just watched him go. Without another word uttered from his mouth, but I knew he wanted to be left alone. But I couldn’t just get up and leave my whole life, with everything I’m going through right now, that was impossible. But I hated letting him down. He was so adamant about it happening…

*a few days later*

Dad- And I said for you to leave! Don’t make me call the police to get you off my property!

Y/N- *runs downstairs with Evie* Dad, what the hell is going on?!

Dad- I’m getting him the fuck outta here *grabs him*

Andre- I just wanna talk to her! *looks at you* Y/N, I just wanna talk to you!!

Y/N- Dad, get off him, leave , please!

Dad *lets go of him* *glares at Andre and walks away*

Andre- *brushes his clothes off*

Evie- *folds arms* Talk to her about what?

Andre- Evie, this isn’t about you, stop playing the sidekick

Evie- Sidekick? I’m her sister, it has as much to do with me now that you broke her heart.

Andre- *looks at you* I want my stuff back

Y/N- Your stuff?

Evie- What stuff?

Andre- That wedding ring.. and the engagement ring. I want it back

Y/N- *scoffs and shakes her head* I can’t believe you

Evie- *raises her eyebrow* You put her through hell… and not even an apology to her or our family.. but a ring? That’s all you came for?

Andre- I gave that to her.

Evie- Exactly, you gave it to her..

Y/N- *throws her hands up* You know what?! Fuck it, I don’t care, I don’t fucking care *walks upstairs* *goes in her room* *grabs the rings on the dresser* *walks out and down the stairs* You can take your stupid rings.. *shoves them in his hand*

Andre- *looks at his hand* *looks at you*

Y/N- Cause, you know what, I would have kept them. *points at him* As horribly as you treated me and as much as I would love to hate you right now, I can’t…. Because for a brief time, you mattered to me. They reminded me of when we were happy.. *blinks away her tears* And how you made me feel when you put those rings on my finger and I was yours and you were mine and… I hate that I’m over you and part of me still loves you a little bit… *sniffles and shakes her head* But none of that even matters to you. *closes the door*

Evie- *looks at you* *rubs your back* You okay?

Y/N- *shakes her head* *wipes her eyes and walks to her room*

*a week later*

DIGGY’S P.O.V.

Y/N- *walks upstairs*

Diggy- *walks out with a box*

Y/N- *looks at the box* What’s going on?

Diggy- I’m leaving.

Y/N- What?

Diggy- New York is just a little bit closer for me now..

Y/N- How.. when?

Diggy- I met with a realtor.. she got me a little apartment in Queens..

Y/N- *smiles a little* Moving back home, huh?

Diggy- *nods* It’s not too late for you to come with

Y/N- I er… I’ve gotta be here for everyone

Diggy- *shrugs and smiles* Aite.. *walks downstairs with the box*

Y/N- *watches him go*

*later that day*

YOUR P.O.V.

Y/N- *opens the door*

Andre- *smiles a little* Hi..

Y/N- You shouldn’t be here

Andre- I know.. I know and.. I just came to say sorry, Y/N. For all I put you through..

Y/N- Do you know how many problems you’ve caused for us? You have no idea how much you even hurt me

Andre- And I’m sorry.. *goes in his pocket* *gives you the rings in a box* I wanted to give these back 

Y/N- *opens it and sees the rings* *closes it*

Andre- I thought about what you said.. I did love you. And, I know how much they meant to you, you can cash them , pawn them, sell them… and this *hands you an envelope*

Y/N- What’s this?

Andre- I don’t know if it’s gonna repair the damage I’ve done to everyone for the last couple months… but it might pay off this year’s college tuition. 

Y/N- *looks in it* *hands it to him* You can’t give this to me, that’s a lotta money

Andre- I owe this to you. Take it *pushes it in your hand* I’m telling you to take it

Y/N- *looks at it* *looks at him* Why?

Andre- Because part of me.. a huge part of me will always love you Y/N. If it’s anything I’ve learned… if it’s anything I’ve learned from, you, it’s to finish something in the same style it started. What we had only began with kindness. I wanna end it with that *turns around*

Y/N- *grabs his hand* *hands him the envelope* I can’t right now. *goes in the house* *closes the door*

*that night*

DIGGY’S  P.O.V.

Sean/Evie- *hug Diggy*

Sean- Promise to call me when you’re famous and talking to Jhené Aiko, huh? You need to hook me up with her..

Diggy- *laughs* I promise.. *pats his back*

Mom- *hugs him* Be safe… and call me, whenever you can. I only want you to be okay

Diggy- I promise mom, don’t worry about me *lets go of her*

Dad- *walks up to him* See you later.. *man hugs him*

Diggy- *smiles at him*

Y/N- *looks at him*

Dad- *looks at you* Come on guys, let’s give them a little space..

*everyone walks inside*

Diggy- *looks at you*

Y/N- *looks at him shyly* Feels like I’m saying goodbye to half of myself.  I never thought you’d leave so soon.. 

Diggy- I have to chase the opportunity sooner than later

Y/N- *slowly walks up and hugs him*

Diggy- *hugs you closer and tighter* It’s gonna be alright

Y/N- *shakes her head in his chest* I need you next to me to tell me what I’m doing wrong and how weird I am sometimes

Diggy- *chuckles* I know.. *rubs her back* I know.

I didn’t wanna let her go. This was probably one of the most hardest goodbyes I’d ever done. I just held her for so long.. it was like I lost a part of myself in a best friend. Her hair smelt like it’d been washed recently. Her perfume battled with my cologne for the strongest smell.

I knew her foundation was rubbing off a little on my shirt, but it didn’t matter. I heard her deep breaths, her longing hands holding onto me tight so I wouldn’t separate from her… but my cab to New York was waiting.

Y/N- *lets go of him* *looks at him* You’ll be safe, right?

Diggy- *nods and laughs a little* Promise you’ll visit?

Y/N- Everyday after work, I swear.

Diggy- *hugs you again* *whispers* I’ll miss you the most. *lets go of you* *grabs his bag and goes to the car*

Y/N- *walks in the house*

YOUR P.O.V.

Sean- *waves at him* *closes the door* He’s gone.

Dad- *sighs in the chair* Finally

Mom- *looks at him* What’s that supposed to mean?

Y/N- *looks at him* Yeah, what?

Dad- *looks at you all* Oh, come on.. he’s moving to New York, why? To be a rapper? Of all things?

Y/N- You don’t even know what he’s capable of. He’s trying to make something of himself

Dad- The rap game is weak, he’ll be so lucky to make something of himself in that.. I just thought someone with that much ambition would have chosen the smarter path..

Y/N- *looks at him* Dad, just because you settled for what you couldn’t have doesn’t mean other shave to stoop to your level

Dad- *looks at you* Excuse me?

Y/N- You settled for a job you didn’t even want because your dad didn’t believe in your ideas. You’ve been doing your job for years and you hate it. So much that you think it’s normal and needed for us kids to have the average life you have.. well Diggy’s not like that. He aims high, so high

Dad- And unrealistically

Y/N- It’s ambition. It’s dreams and everything he’s wanted since he was a kid and.. *laughs a little* Now I see what he was talking about with his family. You’re just like them. You ridicule what he wants, put him down so he doesn’t get too ahead of himself in your eyes

Dad- Pshh, he’s just a kid. He’ll realise it sooner or later that it won’t work

Y/N- And when it does, what happens then?

Dad- *shrugs* I’ll be here, sipping my beer during retirement.

Y/N- *thinks and shakes her head* I’m fed up of this… *walks upstairs*

*a few nights later*

Y/N- *throws clothes in a bag*

Evie- *walks in your room* What are you doing?

Y/N- I’m going Evie.

Evie- Where? It’s 10:30 at night

Y/N- New York. *zips up the bag*

Evie- *smirks at you*

Y/N- *looks at her* Shut up.. I’ll be home in a few days. I just have to make one stop before I get there.. *grabs her bags*

*an hour later*

Andre- *opens the door*

Y/N- I need that envelope

Andre- *looks at his watch* You see the time (your initial)?

Y/N- Andre, please

Andre- *looks at the cab outside* Where you going?

Y/N- Away from here

Andre- What about the..

Y/N- It’ll happen. 

Andre- *goes and gets the envelope* It’s all there *hands it to you*

Y/N- *looks in it* *looks at him* Thanks…. *leaves*

Andre- Wish you the best

Y/N- *looks at him *gets in the cab*

DIGGY’S P.O.V.

*two hours later*

Diggy- *turns off the tv* *rubs his eyes*

I must admit, being here alone sucks. It was no fun. When your friends haven’t bothered to call and are all busy anyway, I had nothing to do except watch tv and go to work. 

*doorbell rings*

Diggy- *looks at his watch* *walks to the door* *opens it*

Y/N- *smiles* Need a roommate? Like you said, you can’t do this on your own

Diggy- *laughs to himself and hugs you tight*