part 36(another lie)

for a moment, i couldn't understand anything...for a few minutes I was still...my mind went blank as soon as I saw him...he was standing just a few feet away from me..i never thought he'll ever want to come back...I mean if i was him...i wouldn't have this much courage to show up in front of my mom after all these years....but he came back...will his mom forgive him?....will i have to give any explanation to her?...how would she react?..my eyes were stuck on him...they were shot opened..i don't know if i blinked my eyes or not...but what was more surprising is that he was looking at me too...with an emotion I can't quite understand...was it... concern...fear...or something else i couldn't see... everything around me was a blur...it was like it's just me and him and nobody else.....

I came out of my thoughts as I heard his mom say something to me...

"Y/n...I..I think I am hallucinating...i-i can see my son...yoongi...i can see him.."she said pointing towards yoongi...i blinked my eyes and looked towards her..only to see her hands shaking...her whole body...from her face to toe...were trembling...sweats forming on her forehead as if she had seen a ghost...

"Mom.. you're not hallucinating...he....he is really here"i said hesitantly...she turned her face towards me her eyes widened...she opened her mouth to say something but no words came out from her mouth...she is in shock...

"Can you see him too....yong can you too?"she asked me but when i didn't give her any answer she asked yong...and he nodded happily...

"He is yoongi...hobi uncle's friend...we met him when we were in Paris..."yong spilled the tea...

I looked at yoongi... and now he was looking at his mom...with tears brimming in his eyes... ofcourse he must have missed his only family...

"No...how can it be.."his mom whispered a little too loud but then she lost her balance and fainted right there...she fell down unconsciously with a loud thud...

"Mom!"we both said at the same time while yong gasp out of sudden shock...

In no time I sat on my knees to wake her up just then he came beside me so fast i couldn't even notice him coming...he tapped her cheek but she didn't wake up so he carried her in his arms and started going upstairs as me and yong followed him...

Once inside the room he made her lay on her bed and called the doctor..after that he stood up straight and turned around to see us...

"What happened to halmeoni,mom?"yong asked as he was innocently standing at the door...

"Halmeoni is okay baby... don't worry she'll wake up in no time"i assure him.."you should go play in your room right?"he nodded and went to his room...

Now it was just me and yoongi and an unconscious mom...

He looked at me with guilt clearly showing on his face..

"I...i"he stuttered and this time i thought to just ask him..

"Why did you come back?"I asked sternly with no emotion in my eyes...i just can't tolerate seeing him... atleast not right now...not after betrayal...

"What?...i..i am"he was about to say something when I cut him off..

"Don't"i said showing my palm as to stop him..but he being he...

"I can explain"he said to which i scoff and rolled my eyes...

"I don't need your explanation"i said and walked away from him...

Although my heart is beating faster than usual...but I just don't care about it anymore...i know it was my fault in the first place...it was my fault to fall for him...how...just how could I think about him falling in love with me?...it never crossed my heart that maybe just maybe he was in relationship with someone... He was a celebrity...how could he have fallen for me...i was stupid... immature...and on top of all of that i was obsessed...it was like I was possessed...that i just wanted to make him mine...

But in the middle of all of this...i only hurt myself and him...

Yoongi p.o.v.

She left me once again not giving me any chance to explain myself or to say sorry... everything is just so messed up right now...my mom fainted from shock...and the one I came here for,...left me hanging alone again...All because of me...

I don't want to think about it...but maybe...what if she doesn't love me anymore?...I mean it's obvious that she hates me...but you know when they say that there's one person you can't unlove even if you want to ever in your lifetime...your first love...i believe that I was her first love but...what make me doubt myself is...does she still love me or not?...has she moved on?...no matter what is this but i know for sure that I'll pull that love out of her heart for me... I'll make sure she starts loving me again...

I sighed and ran my hand in my hairs..my eyes shifted to the bed where my mom is still laying unconscious...i step forward and sat beside her...i don't know how I'll explain everything to her...how will she react..she'll probably hate me too after knowing the truth...

"Mom..i..i don't know if you'll ever be able to forgive me when I'll tell you the truth to how I am still alive"..i said as i held her hand in mine..my voice sorrowful..eyes looking down..

"I am sorry mom...i act a big lie back then and I am going to do this again...you know what they say that..to hide a lie you have to tell hundred more lies.. that's what I am gonna do...i am gonna lie to you again...and I am so sorry for that..."just then the door opens...and she walks in again and i quickly stood up cause I thought she is here to actually listen to me...but when she moved to the side letting the person enter the room i understood why she is here...

"Here doctor..she fainted suddenly...after seeing her son..."y/n explained to the doctor who was checking mom's pulses and heartrate and all that..

"Hm...she is alright.. she'll wake up in a few minutes...these are her medicines...she fainted from shock...but can you tell me why she got shocked to see her own son?"he asked as he kept the medicines in the bedside table...

"Actually I....came home after many years... without telling her..."i said as i carefully looked towards y/n..but she didn't said anything maybe because she understands that it's not necessary to tell the doctor about everything...

"Oh..be careful..and calmly talk to her when she wakes up..i should take my leave now..if anything happens again don't hesitate to call me"he said and we bowed to him..

Once he was gone silence took the place again...for a few minutes i didn't say anything to her...we just sat there on either side of our mom..

Some minutes later..i sense something moving beside me so i looked towards my right side...it was mom..her hand moved a little..

"Mom...mom are you awake?open your eyes mom"i said as i quickly tapped her cheek,seeing me y/n also came out from her deep thoughts..and started calling for mom..

"Mom..it's me open your eyes please"i heard her say..soon after about three minutes mom opened her eyes slowly...blinking her eyes to adjust to the lightning..

Once she was fully awake she looked to her right side to see y/n..

"Are you okay mom?"she asked,her face clearly showing that she was concerned about mom..mom weekly smiled at her..

"Yes dear..i am fine...I think..i just saw a dream...about yoongi...that maybe he came back alive..."she said smiling at her..but soon her smile vanished as she frowned seeing y/n forced smile...

Y/n's eyes travelled towards me and mom turned her head slowly towards her left side only to sit up from her laying position as her mouth leave a gasp..

"Y/n...he..yoongi."she said as her eyes started filling with tears as she turned her head to y/n while her index finger pointing towards me...

"Relax mom...relax.. everything is great..i am here..just...just calm down"y/n immediately held her hand that was pointed towards me and console her..she was stuttering and anyone can tell that she was on the verge of crying..

And just now..I have realised that she seems like she has built a strong bond with mom...cause when we were newly married mom didn't like her that much back than... of course because of that force marriage thing but now seeing her calming down when y/n was consoling her it is clear that she has accepted her as her daughter...and I am happy for that...

Soon when she calmed down..she looked towards me..her hand reached to my cheek as she held my face with her left hand...

"I am not seeing things..am i?"she asked y/n..

"No mom...he is really here... yoongi is alive.."she said slowly..

"Mom...... it's been so long..."i said as tears brimmed in my eyes but I was quick to blink them away...

She immediately hugged me tightly while saying"my son...oh my god... you're fine...you...you are alive..."and i couldn't hold back my tears anymore and hugged her tightly while my tears fell from my eyes and just right there I broke down..i don't care if y/n saw me crying...

All the guilt i was feeling at the moment came out from my eyes in the form of a tear..

"I...i missed you mom...so much...i...i am sorry"i sobbed and she patted my back..

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After our emotional moment....mom didn't ask about how I was saved and how come i didn't contact any of us...

"Yoongi..."mom asked as we were sitting in the living room's couch while watching a random show...

"Yes eomma"i said and she put her head on my shoulder but her next question made me freeze for a moment..

"Who saved you?I mean we were told that your car was totally crashed and we couldn't even see your face then how are you alive.."i turned my head towards her then to the floor..

"Actually...i was not alone that day...i was with one of my friend..we were talking about something related to music..just then a truck came suddenly in front of us...our car collided with the truck..my side of door opened,i don't know how...and everything happened so fast...i found myself in the bushes...my vision was blurring but I saw the car rolling and rolling and then boom!...the car blasted...just then I think I fainted cause when i opened my eyes i was in a unfamiliar hospital room..."i made up a lie...i am so sorry mom..but I can't tell you the truth cause I don't want you to hate me...

Just then my eyes went towards the kitchen...where I saw y/n looking at me...when our eyes met...i can tell it was pure hatred in her eyes...she shook her head sideways..her expression telling me how disgusted she feels...i know...i was disgusted at myself too..but what had to be done...is already done...i can't change that..i can just try to make things right from now on...

"Then who was that?with the name of min yoongi?and..jin told us that the call came from your number....."she asked...ugh...now I have to think of something more...

"You're telling the truth yoongi right?"she asked to which i immediately nodded.."of course mom...you don't believe me?...when I woke up I found out that i don't have my phone with me...maybe it fell from my pocket when I fell out from my car...and the police may had find the phone and called jin...and the person...I think it was my friend...."i said and she nodded...

"I feel bad for his family...i am happy that you're alive.. in front of me...fit and fine.."she said and hugged me..i hugged her back as the tears of guilt again dropped out from my eyes..

Y/n p.o.v.

After there emotional moment I leave them alone to have some mom son time...i went in my room and started thinking...how I'll tell mom..how I'll explain everything to her?... should I tell her the truth?..as much as i hate him for ruining everything..i don't want to seperate the mom from his son...i am not that cruel..

We go through so much in our life..but no one has the right to hurt the other just because there luck was not good...what has to happen will happen..not this way then the other...we can't control it...we can't change our fate...and that is life...and we should always remember that...doing something bad with people will not take us anywhere good..not in this world and not after this...

Suddenly I was feeling thirsty but like those horror movies.. there's not water here...so i sighed and stood up to drink the water..i made my way downstairs and to the kitchen..i can see them sitting silently watching a show..his mom's head resting on his shoulder..an unknowing smile made its way to my face...I drank the water..I took my first sip..then second...i was about to take the third sip..but then I heard her asking questions to yoongi...

I heard him... telling lies after lies...i scoff...he should be an actor..he is not even hesitating..he is a pro at making lies...when he completed explaining lies..his eyes met mine...but before i could even notice something in his eyes...he turned around when his mom asked him another question and he started making more lies...

I sighed and went to my room...i think I shouldn't tell anything to mom .since he has already made up a lie...I think he doesn't want her to hate him...Even i don't want her to hate him...i know i hate him...but i just can't do it..

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"Wow...they look.. ethereal...aww...how handsome he is looking.."me and mom awed as we were watching BTS's live performance..that is in Paris...i couldn't go back again...or should I say..i didn't wanted to back so here I am with mom and yong sitting in living room...with three light stick in our hands... volume on full...

all six of them.. performing songs after songs...and it was so amazing...i swear if i was in Paris..I would have shouted my heart out for them just like a fan girl...

BTS have come so far...all because of their hard work...

I was lost in the concert when I felt something on my ear...my hair moved...no something has moved them...

I got scared and bent forward as I yelled..

"Ommo...what was that"just then I heard yong's laugh and mom's chuckling...

"It's yoongi uncle...mom"he said and got up to pull yoongi's hand to make him sit on the couch..mom scooted to her left side same as me to make space for him to sit..he sat just beside me and yong cradled up in his lap..

It's been one week since he is here...I mean since he came back to his mom...to his home...i don't talk to him...cause afterall..why would I right?..i don't want to say this but avoiding him...hurts me somewhere in my heart.....

Meanwhile.. there's he...who keeps doing things...no matter if it's silly or not...just so I will say anything to him..even if it's an argument...just like now...he would appear in front of me or would purposely hit my foot with his...and then call it an accident..

But...me is me...i am not the old me... who'll fall in his trap again...no I'll not fall for him this time...

But these little things...still make my heart beat faster..

And just now...my heart is beating faster...from his act...or from the sudden jumpscare I got...i don't know...but whatever it is...i hate it...i don't wanna feel It...

"Oh..is it live?"he asked no one but mom answered..

"Yes.. it's live..you know I told you some days ago that there'll be a concert...why don't you join them anymore?..."

"I..uh...mom they don't know about my survival and all that just like you..only hoseok knows...but I am thinking of telling them soon"he said while I just sat there straight not moving and inch..cause i don't want my body to touch his if I sat comfortabely..

"I have to make a call.. I'll be back"i said and stood up...i was about to go when he held my wrist...

I looked at him and saw him in the eyes...his eyes saying... please stay...but maybe I am wrong?...

"Please......stay"he said carefully...I stood there silently looking at him in the eyes for a minute...

I don't know why...but I jerked my hand from his while gritting my teeth in anger and sat down again in my seat...in between mom and him...

To be continued

I don't know what it was... boring and short chapter compared to others...

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