part 33(Second lead?)

Yoongi pov

"Yong let's eat breakfast"I called yong who was playing with his toy car that i brought for him yesterday as i sat down on the chair in the dining room."I'll eat with mom today"he said as he made his way towards the kitchen where jhope was taking out the soup he ordered for y/n..

It's been one and half a weeks since she woke up...since I have last tried talking to her...i am banned from going in her room...cause she asked...not just asked but begged jhope to not let me enter her room..

I know she needs time..and I know she probably hates me now..after knowing that i leave her alone for another girl..i totally understand her feelings..i know I have hurt her and i know I'll make it up to her no matter how many days or years it takes..

Although it's hard to forgive someone..specially a cheater... I'll keep trying...after all she is my life....

"Yoongi start eating man..the cereal is getting cold"hoseok said as he sat down on the dining table in front of me... of course after giving y/n her soup and yong's breakfast...

I nodded my head and started eating but stopped in between to ask about her health..

"How is she now?"hearing my question he stopped eating and looked at me and nodd his head as a yes with a smile..

"Does she....talk about me?should I now go and talk to her?..."I asked carefully not to say anything wrong.

"I don't know...if she is ready to talk or not..I mean if she even wants to talk to you or not..she Even doesn't talk to me much..."he says while looking down as guilt was eating him up....Guilt of helping me....Guilt of helping a cheater...

"Let's finish this...after that we have to think about how to tell the other members and your mom...."he sighed before speaking again....

Yeah my mom....

Thinking about her...how I'll face her after being dead in her point of viewI held my spoon and started eating...

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After having our breakfast.... hoseok went to the company to do practice for their upcoming concert...that is in just few weeks... leaving me here alone....first i thought i should go and go to some park or somewhere peaceful but then I decided to stay here...So now I am just sitting here on the couch....the living room's couch....

There's silence in the house....not even yong's voice can be heared....maybe he fell asleep....It's afternoon...i thought of sleeping but couldn't...

I decided to peek a little inside her room to see what she and yong are doing....

I stood up,lift my right foot and step forward then the other foot...and like this i started walking towards her room...

Reaching in front of her room... thankfully the door was open...i opened the door a little...the door made a little creak sound to which i closed my eyes tightly afraid if she would be awake... she'll know that I am watching her and she'll react like last time....

Opening the door just a little i peeked inside her room only to see both of them sleeping on the bed...yong was hugging y/n and so as y/n... carefully i stepped inside leaving the door open...and walked towards her bed...

I stood there looking at them...she is healing...she looks better than when I last saw her...her hairs are open and some strands are falling on her eyes and nose...she is looking less paller than last time...her hairs grew a little...my eyes went to her hand that was hugging yong....the same hand to which the IV drip was attached...it was not there anymore...the doctor came to check up on her last week and took it out saying there's no need for this now....

But the mark was still there...

I gulped my own saliva...as i felt my throat tightening...'what did I do...'i thought...And mindlessly lean a little closer to her as i bend down a little....I forwarded my hand towards her face and gently pushed the hairs out of her face and placed them behind her ear....

'oh god....how I wish I could just hold her...'

I stare at her silently....with so much love in my eyes....

'the last thing I would want to see before I die would be her...'

Hell no....i am not dieing before i win her back...

'I'll show you that i have changed...that I am not that cheater.... I'll show you... I'll prove it to you that I am not that rascal who you loved...i am the one who loves you more than yourself....'

"Mum...when will dad be back..."I came back to my senses as I heard yong mumbling in his sleep....I smiled a little and looked at him...

I frowned...his eyes looked like...mine...not just eyes...his nose,lips... everything of him reminds me of my childhood....

From the day i have been taking care of him...I have always noticed these similarities in him...but ignored it...

But now...the more I am looking at him...the more he is looking like me...

I wonder who his father is...

How can he look exactly like me....what if......he is my child?.....

How?...I mean it's been 5 years...

The door bell rings indicating to me that someone has come... probably hoseok...i turn around after placing a soft kiss on yong's forehead and walk outside the room...

As expected it was hoseok..."Haaahhh....i am exhausted..."he said sighing loudly and lay down on the couch..."How are they doing?"i asked as i sat down.."All good...i recorded a video of all of them to show you..."he said as he sat up again...his cheerful side back...

Y/n pov

I am healing fast... it's a good thing... it's so silent but peaceful here...after the last time I fainted... doctor strictly said to me to take proper rest if I want to heal quickly....and I did...last week doctor came to check up on me and took out the IV drip and said i am healing fast and I can walk little if I want...

Now that I am awake...yong sleeps with me...I wonder who he was sleeping with when I was in coma?...j hope?...or....him?....

Yong often tells me about how good hoseok is...but still his favourite buddy is jimin...

He even tells me about him..yoongi..he says yoongi is fun to be around...he says yoongi looks cool...and that he wants to be like him when he grows up...he says yoongi loves yong...he says yoongi spins him...he says yoongi plays video games with him...he says yoongi teaches him how to read books and play guitar.....

He says...he wishes yoongi was his dad.....

I wipe my tears off as i realise I've been crying.... crying for who?...for myself that i get this fate...or for yong...that he is craving for a dad...and i can't even tell him that the one he is wishing to be his dad...is actually his dad....or for yoongi....that I fell in love with that bastard....who is nothing but just a selfish jerk....

I asked hoseok to not let yoongi enter my room...since that day I've not seen him... it's a relief..i don't wanna see him... although I have so many questions to ask him...

"Mum!... let's have breakfast.."i came out of my thoughts...as yong came in the room shouting while running...he climbed on the bed and sat on my lap...

Behind him hoseok came with a tray of food..."Here you go...have this and after this have your medicine ok...and you can come downstairs if you want... it must be boring here..."he said quietly and i just nodded...then he left the room... leaving only me and my baby...

"Mum you know what?..yoongi bought me a toy car yesterday..and he was saying that he'll take me to an amusement park... Tomorrow..."and...his yoongi talk started....

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After checking up on me in the afternoon,if I want anything or not...hoseok leave for his dance practice with other members as they have a concert in a couple of weeks... leaving me , yong and yoongi at home...yong is playing in my room with his new toys while sitting on the floor...As I was scrolling through instagram on my phone...I got a text message from soobin..

Message

Soobin:Y/naaa..how you doing?are you okay?

Me:yeah I am good now... healing fast..i can even walk a little.

Soobin: it's good..

Me:how's everything going in the company??and where are you?are you still here in Paris?or in Seoul?

soobin: everything is good...just.... someone is missing their boss...and yeah I am stil in Paris..

Me:aww..tell that someone to not worry.... their boss will be back to work in a few days maybe...

Soobin:rest well...and eat well...and yaah you didn't send me hoseok's address...

Me:yeah sorry sorry...i forgot... I'll send it to you now...*16,rue de saussure*

Soobin:👍🏻okey... I'll come around to see you..

Me:okey.. I'll be waiting.

Soobin:yeah take care of yourself and yong too... I've some work see you later.

I put my phone down and looked at yong as he climbed on the bed and snuggled in my neck...

"Are you sleepy baby?"I asked which he nodded.."Okey.. let's have some sleep"i said and laid down while hugging him...and soon we fell asleep...

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I feel like someone is touching me...the touch resembles a feather...so gentle and soft...i could also feel someone breathing just near my face...

I opened my eyes as I heard yong mumbling in his sleep...

"Mum...when will dad be back?"

Only to see his side profile....the breath i felt a while ago...and the feather like touch... belonged to non other than him....min yoongi...

I feel like sitting up...or just ran out of his sight...but seeing him looking at yong...his full focus was on yong that he didn't realise that i woke up...i stayed still...

He frowned a little...lines on his forehead started to appear...as he squinted his eyes...my heart started to beat faster...cause of two reasons...first,he is looking at yong so closely..what if he found out that it's his child.... second,even after all those years...even after what he had done to me...even after knowing that he cheated on me... looking at him still makes my fucking heart to beat faster for him...

I kept looking at him as he was looking at yong...with so much love in his eyes...the love...that only a father can do with his child...

Looking at him...makes me remember all the lovely,funny moments i had lived with him....all the moments..that were so precious to me...but looking at him also brings back the pain he has caused me...

The pain of loving but not being loved.....

My vision blurred as my eyes started filling with tears...I could see his face blurring...

'You should have really died... then I would have felt a little less pain than the pain I am feeling now'

The voices in my head are screaming at him....but no sound coming from my mouth....

'oh...my god...how I wish...it was all a bad dream'

He was the prettiest boy i had ever seen...he was the boy every girl would die to marry for...i was that girl too...but what I didn't know was...that there's a really immature lovesick kid behind this pretty face...

It always happens like this, right... We just run behind beautiful faces...We don't even think about how the person hiding behind that beautiful face really is...what goes on in their mind...what they think about us...right? it's always beauty... before what they truly are...

We think if someone is beautiful...they are good people...but what we don't know is...we can't just judge peoples by their beauty...cause everyone is beautiful in their own way...but not everyone is a good person...

'Why did you do this yoongi?...you could have talked to me...you could have divorced me...we talked about it right?...but you choose to mess everything...why?'

I closed my eyes as the door bell rings and yoongi flinched aLittle and stood straight then kissed yong's forehead and started walking towards the door...i opened my eyes and watched him leaving...and the tears fell out of my eyes...

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In past 1 month...i came downstairs first time while running with a big smile on my face as i heard the voice...that belongs to no one but my best friend....soobin...

When I talk to him this morning I never thought that he'll come today to see me... it's so unexpected...

"Hey! don't run.. you're still weak"he yelled with a big smile as he also came running to me...

And just like that...we collide into each other...i was in the air cause he's so tall that I had to jump just to hug him by his neck....he put his hands on my waist to prevent me from falling.. we hugged eachother tightly...

"Finally you're here"i said in the crook of his neck...

We broke the hug as we heard someone clearing their throat..

"Hoseok...meet him...he is my assistant and bestfriend..soobin."i said as i signal him with my hands towards soobin..

Hoseok nodded his head and said"yeah i know..I asked him when I opened the door..."

They both handshake with each other.

"I know you... you're j hope right?..you guys are quite famous.."hobi smiled his sunshine smile as soobin said this..

"Um let's go sit at the couch... we'll talk there"i said to soobin as i grabbed his hand..

Entering in the living room...i froze as i saw yoongi sitting on the living room's couch...he looked at us.. totally clueless as he saw soobin...

Seeing him made my heart beat faster again...ughh i hate this heart...why can't it accept it that i shouldn't be his...

Seeing him looking at soobin...my eyes to went towards him...and he was as much shocked to see eyoingi as me...He looked at me...and then i realised why he is so shocked to see yoongi...

He raised his eyebrows at me as if asking me for an explanation..

Of course...his mind is totally blank just like mine was when I saw yoongi after 5 years...

BTS were quite famous even 5 years ago...so ofcourse soobin has seen yoongi in pictures...and cause soobin is my bestfriend...he knows everything about me and yoongi... everything...from our marriage to his death...I didn't tell soobin about me seeing yoongi accidentally at a park...cause I wanted to move on from him...after all i hate him right?...

Just as he was about to say something a voice came with the sounds of boots clicking on the stairs....

"Soobin...soobin!you came"all of us turned out heads to the side from where the voice was coming and saw yong came running down the stairs...

A big smile appeared on soobin face as he kneeled down to embrace yong in his big arms...

"Hey my buddy...you okey?..I missed attending your parents teacher meetings with you"they broke the hug...

"We were about to die...and you're telling me you missed attending my parents teacher meetings..."yong says with a pout on his little face...

He is looking adorable..

We all laugh .. Except for the one person in the room...who was looking at us blankly...trying to understand our relationship with eachother...

"Ok ok we've got a long night to talk about these things but... first of all we have to fill out stomach...right yong"hoseok said with a happy smile on his face....

The smile that is not fake....

"Yoongi!... let's go"yong said as he hold yoongi's hand with his tiny ones...

They walked ahead yong...Yong's one hand was holding yoongi's hand while the other was holding soobin's hand....

He loves both of them...

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"After meeting you guys I am feeling like i should start singing too..."soobin said jokingly...

"Yeah then I'll tell all my teachers that my dady is an idol.."yong said and laugh excitedly...Soobin laughed too but the three of us frozed...

'oh no.... should i explain?'

"You're y/n's husband?i thought she is still single?...."hoseok said....

"No actually yong don't have a father so..every month me and y/n goes to his school to attend PTM as husband a d wife so no one will bully yong over not having a father"soobin cleared it all...

I took a sigh of relief and pass him a smile....

"then who are you exactly?"after an eternity finally he decides to break the silence....yoongi....

"Just a...... friend?soobin said his eyes darkened when he was looking at yoongi...with his cold eyes...

A shiver ran down my spine....

'he can look hot as well?'

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We were sitting in my room...hoseok and yoongi went back to their rooms just after dinner....and we came here...

We were just sitting....when soobin decided to break the silence...

"Do you want to talk to your brother and cousins?they called me a few times when you weren't picking up...they asked me if you're okey or not..."he said and yong came up on the bed as he listened...

"Are we going to see dae uncle?"he asked excitedly jumping a little on the bed...

"Yess my honey "i said pinching his cheeks....

Soobin took out his phone and dialled dae's phone number....and dae picked up in just one ring...It's face time call...

"Oh my god y/n...where were you?why weren't you picking up our calls...we were worried about you girl..."dae said as he made his fake crying face...

I laughed a little and said"don't overreact...i was a bit sick...but I am okey now ..and what do you mean we?"

"Hey y/n..oh y/n unnie!...how are you...we are missing you...when you'll be back..I want to go to the amusement park with you again..."kyungmi and haewon said respectively...

"I am fine and I miss you too .. I'll be back after a few weeks..."i said ...

"Ommo who is this little kitty..."both of them said as they saw yong peeking from the corner of the camera...that only his eyes and nose could be seen to the other side callers...

Me and soobin chuckled and soobin turned the camera fully towards yong...

"Say hello yong...look uncle and aunties..."i said as i pointed towards the phone....

But being a child...he gets shy and turn the phone down...we all laughed at his childish behaviour...

Soobin again turn the phone up and went three looked at the phone...Now the three of us were visible to the other side callers...

Soobin pulled me close by putting his hand on my shoulder so that we would fit in the camera ..yong was in between...

"We have a big news for you y/n..."dae says...

"What is it? don't tell me you're gay"i said jokingly as i laughed at him...

He made disgusted face and said..."after hearing this news you'll never tease me again..."he said and i jokingly nodded my head...

"Me and haewon are dating and are gonna get married soon..."

"Whattttt....really?..."i can't beleive it...he finally confessed his love to her ..ommo i thought his love was temporary...whose brother is he.....

"When is the marriage?"I asked excitedly...

"We could marry each other just now but we are waiting for kyungmi to find someone and get married first....the. We'll marry"they said...

"Okeyy keep going...and kyungmi whe. Are you gonna find your groom?.."I asked her...

"God has not made one for me I guess"she said pouting slightly...

"Oh no don't say like this you'll find someone too..."i said...

"Okey bye guys... it's yong's sleeping time...see you soon.."i said as yong yawned beside me...that made me realise since how long we are talking....

Soobin hund up the call as I made yong sleep....

"Don't you think you have to explain something to me y/n?"soobin said when yong fell asleep....

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Yoongi's pov

I came in my room just after having dinner...i don't know what I am feeling... it's like somthing is burning in me....Just a friend?...he couldn't be just a friend to her....i could see it in his eyes already.....he is in love with her.....

But who is the father of yong whe. Even that soobin guy is not?...what does hoseok meant when he said if she's still single?...did she marry someone in these five years?...did he died?....did somthing happen between them?

Is she planning a future with that soobin?....No I'll win her back... I'll win her trust back...her heart back.....

She was mine and she is mine and she'll forever be mine....I can't give up like this... I'll fight till the last....till she herself chooses me...

Thinking about her loving someone else makes my throat dry...i meed to drink water...

I stood up and made my way towards the kitchen.....

I opened the fridge and drank the cold water from the bottle...

And started walking back to my room...just when I heard some noises coming from upstairs...Her room..

I found myself walking towards her room only to see her door open a little...i peek inside only to see them...Three of them laughing while video calling someone i couldn't see..

They looked happy....A happy family....Just then that soobin guy placed his hand on her shoulder and pulled her closer...i tighten my hand on the door knob...and clenched my jaw....

I turm around and went back to my room downstairs....

Reaching my room....i locked my door and sat on the bed...

Is it too late?....but i couldn't even talk to her.... couldn't even tell her how guilty I feel for hurting her like that....for hurting everyone like that....

I felt my vission blurring but i blinked them away and swallowed hard my sob...

Why are you crying now?...you finally realising how it feels to see your love being happy with someone who is not you?....

No..... it's not the end... I'll make it up to her....I....i know I'll make it up to her.....i know she still loves me....

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To be continued...