Chapter 40 ~ Remember?

Carl's Pov

I stare at the love of my life. I couldn't believe what she said. "We're your family." I say slowly. Now she looks even more confused. "No you're not. Who are you?"

I freeze. "I'm your boyfriend...C-Carl Grimes." I say with tears forming.

"I don't have a boyfriend! Where am I?"

"IT'S ME! CARL! THE BOY YOU LOVE! YOUR FIRST KISS! YOU LOST YOUR VIRGINITY TO ME! REMEMBER, ALEX!" I scream falling to my knees in tears. "How do you know my name!?" She screams. "Alright get him out!" My dad yells. Daryl picks me up. I try and fight my way out but it's no use. Daryl carries me into the cafeteria and puts me down. I run my hands through my hair while pacing "She doesn't remember!" I scream "W-We promised each other, that no matter what we will ALWAYS remember our relationship! Daryl! She doesn't even know who I am!" I pace back and forth trying to process this shit. Tears fall from my eyes.

My love! My whole life is gone!

I kick the medal table. "He needs to die!" I shout so loud that everyone runs into the cafeteria. "He forced his damm people in here! One of his men..did this to Alex! One of his God damn men...killed our baby!" I scream with tears coming down like a water fall "Son I-" my dad begins but I cut him off "Dad! I killed that man! I killed that son of a bitch! I ran out there right on time. I saw him pull the damn knife out and push her with all his fucking force! I--I...killed him, with the knife he used to murder my, innocent, unborn child!"

I sit down and put my head in my hands. "I want the Governor killed! I killed a guy who was put under presser by the Governor! Other than that, that man was innocent!"

Everything is quite. Not a word was spoken. Until my dad spoke up. "Uhm...Carl?" My dad asks. I look up. "We're going to Woodbury, we're going to bring the rest of them here. We don't want those innocent people living with a psycho path." I nod. I understand that. "Hey, dad?" I ask him before he walks out. "I know Alex doesn't remember but..c-can I talk to her about our baby?" My dad sighs "She's already really confused, I wouldn't want to freak her out more than she already is." I nod.

My dad walks out of the prison with Daryl and Glenn. I'm left sitting on the table. "Carl, how are you?" Beth asks "I...I don't know."

I know nothing anymore.

"I think I'm just gonna go lay in my cell." I say getting up. As I'm walking to my cell, I look over at the cell Alex is in. She's talking to Hershal. I sigh as I walk up the stairs and into my cell. I plop on the bed. All I can think about is Alex. I'm going to try my best to get her to remember. I pull my half of the necklace from under my shirt and hold it tightly. Whatever it takes to make her remember! Whatever it takes.

Alex's Pov

"What's the last thing you remember?" The old man named Hershal asks me. "Well..um..uh" I begin "It's alright, take your time." I nod. "I remember..I was in t-the hospital, and some thing happened I'm not so sure what but there were gunshots. I was in a coma. My sister was trying to wake me...I heard her. But I guess my body wouldn't wake and she left." Hershal is quite "I-Is that where I am, sir?" He shakes his head, "No sweetie, your in a prison."

I freeze at his words. Did my sister finally cut the line?

"What did my sister do now?" I ask. Hershal looked confused. "I'm in a prison sir, obviously someone brought me here because I am her sister. What did she do?" I ask again, but no answer. "Did she finally get cought for drug trafficking?" His eyes went big and his mouth dropped a little. "Alex." He says "What else has your sister done?" He asks me. "Well, she did unspeakable things and since she was young, the police only made her spend the night in jail or do community service." I answer. Hershal nods and stands up. "Get some sleep and I'll talk to you when you wake up okay?" I nod as he closes the cell door.

I have no idea whats going on or why my stomach hurts this badly or why that very....attractive boy was saying he was my boyfriend...even though he's not I wouldn't mind if he was.

Carl's Pov

As I walk out of my cell I see Hershal walk out of the cell Alex is in. This is my chance to talk to her. I walk up to the cell door but don't go in.

"Uhm..Hi." I say "Hi, you're Carl right?"

Her questioning who I am hurts like hell but I fight the tears.

I nod. "I'm sorry about earlier." She nods "It's alright." It's quite "Can you tell me what's going on? Why am I here?" She asks. I really want to but can't. "Maybe later." I answer. She sighs.

"Hey Carl!" Carol yells. "Come meet the new people!" "I'll talk to you later." I say walking off into the cafeteria and out the door that leads to the court yard. This is where I killed that man. I brush it off. There's a big bus with people coming off of it. They shake my hand and walk in. "Hi, I'm Patrick." One boy about my age says "Carl, nice to meet you." I say back.

After the meet and greet my dad set all of them up in Cell Block D, we cleared that out before the attack. By the time they got settled in it was night. I walk to the cell Alex was in and just stared at her. She was sleeping. As I'm watching her breath in and out I feel a hand on my shoulder. "How you holding up son?" I shrug "She's out, Hershal gave her some pain meds because she was complaining about her stomach hurting." My head falls. "Dad...how am I going to tell her?" I ask "When she remembers...h-how am I going to tell her about her sister...a-and the baby?" A tear falls from my eye. "That's something we're going to have to deal with when it comes, why don't you go get some rest." My dad says patting my shoulder and walking off to a crying Judith. I open the cell door and walk in quietly. I bend down and kiss her cheek. "I love you...so much." I whisper before walking to my cell.

***

I wake up from people talking in my cell. I open my eyes. "And this is Carl." My dad says. "What's going on?" I ask still waking up. "This is Michael, he will be sharing a cell with you." My eyes go big. "But this is Alex and I's cell." My dad shakes his head "Not anymore." "What the hell do you mean "not anymore"!" I scream "Do you really think she will want to share a cell with a complete stranger?"

Okay that pissed me off!

"I'm not a complete stranger!"

"She doesn't know that."

I sigh. "Whatever!" I yell grabbing my shirt and walking out. I rub my hands through my hair as I walk down. "Ugh!"

I hear Alex.

I run to the cell she's in. "What are you doing!?" I yell. Alex is half way off the bed, trying to stand. "I-I need to go to the bathroom." She says trying to stand up again. "No, No, don't stand, you'll hurt yourself. I'll help you." I walk over and put one hand on her hip, she takes my other hand and holds it as I guide her out. "Yeah. That's it. Your doing good." I say as I help her walk into the cafeteria.

Everyone is starring.

One of us went to quick because Alex grabbed her stomach and cried in pain.

"It's okay." I comfort her. "I need to go badly." She whispers. I nod. I wait until shes comfortable to start walking again. I walk slowly with her into the tombs. She takes one of her hands and grips onto my shirt. "We're almost there." I tell her.

We turn the corner and I open the door to the shower room. I open the door that leads us to the toilets. "Do you need my help with this too?" I ask. "Y-Yeah. I'm sorry." She says "No...it's okay." I smile slightly.

I open the stall door. "Okay, I'm going to pull down your pants now." She nods. "Now your underwear." I feel her tense her leg at my touch but she quickly relaxes. I pull down her underwear. "Now, grab both of my hands." She slowly grabs my hands. I gently sit her down. I wanted to see the new scar she was going to have on her stomach but the new shirt she was wearing is long.

Alex did her business.While I was helping her I noticed her half of the necklace was missing also that she had bruises on her neck. I helped her get her bottoms back on. We walked back to the cell shes staying in and I lay her down gently on the bed. "Thank you." She says "Y-Your welcome. If you need help with anything, please, come to me." I say. She smiles. You have no idea how happy it makes me to see that beautiful smile. "Okay, thank you." I nod and walk back to my cell.

Michael is laying on the top bunk. "Hey Carl." He says "Hi." I say leaning against the wall. "I saw you helping that super hot chick."

Super. Hot. Chick.

"Yeah." Is all I say trying to hold in my anger. "Do yo-" he begins but I cut him off. "I'm not up for talking right now okay?" Michael looks at me while sitting up. "Alright, fine."

The day went on. It felt extra long since I didn't have my Alex. I cried a couple times. I'm really upset..I can't believe this is my life.

It's night and I can't sleep. I decided I needed to talk to someone, so I went outside to the grave we built for mom.

"Mom....it's really hard right now, and it hurts like hell." I pause as tears fall from my eyes. "We...we were pl-planning a family mom. She was pregnant. Then that guy had to shove the- you know what! Why the fuck am I talking to you?!" I stand up "Your dead!" I scream walking back to the prison.

There's only one difference.

I'm not the person I was when I walked out here.

* 8 weeks later

I wake up from the noise of laughter in the cafeteria. I forgot we have more people now. I get up and get dressed.

Alex is well...I don't know, but she can walk on her own now. Her memory is still lost. I haven't tried any thing yet to help her get it back. Only because I'm afraid if I say something wrong it will freak her out and she will never talk to me again.

I walk into the cafeteria and sit down. I place my head on the medal table and start banging it. "This. Is. Driving. Me. Insane." I say in between hits.

I've been lonely. People have tried to talk to me but I push them away because the only person I want right now is Alex. My Alex. I want my Alex back. My girlfriend Alex.

"What are you doing?" I hear the most beautiful voice on the plant. Alex. I sit my head up as she sits across from me. "Rough couple of weeks." I say "Tell me about it. I just found out this week that it's the apocalypse." She says trying to make me feel better.

Yup. They told her it's the apocalypse. She actually took it pretty well.

"So, you said I was your girlfriend?" She asks. My eyes widen "Why? Do you remember anything?" I ask her. "Well..."she says "I had a dream last night and well...we were in this place, it was just you and me. You asked if you could tell me something and I said yeah, then you kissed me."

Our first kiss!

"D-Did that happen?" She asks. I smile "Y-" I began but got cut off by Michael. "Hey." I roll my eyes at his voice. He's been talking about Alex all fucking week and I just want to punch his teeth in. She's been trying to ignore him. "I'll let you two talk." She says getting up and waking into the tombs. Michael bites his lips as he watches her walk away. I cringe at the sight of it.

No one knows about Alex. They don't know we're technically together and that she has memory loss. "Man, do you think she will go out with me? She's like the only hot girl here besides Adriana.

Adriana Patterson. She's one of Alex's friends. I think she's the only one who knows what's going on with her and I. She's my friend also.

"Why not ask Adriana out?" I ask. I'm trying to stop him from asking my girlfriend out. "I think she's dating Patrick.""What makes you think that?" I ask "Bro, you haven't noticed?" I shake my head "They have been down each others throats for two fucking weeks now." "I haven't noticed. I've had so many other things on my mind." I say. He nods.

"Now, back on Alex. Her body is like, ugh..so damn hot! I would seriously hit that!"

OKAY I'VE HAD ENOUGH!

"SHUT THE FUCK UP! OKAY JUST SHUT UP! ALEX IS MY GIRLFRIEND! MINE!" I scream standing up causing attention but I don't really care, this mother fucker will be told.

"Looks like to me she barely knows your ass!" Michael screams back standing up. "That's because your "Governor" brought an army in here! One of your men dug a knife into her stomach killing our baby! Then as he ripped it out he pushed her! She fell hit her head and lost her memory!" I scream. I step up into Michael's face. "If I hear you talk about her like that again I will punch all your fucking teeth out! Listen to me and listen to me good! If I find you trying to get with her, I will beat you till your choking on your own fucking blood!" Michael steps back. "Do I-""Carl that's enough!" My dad cuts me off.

"I need to cool down." I say walking outside to the court yard. I stare at the spot. The spot where I killed that man. The spot where I picked Alex up and got her blood all over me. Tears start to form. What have I become? These past eight weeks were horrible! They've changed me. I hang my head as tears start to fall. I rock back and forth, trying to get calm. As I'm doing so, something catches my eye. It's something gold, I know because the sun is hitting it making it glow. I walk over to it and pick it up.

It's Alex's half of the necklace! Maybe this will help her get her memory back!

I run into the prison and into the tombs. I know where she went. I run to the library that we cleaned out last week. I know she went there because she loves to read.

I try to open the door but it wouldn't budge. "Shhh." I hear. It's Michael in there. I then hear a silent cry. It's Alex's cry.

I back up and run, knocking the door down.

My eyes grow wide and anger boils inside me.

Michael. Crossed. The. Line.