Chapter 18 ~ A Monster

Alex's POV

Everything happened in slow motion. Like the thing you love, slowly being ripped away.

Admiring a view that is so beautiful then boom it's gone. Just like this world...it was beautiful then the monsters came and invaded it.

"Help!"

My thoughts were broke to the sound of Carl hitting the ground.

I clasps to the ground holding Carl's head in my lap. "No! N-No please." I cry. My tears pour out of my eyes and hit his face.

Rick runs over and picks up Carl, slightly pushing me to the side. I look at my hands and all I see is red. The thought of having Carl's blood on my hands makes me shake in fear.

I slowly hear the crunch of leaves. As I look up a man comes into view.

This is the man that shot Carl!

Without thinking I get up, running to the man. I reach him and pull my knife out. Harshly I apply pressure to his throat.

"M-Mam please don't kill me!"

"Give me one good damn reason why I shouldn't!" I scream applying more pressure to the knife on his throat.

The man gulps in fear.

As I'm about to break skin I hear a click of a gun. I already know it's Rick.

"We don't kill the living." Rick says holding the gun to my head.

Then it comes to me. I look deeply into this mans eyes and see a reflection of a monster.

I slowly let go and put my knife back. I turn around facing the gun Rick still had pointed. He gives me a glare...a mean nasty glare. I deserve it! I'm a monster...

As my eyes begin to fill with tears Rick loses his glare and looks at me in a more comforting way. He lowers his gun and quickly the attention is back on Carl.

"I-I have a farm..Hershal will fix your boy right up." The man speaks. Shane viciously grabs the man's shirt "Lead now!"

Rick grabs Carl and starts to run following Shane and who ever that guys name is. I begin to run but stopped by Rick screaming from a mile away.

"Go back to the highway! Get help!"

But I do the complete opposite.

"No Rick I'm coming!" I yell back.

"Damn it Alex you and your stubbornness!"

I find myself laughing at this...how can I laugh at a time like this?...how can I laugh in a world taken over by the dead?

It's starting to become a struggle to breathe now since we've at least ran about three miles in only fifteen minutes. I start to slow down but quickly pick up speed when I see a white farm house.

I run really really fast to catch up to my people. My adrenaline is pumping throw my vaines so fast that I end up passing a slowly dehydrating Rick who's carring a bleeding out Carl.

A woman with short brown hair comes into view. I wave my hands to get noticed.

"Hi I'm Alex! Is there a Hershal here?" I ask slowly approaching the house. The woman runs into the house.

By this time I'm on the porch. An old man comes out with a blonde woman who's about in her thirties, along with the woman I saw before. Rick runs up.

"Are you Hershal! Help my boy please!"

I move out of the way so Rick can pass by. The people run into the house, I decide to stay out side so it's less crowded.

Shane and the man approach me. "Look mis about what happened ov-"

"I'm sorry about that.." I say cutting him off "I got a little out of hand and I'm really sorry..I didn't mean to harm you in anyway sir." I go on

"It's okay mis...I'm sorry about shooting your boyfriend."

Woah did he just say boyfriend?

"Uhm..he's just my friend but it's okay you didn't mean to on purpose. I'm Alex by the way." I say sticking my hand out. "Nice to meet you Alex..I'm Otis." He says gladly shaking my hand.

Shane grunts like he's got a problem. Before I could make a smart comment Rick walks out.

My body becomes stiff as I hear what happened to Carl.

"The bullet went right into his chest. It broke into six fragments. He's going to need surgery." Rick explains "Alex please go inside."

I don't fight back, I don't even grunt. I just walk into the house.

Everyone stops and stairs at me. There's a boy who's about sixteen, a blonde girl who is probably the same age as that boy and the women I met on the porch.

"Alex, right?" The woman asks. I nod. "I'm Maggie...please take a seat." I do as I'm told and sit on the vintage yet comfortable chair. "Would you like some water?" She asks. "Yes please." I say with my dry throat.

Maggie walks into the kitchen and I'm left alone with the girl and the boy.

"I'm Beth." The blonde says "And this is my boyfriend Jimmy." She says pointing to the boy. The boy tips his cow boy hat and Beth giggles.

Maggie comes back in, handing me the bottled water then goes and sits next to Beth.

"I'm sorry about your brother-" Maggie begins. "Oh no...he's not my brother." I say

Then there's awkward silence.

"We had a brother...his name was Shawn." Beth says. Maggie gets a sad look on her face and nuges Beth's elbow. "Excuse my sister.." Beth says "She's just a bit...shy." She continues.

Maggie and Beth are sisters...wow okay...

"Is Hershal your dad?" I ask "Yeah...our mother...she..uhm..she got infected and..turned."

I can tell it's a touchy subject because Beth left the room right when Maggie said the word mother.

"Are you alone?" Maggie questions. "No I'm with these people." Maggie looks to Jimmy than back at me "I meant...what about your family..before this."

I really don't want to talk about this but she asked.

"My parents died..in a car crash...I have a sister who now...i don't know if she's dead or alive..."

"Oh" Is all she says. "I'm sorry." She also manages to get out with out almost crying. All I do is nod.

I feel like "I'm sorry" is going to be said a lot.

"I'm going to go see if my dad needs anything. Jimmy go check on Beth. Alex would you mind staying here?" Maggie gets up. I nod before she walks onto the room were Carl is. Now I'm alone and scared.

Muffuled voices come to my attention. I can make it out what they are saying and who they are. Rick and Shane.

"Lori doesn't know..."

"Man, you need to calm down...I will get Lori..everything will be okay." Shane comforts.

This man is a two faced asshole.

"No, I-I have to get her!" Rick complains

"No..man..if I let you go...an-and he slips away...you wouldn't forgive yourself for that...I wouldn't forgive my self for that..."

I freez at the words "if he slips away"

Maggie walks out which startles me and I jump.

"Where's your bathroom?" I ask. "Upstairs to the left." I nod and walk upstairs.

I walk into the bathroom and lock the door. I take a look at myself in the mirror..but I don't see the Alex I saw before..I see a girl who might lose her first love..I see a girl who almost killed a man today...I see a girl who is broken...

I see a monster

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