Final Chapter (Alternative)

**As I warned you before, the end could be the last one, where you can imagine a different ending for the family or... you stay with this one here...**

N: You are stupid. A stupid man, Steve!

Said Natasha, holding one of the three bottles of Vodka she still has to drink. On her bedroom floor there were more than 5 bottles already empty.

N: I told you! I told you, Steve! I warned you to not to go on that mission and you... you were so stupid!!

Natasha said while crying and looking angry, she took a long sip of the vodka.

N: You're so stubborn, selfish and... bastard! "I promised the president to help when the time came. I need to save the world" Fuck the world, you idiot!!!

Natasha threw the bootle at the wall.

N: What's the use of saving them and condemning me??? I hope you're burning in hell right now, Rogers!

Natasha grabbed the picture frame with her picture and Steve together and also threw it against the wall, breaking the picture frame.

N: I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!!!!

Natasha did not notice the tears falling from her face. She stood up to get the portrait back, but she was so drunk she staggered and fell to the floor, breaking two bottles.

One of the shards of glass cut off her hand. Natasha watched the blood drain while she cried. She bit her lip hard and closed her eyes, crying even more.

N: Why did you leave me???

Natasha dragged herself to the portrait, she took what was left of the frame and observed the image of her and Steve, smiling and looking at each other. She placed the photo on her chest and curled up on the floor, as if she could receive a hug from that photo.

Natasha fell asleep.

...

The next morning, Natasha woke up with a loud knock on the door. She stretched and ended up kicking the bottles around her. She stood up, feeling a terrible headache. She looked around and picked up a full bottle of Vodka. She opened it and headed for the door taking a long drink straight from the bottle.

Natasha opened the door.

H: You look awful, Natasha!

Maria Hill declared watching her friend.

N: Where are my children??

H: Down there with Sam and Henry. I had to come first to make sure you are in a position to see them and obviously you are not.

N: I just need some coffee.

H: And a bath!

N: Shut up!!

Natasha went into the bathroom and took a shower, she came bak to the living room wearing a bathrobe, but she still looked drunk, her eyes deep and red, plus the sniffling nose.

H: My God, Natasha, you look like a drug addict!

N: And you look like a Miss Universe!

H: Natasha, I can't allow the kids to come up.

N: What???

H: You are not in conditions...

N: You have no right!!!

Natasha pointed her finger to Maria Hill and seemed very upset.

H: Natasha!

N: What the fuck, Hill! I want my children with me!

Natasha took the bottle of vodka and went back to drinking.

H: See? Drop the bottle!

Natasha looked at Hill, as if she was going to attack her.

N: I will drop it...

Natasha gave a sarcastic smile, then she hurled the bottle at Hill and the bottle hit the wall, because Hill deflected easily.

James: Mother???

Natasha and Hill looked at James at the door of the house.

James was looking at Natasha in shock, in shock to see the state of his mother and also for what she had just done. Natasha was embarrassed, she did not want to hurt Hill and much less that James witnessed it.

Sam: James! Never run like that again!!!

Sam arrived with the twins on his lap. Sarah was hiding behind Sam and just moved her head to spy on what was going on.

Natasha looked at Sarah and she immediately remembered Steve, she was the one who was more close to him, the daddy's little princess, he used to call her like that.

Natasha felt her eyes fill with tears. She controlled herself to not cry.

Lindsay, one of the twins babies, pointed at Natasha.

L: Mommy!

N: Hi...

Natasha got more emotional by seeing her babies.

N: Lily... baby...Nick...

Natasha went to Sam and took Lily and Nick from his lap. Natasha sat on the couch with them on her lap and stretched her arms towards James and Sarah. James ran over to Natasha, and he hugged her as tightly as he could and could no longer hold back his tears.

Natasha noticed Sarah was still behind Sam.

N: Sarah?? Honey, come here...

Sarah made negative with her head. Sam crouched and looked in Sarah's eyes.

Sam: Go to your mom, Sarah.

Sarah finally went to Natasha, she sat beside her and Natasha hugged her. Natasha kissed Sarah's forehead while she was still crying.

J: Mom, why are you crying?

N: I'm just happy to see you.

J: Can we go back to livehere?

Sarah: Isn't daddy really going to come back??

Natasha sighed while noticing how Sarah's eyes were filled with tears. She kissed her forehead.

N: No, baby, he won't be back.

Natasha stopped responding and her eyes went blank. All because of those words. "He won't be back." Steve will not return. Steve Rogers... the love of my life, will never return. Steve Rogers is dead.

Hill and Sam looked at each other and then looked at Natasha.

H: We better go. Come on, kids.

J: I want to be with my mom!

James hold Natasha and Sarah did the same. The twins started to cry because they were scared and did not understand what was happening.

N: James, everything is fine. Sarah... It's okay. Hill, please leave them here.

H: You know I can't do that, Natasha... please, let them go.

Natasha didn't let go. Sam grabbed Sarah and she started to struggle.

Sarah: Mommy! Mommy!

N: Sarah, it's Okay! Sam! Hill, please! Don't do that! She is scared!!!

Hill took the twins from Natasha's lap. Natasha felt dizzy, she wanted to fight now but she couldn't, she didn't have the strength.

H: Natasha, Steve has been gone for 8 months. You need to react! Your children need you!

Hill and Sam left with the children. Natasha looked at the minibar in the living room, she went to the minibar, took a bottle of Whiskey, opened it and took to her mouth but couldn't take a sip, she started crying desperately.

Natasha cried until she had no more tears to cry. She lay there on the living room floor and fell asleep.

...

Natasha was sitting on the lawn in a garden, Nick was sitting on her lap, Sarah and Lindsay were picking flowers a little further and James was flying a kite a few meters ahead. Natasha smiled and looked at Nick on her lap, then looked ahead again and saw Lindsay coming up to her with a flower in her hands. Lindsay stumbled, fell and started to cry. Natasha immediately got worried, she wanted to get up but was unable to move. Natasha was desperate, she needed to help Lindsay but her legs and hands were frozen.

N: Lindsay!

Natasha moved her mouth, but no sound came out, she used all her strength to scream and to try to move without success.

N: Lily! James, help your sister!

Natasha tried to scream. James looked at Natasha and the kite line cut James' hand making him bleed. James cried out in pain and called out to Natasha who looked at him desperately, unable to move.

Sarah picked a rose from the garden. The stem of the rose was full of thorns and cut off Sarah's hand, and she also started to bleed. Nicholas started to cry on Natasha's lap, she looked at him in shock.

N: Nick!!

Natasha screamed and no sound came out. Natasha closed her eyes, not knowing what to do, all the children needing her and she can't help any of them.

A few minutes later, Natasha realized that Lindsay stopped crying. Natasha slowly opened her eyes and saw a blond man pick Lindsay off the floor. Natasha couldn't see his face, he took Sarah's hand and Sarah stood up. The man walked over to Natasha and looked at James.

Now, Natasha could see his face.

Steve?? Steve, you came back? Steve crouched next to James, he left Lindsay on the floor and held James' hand, wrapping a cloth in his hand, stopping the bleeding. James stopped crying.

Steve smiled sweetly at his children and then looked at Natasha the same way.

S: It's okay, mommy is here to take care of you. Isn't she?

J: No, she left us.

Sarah: She left when you left.

Natasha frowned. Suddenly she was no longer with Nicholas on her lap, Nicholas was with Steve and the children. Natasha was far, farther and farther away from them.

N: I'm right here, James! Right here! Sarah! Lily! Nick!!!

Again Natasha spoke and no sound was made.

Natasha woke up with a cat licking her foot, she sat up abruptly and screamed.

N: JAMES!!!

Natasha rubbed her face and hair, she looked at the cat and almost kicked him in anger.

N: What are you doing here???

Natasha took the cat and put him out of her room. She looked around and saw the state of the house. She recalled the dream she had, more of a nightmare. The feeling of being unable to protect and help her children was horrible and she never wants to feel that again in her life.

Natasha made a decision, she cleaned up the whole house. She threw the all the alcooholic beverages at the garbage, then she took a long shower and took a decision: Tomorrow, she will recover her children back.

...

The next day, Natasha went to Hill's house, after insisting a lot on the phone. Of course, Hill didn't want to hand her children over so quickly and easily. It was very recent and Natasa may have relapses, but Hill allowed Natasha to do longer visits, as long as Natasha appeared in good condition to see the kids.

Natasha entered Hill's house.

J: Mom!!!

James ran and hugged her. Natasha hugged him back.

J: Did you come to take us home this time?

N: Not yet, James but Mom will get better for you, Sarah and the twins.

Sam delivered the twins on Natasha's lap. Natasha took the two of them to the living room rug and sat with them on the floor. James and Sarah joined her and looked at her.

N: How are you?

J: Well, I guess.

Sarah: Mom, I made a song.

N: Did you make a song?

Sarah nodded.

Sarah: It's about dad. Do you want to hear it?

J: Sarah, don't talk about him with mom!

N: No, it's okay, James. I want to listen...

Natasha nodded at Sarah, who sighed and then started to sing....

♫ Sometimes I wonder

Where I've been

Who I am

Do I fit in

Make belivin'

Is hard alone

Out here on my own

We're always provin'

Who we are

Always reachin'

For that risin' star

To guide me far

And shine me home

Out here on my own

When I'm down

And feelin' blue

I close my eyes

So I can be with you

Oh, baby

Be strong for me

Baby

Belong to me

Help me through

Help me need you

Until the morning

Sun appears

Making light

Of all my fears,

I dry the tears

I've never shown

Out here on my own

When I'm down

And feelin' blue

I close my eyes

So I can be with you

Oh, baby

Be strong for me

Baby

Belong to me

Help me through

Help me need you

Sometimes I wonder

Where I've been

Who I am

Do I fit in

I may not win

But I can be strong

Out here on my own

On my own ♪

(Nikka Costa – Own My Own)

N: This is...

Natasha sighed and tried not to cry when she heard the lyrics of Sarah's song.

J: Look what you did, Sarah! You made Mom cry!

N: No... It's not a sad cry, I just... This is a very beautiful song, Sarah. Your father would love it.

Sarah: Sam said daddy heard it from heaven.

N: I'm sure he did, my love.

Natasha gave a small smile.

N: Now...

Natasha looked at Sarah and James.

N: I want you two to help me tell a story to the twins.

J: What story?

Sarah: Yeah, what story??

N: The story of a great hero, a hero named... Steve Rogers.

THE END

**I know, guys, it's sad that Steve is dead, but Natasha's reaction proves that even tho she never got her memories back, she fell in love with Steve, it proves how much she was into him and how she improved from that cold spy to the point of accepting and loving her family. Hope you all have enjoyed the story. Thank you for reading, I invite you all to read my newest fanfic named Endgame:  https://my.w.tt/CkDCnzJjZ5**