Chapter 2

Perrie's POV

"Hurry up you big baby!" Jesy shouted from outside the bathroom.

"Just a sec!" I shout back.

I wanted to have my hair down but it goes in all directions and won't cooperate with me. So I decided to put it up in a bun instead. I applied minimum makeup just to not look haggard when the paparazzi see me. I'm wearing an extra-sized hoodie, leggings, and my converse. I didn't bother to dress up since my outfits for tonight's event will be delivered at the venue. My hair and makeup artists will also be meeting me there. Actually everyone's waiting for me now, my handler Jesy, my manager Paul, and the car that will bring us there. I looked at myself in the mirror and mumbled 'this will do' to myself, then went out to living room.

"Come on, we don't want to be late." Paul said as he picked up our bags and started to get out the front door.

I sighed with my head down and follow him out to the waiting car. Jesy follows right behind me.

"Are you alright?" Jesy asked when the car door closes and looked at me with concern.

She must have noticed that my usual happy and bubbly self is nowhere in sight, and I keep looking at the ground. I actually have second thoughts about going to this award show. I don't have any nominations but I will be performing my latest single 'Hair'. It's not the performance that's getting me out of my shit, well maybe just a little since all of the important people in the industry and the biggest stars will be there watching, but this is the first time that I'll be possibly seeing him after our 'controversial' break-up months ago. It's safe to say that I have already moved on and that he doesn't affect me anymore, but the press will surely be talking about this and the fans, his fans, will voice out their opinions again and send me their hate. I know I shouldn't care about the haters but sometimes it really upsets me. Their comments and bashing hurts me when it hits my insecurities and it makes me wanna hide myself under a rock and just disappear to the world. But this performance tonight is important for me, this could help me get back on track and be recognized again by the industry.

"Earth to Perrie?" Jesy snapped me out of my thoughts and I remembered she was asking me a question.

"Yeah yeah, I'm fine." I said.

"Are you sure? You looked like the heavens have fallen on you." she chuckles.

"I'm just a little nervous... no I'm actually freaking out! Everybody in the industry will be watching and I can not screw this up! What if I forgot the lyrics? What if I fall from the stage? What if I -"

"Okay hold up! You're blabbering now. Calm down Pez." she cuts me off.

"I can't.." I whispered as I cover my face with my hands.

"Pez, listen to me. You are a great artist and performer, you'll do great up there. Everything's gonna be alright." she cooed as she tries to calm me down.

And yes, it always works. She's actually one of the few people who can calm me down and can help me get my shit together. She has been my best friend ever since I can remember and she's like a big sister to me. She's always there for me, supported me during X Factor, decided to be my handler when I started to make my music, my partner-in-crime, she never left me during those dark moments after the break-up, she always cheer me up and make me laugh with her silliness, and I can not imagine my life without her.

"I just want this performance to be perfect. I want to show everyone that I'm still here and I still deserved to be recognized. And that... I've moved on." I sighed.

"Oh come on Perrie, you can't let him affect you."

"He doesn't affect me anymore. It's just that... the haters.." I whispered.

"Don't mind those fucking haters! They're just jealous. It's your fans that are important. They love you." she said.

"I know, I know. And I love them too. I'm so grateful that they never left me through all of this. They are my rock. And thank you Jes, for everything." I said with sincerity.

"Well, I'm the best so you're welcome! What are friends are for? And you know I love you." she giggled. I smiled at her.

"We're here." Paul said abruptly. I almost forgot that he's here.

"Get your ass up and out the car you big baby!" Jesy said and then laughed when I pouted at her.

"Stop calling me that!" I whined.

"What? It's true, you're a big baby." she teases and I rolled my eyes as I got out of the car.

The venue is huge and there are a lot of people already. Whew! This is going to be an eventful night.

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I am now at the dressing room assigned to me with my team; Paul, Jesy, Adam my makeup artist, Aaron my hair stylist and Sam for my outfits. Claud my lead dancer is in the other room with the rest of my backup dancers. We are all waiting for the other artists to finish their rehearsals so I can do mine since I will be the opening performance of the show. So while waiting, I decided to check Twitter and boy it's exploding! The show is trending and people are going crazy talking about everything from the stars' outfits to the performances, who's-with-who, who's-gonna-win and so on. I continue to scroll through my feed and then... there it is, the one thing I'm dreading about tonight, an article about me and my ex-fiance possibly meeting at the show. I really don't get it why the press make it such a big deal, it has been months, it actually felt like years ago, and they still bring it up and slap it to our faces. Gosh! This is giving me headache, so I just ignored it and locked my phone.

I'm getting a bit bored so I decided to go to the pantry to grab something to eat. I didn't bother telling my team since they seemed to be engrossed in conversation. I walked out of the room and to the hallways, I keep my head down because I don't want to attract too much attention. I was about to turn left when I bumped into someone.

"Oops!" I yelped. I turn around to look at the person, it's a girl, she mumbled a 'sorry' but seemed to be in a rush and continued to run off. I stared at her trying to figure out who she was and then it hits me... Oh my God! Did I just bumped into Jade? I stood there wide-eyed, that's The Jade freaking Thirlwall! The ultimate multimedia star! But why is she running? I wondered, then I frown when I remembered that see didn't even look at me, she probably didn't know me. Suddenly I heard my stomach growl, jeez! I'm always hungry! So I shrugged off what just happened and focus back on the task at hand... find myself a food!

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Perrie's point of view!! How are you liking the story so far? Please leave a comment. I have a lot in store for this story... I hope you enjoyed this chapter. Vote if you want more. Thanks! 💋💋💋

- R xx