Chapter 11

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Juvia's Pov 

Natsu Dragneel... my boyfriend and the person I'm in love with. 

With everything going on, I'm not sure what to do. 

Lisanna seemed genuine, but she was Natsu's ex-girlfriend, and I'm not sure if I can trust her.

But... 

Natsu is everything a girl needs. He's honest, kind, funny, good-looking, and always showering me with compliments and affection. He can be a clutz and may have a low IQ, but you're guaranteed to have fun with Natsu. 

Natsu and I are doing well, but that's it, we're just doing well and it troubles me a little. 

Our relationship isn't bad, but I don't feel like it's blossoming anymore. 

My love for Natsu is there and I know I love him, but I'm not sure if I can continue to date him. 

Plus my feelings for Gray make everything confusing. 

However, I feel slightly better now that Gray and Lucy aren't together, I know it was one-sided and all, but it hurt to see him be so nice to her. 

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Gray Fullbuster.... my childhood friend and the other person I'm in love with. 

We've had a rough friendship and it caused me a lot of pain. 

I don't necessarily hate Gray, but it hurt knowing he thought of me in such ways. 

I think Gray and I have such a strong bond it's almost unbreakable and I truly love Gray with everything. 

I did have a small crush on him when we were kids, but this is different. The way I feel for Gray now kind of scares me. 

It's consuming, exciting, addicting, and irresistible. 

I feel happy and complete with Gray, but I have friends who love him and I can never put them through that... I'm not that girl. 

I just wished I knew where my heart lies... I don't know who I want between Gray and Natsu. 

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I hadn't spoken to Gray since school is coming to an end and Natsu's been busy working with his dad Igneel, so we haven't seen each other much. 

I didn't want to be a bother to everyone about my love triangle so there was only one person I could talk to... the only other person who knew Gray since childhood. 

Lyon: Hello Juvia Lockser, what do I owe this lovely pleasure? 

Maybe it's not too late for me to leave 

Juvia: *awkward* Hey Lyon, thanks for meeting me... I just had a couple of questions about Gray. 

Lyon: What about Gray? 

Juvia: Well assuming you know this, he bullied me and completely hurt me in middle school... why did he do it? 

It was a stretch to ask... truthfully I wasn't even sure Lyon knew the real reason. 

Lyon: *chuckles* Ju-vi-a who cares about that. 

Lyon forcefully put his hand on my thigh 

Juvia: *nervous* M-Move your hand away 

Lyon: *angry* SHUT UP! You know you want it. 

His disgusting hand forcibly began going up my leg

Juvia: *scared* Lyon stop it, get off 

Lyon: I'll tell you the truth, just let it happen Juvi-chan 

I was scared, I didn't want this to happen... 

Gray save me

Unknown: Fucking Lyon get the fuck off her 

*punch* 

That voice... 

Could it be? 

Gray... 

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Gray's Pov 

I miss Juvia. 

Since that day I haven't been able to see her properly... I'm avoiding her because I'm embarrassed to face her... 

She's with Natsu, I shouldn't have crossed that line with her, and knowing Juvia she probably feels really guilty about it. 

I want to see her. 

I want to tell her everything

I love her

I don't want Natsu to be with her, he doesn't get her, the way I do. 

Juvia and I are a match made in heaven

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I was walking around town minding my business, avoiding everyone. 

Meredy wanted to hang out, but I didn't want to see her today.

Honestly, I just wanted to see Juv-

*Faintly*

Juvia: *scared* Lyon stop it, get off

Lyon: I'll tell you the truth, just let it happen Juvi-chan

WHAT THE FUCK? 

Fucking bastard

Gray:  Fucking Lyon get the fuck off her

I grabbed Lyon by the collar and punched him. 

We may be close, but he has no right to force himself on a lady, my lady at that

Lyon: Shit, fuck I'm out of here 

As I watched Lyon leave, I turned to face Juvia

Gray: *comforting* Juvia... I'm sorry this happened

Juvia's tears just kept coming

And even though I thought she was beautiful when she cried, it still hurt

Juvia: *crying* G-G-Gray take me home please

I gently touched her arm and carried her bridal style as she cried in my chest

I wanted to hug her so bad

To touch her, not erotically, but I just want to touch her

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When we finally made it,

I gently placed her on her bed

She had fallen asleep after all her crying

Gray: You're so beautiful Juvia

I slowly moved her blue hair from her face and caressed her beautiful cheek

I felt like I could watch her forever

Gray:*whispering* My pretty girl I have to go now okay

As I slowly got up to leave, Juvia tugged the side of my shirt

Juvia: *sleepily* Don't leave, I love you so much Gray, stay with me

Her voice made my heart pound

And hearing her say she loves me made my face turn bright red

I'm so in love with this woman it's scary 

I slowly laid back down and wrapped my arms around her and drifted into sleep too. 

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Natsu's Pov 

Is this was being in a relationship feels like?

I don't recall it ever being this boring with Lisanna

Don't get me wrong, I love Juvia, but we don't do anything but sit and talk and go on dates

I want to kiss her and touch her and do other things with her, but she won't maybe because of Gray, but I'm starting to get bored. 

I never thought we'd get this boring, I'm confused

Maybe I'll call her. 

*calling conversation* 

Unknown: Hello?

Natsu: Hey pretty lady, how about you come over

Unknown: Oh? And what about Juvia

Natsu: Nothing's gonna happen between us, just come

Unknown: Alright then I'll be there soon 

*End of conversation* 

I felt more giddy than usual

I felt a bit guilty, but I was excited to see her, it's been a while. 

*Knock Knock* 

Ah she's here

I gently opened the door and there she was

Natsu: You came here pretty fast Lisanna 

Lisanna: Mmmh when you called I was on this side of town, plus I wouldn't miss the opportunity to see you Natsu 

I know I said I didn't want anything to happen 

But Lisanna is just as hot as the last time we were together

I tried really hard... I did, but before I knew it Lisanna and I was one again. 

I felt complete with her and I still love her. 

Juvia was the last thing on my mind... 

I hope she can forgive me afterward though. 

I love Juvia, but she's in love with Gray, so I think it'll be okay if I love LIsanna a bit. 

Too bad I thought we were alone, but my neighbor is a bit nosy. 

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Juvia's POV

I woke up with Gray's arms wrapped around me

I felt guilty, but mostly happy, I missed his warmth 

I just I knew I wanted to be with Gray... but what about Natsu? Where would that leave us? 

*ring ring* 

I wonder who is calling me... Evergreen? 

Juvia: H-Hey Evee? What's up?

Evergreen: Hey Juv... I'm sorry to call out of nowhere, but I have something to tell you 

Juvia: What's up? You're making me nervous...

Evergreen: *anxious* I don't know how to tell you this... but you know how Natsu is my neighbor 

Juvia: *nervous* Y-Yes I know that... 

Evergreen: I saw Natsu making out with LIsanna outside his house... Juvia you know I love you, so I couldn't pretend I didn't see anything. 

I couldn't say anything 

How could I? 

I was feeling so guilty and even stopped talking to Gray because I prioritized Natsu and he just willingly cheated on me. 

I mean I'm not innocent either, I have kissed Gray myself, but I always pulled away and I told Natsu even though I knew he'd be upset because I owed him that respect. 

Evergreen: J-Juvia? Are you okay? 

Juvia: *trying not to cry* U-Um yeah I'm okay, sorry I'll call you back 

I felt so betrayed because I love Natsu and we had been together for almost for months and I thought we fit well together... 

I tried so hard not to cry too loudly since Gray was asleep next to me. 

It hurt 

I guess I deserved that for not making a decision fast enough. 

Gray: Juvia?