I just doomed us both

-Hyung?

Jisung went to work the next day only to find the door open and no one there.

He went in the back and saw his boss on his knees, staring at an empty cage.

-Boss? What's wrong?

-He's gone...

-Who is?

-Bbama. He escaped, Minho said it on the verge of tears. I must left the cage open by accident last night. It's my fault. He's just a puppy. He will die on the streets.

-There is still hope, Jisung crouched down next to him.

He reached with his hand towards Minho's back. He wanted to comfort him.

But he couldn't touch him.

Painful images came back to him in a flash of memory.

"How could you marry someone else? She loved you! I have been in pain for so long because she chose you! How could you do this to her?"

"She told me to."

Jisung cleared his throat and looked in the other direction.

-Ahm... Let's call our friends, shall we? They can help search for him.

-It's too late. We can't-

-We can! I say so! And once we find him, I'm going to adopt him, he stated proudly.

In Minho's eyes shimmered a glimse of hope. He nodded and called everyone to gather there.

Everyone meant Felix, Chan, Hyunjin and Seungmin, who split in 3 teams.

Seungmin went with Felix. Hyunjin was instructed by Jisung to join Minho for emotional support. That left Jisung with his mortal enemy: Chan.

-I can't believe you told Hyunjin to go with Minho. You willingly picked me. What's wrong with you? Chan nagged Jisung all the way through three neighbourhoods.

-Because I knew Hyunjin can help lift his mood. I can't. And Minho seems down since yesterday.

-What happened yesterday? Chan raised an eyebrow. What did you do again? he was ready to punch the younger again.

-We both did, ok? Long story. You can hit me later. Let's find Bbama first!

-So...

-So? Seungmin looked at Felix smirking.

-How is it going? With you and your boyfriend. Lovey dovey, aren't we?

-Shut up! Seungmin slapped Felix on the back of his neck. We are all right. Still testing the waters.

-And how does it taste? he laughed before Seungmin took off his shoe and threw it in Felix.

-Come back and wash your dirty mind with soap! he said jumping in one leg.

He stopped when he saw Felix looking down at the sewerage.

-What are you looking at?

-I think I found him. He's down here. He fell inside the sewerage.

-I'll call the firefighters. Try keeping him awake, Seungmin took out his phone from his pocket.

-Get in there! Chan pointed to the trash can.

-You're kidding.

-Maybe he is in there.

-Don't have to worry that I'll die too fast with you, he mumbled for himself.

-What?

-Nothing!

After a few moments of silence, Chan asked again.

-I need to know. Not that I like you or want you to be part of Minho's life, but... Why do you reject him?

-If you knew that your relationship is destined to fail, would you still go for it?

-You can't possibly know that.

-What if I do? I don't want to hurt him.

-You're hurting him right now.

-I know! No matter which road I take... I will end up hurting him. I will break his heart and leave him scarred forever, Jisung gripped his hair in frustration.

-Don't be that dramatic, Chan rolled his eyes. He will eventually get over you. With my help. He won't forget you, that's true. But his heart can heal. Like it healed after David. You can recover faster from a heartbreak than from the constant "What if" feeling.

-Huh... You actually said something smart for once.

-You punk! I will kill you! Chan snapped before his phone started ringing.

"She asked you to?"

"She told me to live my life. Jisung, I will always love her. She was the mother of my children. But she told me to be happy and move on. I am not erasing her from my memory. I am fulfilling her last wish. Please understand this."

When Jisung arrived at the shelter with Chan, Felix was with Bbama in his arms.

The moment the boy entered the building, the puppy jumped down and ran around him in excitement.

-Looks like he's waiting for you to sign the papers, Felix said smiling.

Minho brought them all and handed Jisung the pen. The latter officially adopted Bbama as he promised and his gaze followed Minho who let out a sigh of relief.

-You can take the rest of the day off. I will clean around here and close early. We all need rest, Minho added.

Jisung nodded in silence.

He could feel Minho's cold eyes glued to the floor.

Everyone was expecting him to make a move, to say something, but the voice of his old love's husband kept ringing in his head.

He felt paralysed. He couldn't do this to Minho. He couldn't leave him behind. He couldn't hurt him like that.

So he left under everyone's judgemental eyes.

He left home with his new buddy.

He threw himself on the bed and screamed in his pillow in frustration.

Bbama tilted his head in confusion.

-What are you looking at? I wonder how many years does a dog live...

Jisung searched it up on his laptop and was hit by reality.

-Oh... Maybe I rushed when I adopted you.

Bbama jumped on top of him and started licking his face, ticking the boy.

-OK, I get it! Sorry! No matter how many years you live, I am happy you're here now.

Jisung's lips curled into a sad smile. He finally said it.

-I am such an idiot. Your owner is an idiot, Bbama. He's been a dick for the past 400 years.

It was eleven pm when Felix heard a knock at the front door.

He opened it and met with a panting Jisung with messy hair and the jacket falling off one shoulder.

-I-

-Finally! Jeez, you're slow! Felix dragged the latter inside with no further questions. He's in his room. Don't screw it up! he winked before going to the kitchen.

Jisung was left aback by the whole interaction, but he didn't have time to waste one more second.

He slammed the door opened and saw Minho reading a book in his bed.

-Jisung? What's wrong? Is Bbama alright?

-Yeah... Well, besides the fact that his new owner is a dushbag.

-What? Minho frowned.

-Can we talk?

-Sure. Take a seat, Minho patted the spot on the bed next to him.

-So... How do I do this?

-Do what?

-All my life I've been avoiding people ans conversations. Now I can't think of a way of doing this.

-Take it slow. I'm not going anywhere, Minho smiled weakly.

-I wanted to pat your back, Jisung blurted out.

-I don't understand.

-I wanted to comfort you. To hug you. To kiss you that night. I was afraid, because I know this won't end well. Once you know me, you will see so many flaws. You will hate me. I- I wanted to stay away, but I can't. I don't know if I am making the right choice right now, but... This is what I want.

-What do you want? Minho leaned closer, his eyes set on the other's lips.

-I want you.

Minho smirked and cupped Jisung's face between his shaking hands.

He pulled him closer and closer teasing him with the gap between their lips until his back hit the bed board.

He slid down a bit, having Jisung on top of him, then connected their mouths in a shy and sweet kiss.

Jisung placed his knee between Minho's legs and held his chest on top of the latter's without crushing him underneath.

Minho's hands roamed in the other's hair and stopped at his hear which he caressed with such tenderness.

They were red as the blood rushing through their veins and pumping adrenaline.

When they broke the kiss to breathe, they looked at the mess they became in such short times and both blushed hard.

A tear escaped Jisung's left eye and sneaked on his cheek.

-What's wrong? Minho whiped it gently.

-I just doomed us both. And I am not even sorry, he smiled.

On his wrist, the number went down to 80.

He knew what he was getting into. He couldn't care.

In the heat of the moment, he kissed Minho a thousand times.

All the wasted love locked up in his soul. All the years and tears he had shed. He let everything out and held his body with such desire and greed.

When Felix walked inside to check on them he found their silhouettes snugged under the blanket in each other's arms.