Chapter 40

{ Draco Pov . }

Harry was in our bedroom with Lily . I was cofused , cause he wasn't scared at all . I think that when he found out that Lily is fine , he calmed down and didn't have trauma ... But maybe I'm wrong ...

" Hey honey , what's up ? " He asked as I walked in . I smiled and hugged him . " Nothing much . I was just talking with Pansy . " " Okay . " " Are you hungry ? " " Not at all ... "

I let go and looked at him . He waa acting weird . " Harry , is everything allright ? " " Mhm , don't worry . " " If you say so ... I'll go eat breakfast okay ? Then we can go somewhere . " " Okay ! " " See ya ! " Bye Dray . "

I closed the door and sighed . Something was definetly wrong with Harry ... Just what it is ..?

{ Harry Pov. }

Draco went out and my smiled dropped . I didn't want to worry my friends , I felt horrible . Every time someone touched me , I wanted to jump away or slapped theirs hand away . When I didn't I was starting to have a panic attack .

I would usually stay all day in my room to not show anybody what's going on with me . I am scared that when I leave Lily she will disapeard , so that's why I'm allways with her .

I still feel like I should die ... I cheated on Draco , he should leave me ... How could he want someone like me ..? I am nobody ... Slut , whore ...

I sat on the floor , my back laying against bed frame . I looked at Lily , she was sleeping in her bed , I sighed . I slowly stood up and went to my bedside table , pulling out a book with black cover . I flipped few pages and saw what I was looking for .

Inside my book was a hole cut inside of the pages . Inside was a small box with something that allways helped me . I took out a new steal blade and some bandages as well . Then I went to my closet and took a hoodie from there .

I went to bathroom and closed the door behind me . I looled at myself in the mirror . There was that broken boy that Draco and his friends meet at the start of the school . From that moment passed exatcly one year , and nothing changed . I was still the same . Broken ...

I took of my sweatshirt . There were few bandages on my arms , so I took the of as well . I put the blade to my arm and cut it . Blood dripped down . I started crying ... Why I am such a mistake to this world ?!

I cried even more , but then I heard something that stopped me and my cutting . Lily was crying . I hide the blade back and wrapped my arms in bandages . I throw on a hoodie and run out of the bathroom . I started panicking , scared that someone took Lily . I looked around and saw her in her bed crying . I let out a shaky breath and walked over to her .

" What's wrong angel ..? You had a nightmare ..? It's okay ... It's not real ..."She slowly was stopping crying and looked at me . Her beautifull green emerald eyes looking into mine .

Did I look similar when my mom lived ..? When she was rocking me to sleep ..? Lily was the only person that touch didn't bother me . It was exatcly oposite , I wanted to be with her all the time . I hugged her and singed something that I remember from when my mom was singing me ...

" Hush litlle baby , don't you cry ... Everything's gonna be allright ... Be now quiet pretty baby ,cause I promise , you will be just fine ...

Hush litlle baby ,don't say a word ... Momy's gonna buy you a mocking bird ... And if you'll still be sad even if it sing , Momy's gonna buy you a golden ring ..."

I remember when mom was singing this to me ... She changed the lyrics so it could be original , and to say myself ... I prefer tha version a lot more ...

I looked at Lily . She wasn't crying anymore . In fact she was happy . She giglled and put her arms in the air . " What , hou liked that ? Want another one ? " She gigled again and clapped her hands together . I giglled as well and sponn around with her in my arms .

" Eyes blue like the atlantic , and I'm going down , like the Titanic ...

Eyes green quiet the enchantment , and I'm going down , like the Titanic ...

Eyes grey soft and metalic , and I'm going down , like the Titanic ...

Eyes brown dark and romantic , and I'm going down , like the Titanic ... "

I looked at the sleeping baby in my arms . She was so cute ... I layed her back down in the bed and smiled . " Your voice is just as beautifull as I remebered . " Someone said and I flinched . I quickly turned around and saw Draco . That didn't calm my breath at all . I started breathing fast and heavily .

" Harry ? " I dropped to my knees . I couldn't take any air in my lungs , I staryed choking . " Harry ! " Draco runned to me and took my hand . That only made it worse . I get away from his grasp and back to the wall . I pulled knees to my chest and hid my face in my hands .

' Everything is fine ... You're not there ... You're safe now ... You're safe now ... ' I repeated that sentence again and again in my head .

" Harry ... " After few minutes I finally started to calm down . I was shaking . I looked up at Draco , he had worried look on his face .

" Why didn't you tell me that you ... Have trauma after this ... You know I would help you ... " " I-I didn't w-want t-to worry y-you ..." " Harry ... You need to talk to me ... You need to be honest ... "

I nooded and started crying . Why I am such a crybaby ?! " Harry you've been trought a lot and I understand if it will take time to recover . " I looked at him . " Can I hug you or you feel uncomfortable ..? " " Y-you c-can ... "

He hugged me lightly . I flinched a litlle but soon relaxed . " Harry ... Did you cut ..? " I gulped at that question . Hiw did he know ?! I didn't say anything though . " Harry ... You don't have to do it ... I am here to help you ... You have friends , my parents love you , you have a litlle amazing baby girl . " He whiped my tears away . I nooded .

" Now listen , you don't have to hide your feelings , if you feel uncomfortable or scared you can say that . Okay ? " " O-okay ... " He gave me a smile and I smiled back . We hugged again and to be honest ... I felt better ...

( Time skip , 5 months , wedding ) { 3rd Persons Pov. }

Draco was standing at the oltar . Blaise and Chris behind him . On the other side , Milly and Pansy . Next to 2 girls was standing the rest : Luna , Hermione and Ellie . Draco's parents was sitting on the bench first from the front . A lot of people from Hogwart as well . Some of them were Draco's cousins and family friends . Some where from Milly's family , Blaise's or Pansy's . Harry invited Neville , Dean ans Seamus as well , cause they were friends back in the Hogwart .

" Gosh ... I am so nervous . " " Calm down Draco . You'll be fine . " " Easy to say , you're not the one who's getting married . " " He never will . He'll be single forever . Admin it . " Blaise said and pointed at Chris . " Oh shut up you chocolate ! " " You wanna go skunk ? " " Guys not in my wedding ! " " Shut up ferret . "

They boty said and all three laughed . " Just like kids . " Said Milly and sighed . " Yeah ... You're right . " Agreed Pansy . " I wonder when Harry will come . " " Probably soon . Where's Lily ? " " Oh ! She's with Narcissa . "

Milly waved to mrs. Malfoy and lady smiled at her . " See ? " " Okay ... " Suddenly the music started to play . " Harry is coming ! I wonder what he'll be wearing . " " Me too ! "

All people stood up and looked at the door . Sowly they opened and all people gasped . Draco's eyes widen but soon he smiled and had aitlle blush on his face .

" Harry looks like an angel ... "