Chapter 7

{ Harry Pov. } 

I stayed silent 'cause I didn't really want her to know . But she promised that she won't tell anybody . 

' Don't tell her ! You can't ! She won't help you ... She'll just laugh at you ... You are nothing ... Nobody cares for you ... '' Please stop ... '' Nobody loves you ... You should just die ... It's not like somebody will miss you anyways ... So just go and die ... ' 

" P-please s-stop ... " " Harry ..? " I looked up to see Milly with a worried face . I didn't realize but I was crying . " What's going on ? Tell me ... " " I-it w-won't let-t m-me ... " " Who won't let you ? " " T-this v-voice ... It-t'll h-hurt me i-if I'm g-gonna t-tell you ... " 

" Harry listen to me . Nobody will hurt you . I am here . This is just a voice , it can't hurt you ... For how long have you been hearing it ? " " S-since t-today ... " " That's okay ... It's not as bad as I thought . Tell me , what did this voice tell you ? " 

I looked her in the eyes and felt safe for the very first time . I took a deep breath and hugged myself tighter . " I-it t-tells m-me to k-kill m-myself ..." " Oh my ... Harry ? Have you - " She stopped and looked at me almost crying . " Have you ever wanted to kill yourself even when the voice wasn't there ..? " 

I was shocked by the question . Does she really care about me ? " I-I ... Y-yes ... " " Oh ... Harry ... " She hugged me . Small tears started rolling down her cheeks . She did care . I had tears in my eyes . Somebody really cares for me . I hugged her back and started crying ,  for I don't know how many times , this day . 

" H-harry ? Do you want to tell me something else ? " I think about if for a second . " Yes ... " " I'm listening ... " 

" W-well , I l-live w-with my r-relatives , and t-they are ... A-abusing m-me ... N-not only m-mentaly ...  I ... I h-had n-nightmares , and I c-can't sleep a-at all . I w-wasn't eating f-for a v-very long t-time b-because I d-don't f-feel like I should o-or d-deserve to e-eat . I'm u-ugly so i-it's not l-like a-anybody will e-ever like m-me . I f-feel like i-it's my f-fault that p-people d-died in W-war . After war ... G-ginny cheated o-on me and w-we b-broke up . T-that's why R-ron and H-hermione aren't t-talking w-with me . 

I finished and looked at her . Her eyes showed many emotions . She was sad , angry and shocked at the same time . " Harry ... Do you ... Cut yourself ? " I didn't answer that . I looked at the bed and said nothing . " Harry roll up your sleeve . " " N-no ... " " Harry please I'm trying to help you ... " 

She looked at me and smiled warmly . She cared . I know it . But , do I deserve this ? " O-okay ... " I slowly took off my hoodie . Her eyes widened in shock as she saw the blood on my shirt . I rolled up my sleeve and slowly took off my bloody bandages . She gasped as she saw my arm . She started crying and hugged me tight . 

" Why ?! Why would you do this ?! " What does she mean by that ? I just told her every single reason . Instead of one thing ... " You are amazing . You are beautiful . Everybody loves you ... Please don't do it again ... " " I'll t-try - "" No . Promise me . Promise me you'll never do it again . " 

I looked her in the eyes and sight . " I p-promise I'll n-never d-do it a-again . "

She smiled and hugged me again . I hugged her back and we stayed like that for a while . " Okay now we need to take care of you . " She got up from the bed and grabbed my bag . She threw all of my things on the ground and looked for something . " Okay , nothing's here . Now your nightstand . " She threw all the things out my nightstand and grabbed the earlier bandages and ... My black box . 

" It's for your own good Harry ... " She said as she lay all my things into the closet or nightstand . I smiled at her a little because I knew she was right . 

" Well now , you . " She walked over to me and grabbed some bandages and alcohol with her . She poured some on my arm . It hurted a little bit but not as bad as my beating from Vernon . She wrapped my arm in clean bandages and threw away old . 

" Now c'mon . Take off your clothes . " I looked at her with shock ." I-I need t-to ? " " Yes ... You need to change . " 

I slowly took off my shirt . I didn't want her to see my body . I am so ugly . " Oh my dear ... Did your uncle do that to you ? " I slowly nodded . She sighed and gave me some white T-shirt along with jeans . I pulled it on and she gave me a blue jeans jacket . I wore it and it looks pretty cool on me . But I don't remember having those clothes . 

" Since you are so skinny and Hogwart allows you to wear whatever you want this year . I'm gonna give you some of my clothes . And yours I'll throw away . We will go shopping with the girls this weekend . And you are going too . " She told me and I nodded my head .

We walked out of the room and went to the living room . Nobody was there . We sat on the couch and talked for a bit . " Hey Milly , I need to go to the bathroom . I'll be right back . " I told her and went upstairs . 

When I was walking back I heard two voices so I stopped and listened . " So did you talk with him ? " " Yes Draco . I did . " So I was right she's gonna tell Draco . As much as I wanted to go there and stop her , my legs wouldn't move . " And what did he tell you ? " 

" I won't tell you . "

What ?! She - She didn't tell him . So she ... Kept her promise ? " But why Milly ?! " " I can't tell you . He will be fine . I'll take care of him . " " I trust you Milly . " 

Draco started walking upstairs so I quickly hid in my room . When I heard closing the door I walked out and came back to livingroom . I sat on the couch and smiled at Milly . She smiled back and we started talking . 

Now I know ... That I can trust her ...

So guys ... Like ... I am realy shocked that somebody is actually reading my book . And thank you so much to all of you .You guys are amazing ❤ .I wanted to ask you something thougt . Would you prefer Harry to wear more girly clothes or not . It's your choice . If nobody will answer I'm just decide by myslef . Thank you for everything ❤