chapter 27

17:29, 21 April 2022

Chapter 27.

Another short time passed, SuA lifted her head and woke up, she started to feel really hot. Her body was drenched in sweat and from drinking a lot of alcohol last night, she smelled like an owl now.

SuA saw that Siyeon had woken up, she shyly left Siyeon, sat back on the sofa kindly.

SuA rubbed her forehead, not daring to look at Siyeon, she went to get the remote to turn on the air conditioner and turned it on, then her eyes wandered to a certain point in the house.

- Singnie, I'm sorry, I must be crazy.

Siyeon sitting next to SuA didn't react, she didn't know what to say to this situation anymore.

- Maybe I'm drunk, that's why I acted like that, I'm so dirty, I'm going to take a shower - SuA tried to find an excuse to run away.

Siyeon casually put her hands on her head, legs crossed, watching Kim SuA rummage around picking up the skirt, underwear and jewelry from the floor and then running to the bathroom, looking extremely silly.

She still vividly remembers every word SuA said a few hours ago, SuA’s way of speaking was very vague, what did SuA really want?

And she knows that she will be bothered constantly by wandering thoughts, she needs to know clearly what is in SuA's heart, how SuA wants to care for her, she really wants to know.

Siyeon heard the sound of water flushing coming from the bathroom, she remembered the general look ran away in a nude state of SuA just now and laughed.

- It's a toxic..

Siyeon also wanted to take a bath because she was also sweating a lot, but she had some work to do so she couldn't stay here any longer. If she went inside to bathe with SuA, she would probably spend another half day stuck here.

Siyeon put her clothes back on and left the house.

She went to SM to work and returned to Solar's house late at night, when she entered the house, she found Solar sitting in the living room and having a hearty meal on the kitchen table.

- I'll wait for you to come back for dinner - Solar said, going into the kitchen to warm up the food.

- I told you that I would be home late, did you wait until now? – Siyeon wrinkled her forehead, every time Solar shows the sincere concern, she feels extremely sad, because behind Solar’s back she secretly did toxic things.

- Yes, it's only for a few hours, I can't die - Solar laughed.

Two people have dinner together in a peaceful space.

- Are you free? I want to talk to you for a while - Siyeon started.

- I'm always free to spend time with you - Solar smiled.

Siyeon bit her lip out of embarrassment, guilt welling up inside her, she didn't know how to express it.

Her weakness is inherently difficult to say breakup, she once fell into this problem when she fell in love with Handong and then she chose another way rather than saying it directly. That made her a toxic person.

But she couldn't continue being toxic or else her life would be met with retribution later on. Her toxicity once made the person she loved the most suffer, it’s SuA, she really had to change immediately.

- Solar, I...

- ………… - Solar listened attentively, her eyes were very sincere.

Siyeon avoided that gaze, looking at it she couldn't speak, she took a deep breath.

- 3 years ago when I was still in love with Handong, I gradually realized that my relationship with her was not working, I wanted to break up but I couldn't say it, then I dated and slept with someone, I purposely let Handong know that so she can say breakup to me. I chose that as an excuse to break up with Handong.

- ……………………

- Then I met Kim SuA and fell in love with her and started dating, she had a short time living in the negative because her father was in prison, you are an employee of DCC, so you must know this. At that time she pushed me away and didn't want to see me, then someone asked me to have sex and I agreed. I'm dating SuA but I'm sleeping with someone else.

- ……………………..

- It's been 4 months since we met, everything you know about me is only a part, I really have a lot of bad points and I’m exactly a toxic person, because I have hurt those people around me.

- I don't care about your past, I like you now more, you don't have to worry about that - Solar smiled reassuringly, touching Siyeon's hand on the table.

- No Solar……actually…. - Siyeon pulled her hand away, making the other person frustrated.

- …………………….

- To this day, I'm still a toxic person.

- ……………………..

- I respect you very much, you are a very kind person, we have only met for a short time but you have treated me very well, I am always grateful for that, but...

- ……………………

- But I’m still a toxic person, and I’m hurting you - Siyeon said wistfully.

- What does that mean? What did you do to hurt me?

- I... I feel like I'm living a fake life in this house....when I'm not ready in our relationship, I easily agree to live here and agree to go on a public dating with you

- It's okay, because we're new to each other, you're not ready, it's understandable, gradually things will get better.

- No Solar, even though you openly date me with all your friends and colleagues, I can't do it, but rather, I don't want to do it.

- …………………….

- My heart….is really directed towards other person.

- ……………………

- Before, I slept with someone else because I wanted an excuse to break up with Handong, but then I continued to sleep with someone else just to deal with my own sadness while dating SuA, and this time I sleeping again with someone else surreptitiously behind your back.

- What?

- I slept with someone else without letting you know for another reason, is because I still love that person, I love that person so much, I can't live without that person.

- So you want to break up with me to return to Kim SuA? - Solar asked coldly, Siyeon didn't say it directly, but she guessed who Siyeon mentioned.

- ……………………

- Did Kim SuA call to hold you? You should remember when you were in the most miserable state, she didn't choose to be with you

- SuA doesn't hold me back at all, it's because I think and decide for myself.

- ……………………..

- I'm moving out of this house right now, I'm sorry, I'm toxic and bad, I have no right to ask for your sympathy, you don't have to be nice to me anymore, I’m sorry.

Siyeon sighed and went into the bedroom to clean up, she felt so miserable, in the end she couldn't say the word breakup, but went around letting Solar be the one to say it.

Siyeon left Solar's house and went to a nearby hotel to stay. Solar didn't say anything, Siyeon didn't dare to see Solar’s reaction either, she could only act quickly and walk quickly.

Lying on the bed and thinking, Siyeon felt pain in her heart because she had hurt a kind person. All of the relationships she's had so far have had problems because of her toxic nature.

After struggling with negative emotions for a while, Siyeon turned on her phone and looked at SuA's phone number, then flipped through the photo album to look at the photos one by one. In the process of falling in love, the two also took a few sweet photos, then when Gahyeon was born, she took more pictures, most of them were SuA and Gahyeon.

Siyeon looks til bored and then returns to SuA's phone number, she is wondering what SuA is doing, is SuA sleeping, what is SuA thinking? she really wants to call SuA but she doesn't dare .

If she had a supernatural power, she hoped she would be able to read people's minds.

Kim SuA used to be very predictable, but ever since she gave birth to Gahyeon, she's been extremely unpredictable.

SuA can sleep next to Siyeon for a happy night, and then the next day, she can say bad things to Siyeon.

She can talk mindlessly to Siyeon one evening, and then a week later act like nothing happened, compromise Siyeon’s every wish, question Siyeon, care about Siyeon, then hug Siyeon again.

Kim SuA is like the weather in the desert, during the day it's hot and sweaty, at night it's freezing cold. Sieyon really didn't understand what SuA wanted anymore.

SuA cared about Siyeon’s life, asked her about many things, even actively invited her to have sex, but after it was over, SuA just said sorry like nothing happened?

The word sorry sounds lighthearted but Kim SuA thinks it solves the problem, just apologizing is enough?

Like the way she used to use food to solve problems?

Then why when Siyeon said sorry repeatedly last year, she ignored it? she gnawed at Siyeon’s mistakes from last year to this year endlessly?

It's toxic, and it's stupid of Siyeon to fall in love with such a toxic person...

But she had no other choice….

A few days later, Siyeon, Wendy and a few others had dinner at Dejavu restaurant after Wendy's show schedule. This is a familiar restaurant for people working in SM because it is both discreet and close to the company. This restaurant is located on the 8th floor in a high-class hotel, full of other entertainment services such as sauna massage, gym,,….

While eating happily, Siyeon noticed the figure of Kim SuA sitting at the table to her right side, about 10 feet away from her. SuA was eating with a young girl and two guys in formal suits, among whom Siyeon had met one person, Kei, the closest assistant to SuA in the company.

Looks like SuA is going to meet her partner….

Siyeon still meets SuA regularly every few days at the house of the two, but the meeting time is very short, when they talk, they only say a few necessary sentences related to Gahyeon. Siyeon really wants to have a long enough time to have a serious talk with SuA, she really wants to know what SuA is thinking and feeling about her. Siyeon has looked at her phone several times and wanted to call SuA to make an appointment to have a nice talk but she is still procrastinating because she is too busy thinking about this issue….

Kim SuA has a personality of thinking fast and doing fast, while Siyeon is the opposite, she tends to postpone things when she is uncertain about the outcome.

She only had a few lightning-fast actions without delay, which was to make the decision to live with SuA and have children with SuA.

SuA suddenly got up from the table and went to the elevator, it seems that she went to the restroom because the restroom of this restaurant is located on the 7th floor.

Siyeon quickly chased after….

- Baby….

SuA turned around and saw Siyeon, a surprised expression on her face.

- Are you going to eat with your partner? I sit with Wendy at the next table - Siyeon explained.

- Oh, so you're going downstairs too? – SuA shyly asked.

- That's right - Siyeon pretended.

SuA and Siyeon are waiting for the elevator, SuA is feeling extremely shy, her face must be as red as a ripe tomato. Just sitting with her partner, she drank half a glass of wine so she couldn't get drunk, her face was red because of Siyeon's appearance.

Siyeon is dating Solar but blatantly calling her baby like that, she feels so guilty for that kind person. Every time she faced Solar at the company, she felt a little scared, she imagined the scenario where Solar caught her and Siyeon secretly doing something and how angry Solar would be, just thinking about it SuA was shivering like she was watching a horror movie.

The elevator tingled, there was no one inside, SuA and Siyeon entered. After pressing the number 7 to go downstairs, suddenly the lights in the elevator flashed like it was about to be broken, the elevator suddenly shook like an earthquake.

Following Siyeon's inertia, she pulled SuA into her arms and hugged SuA tightly, SuA also clung to Siyeon and closed the eyes.

After about 5 seconds, the elevator no longer vibrates, but the white light above has been turned off, the space is dark.

- Oh my god what is that? – SuA said scared.

Siyeon pressed the call for help button on the elevator control panel but it didn't work, she pulled out her phone from her pocket to call for help but the phone completely lost signal. Siyeon shouted.

- IS ANYONE THERE? HELP !!!!

- ……………………..

- IS THERE ANYBODY THERE?

- Customers, please wait patiently, the elevator suddenly stopped working, we are trying to fix this problem, it will take about half an hour - someone's voice shouted outside.

- Baby, please wait - Siyeon turned to SuA, then turned on the phone's flashlight to give this dark space some light.

SuA sighed, took off her shoes and sat down on the floor, Siyeon did the same, sitting next to SuA.

- Don't call me so intimately, you're dating Solar - SuA started.

- I and Solar are over.

- Huh?

- A few days ago, I was no longer at her house.

- So where have you been these days?

- Hotel.

- Why stay at the hotel? you should go to our house, that house is yours.

- I'm afraid to disturb you - Siyeon said with a smirk.

- I didn't say anything annoying - SuA was confused.

- Anyway, it's better to stay at the hotel, enjoy my own space in a peaceful way.