chapter 21

Chapter 21.

Next morning.

SuA doesn't have a work schedule today and Siyeon hasn't had to go back to work yet. When SuA woke up, she found Siyeon still sleeping.

She didn't hear any sound coming from Gahyeon's room next door, meaning the baby was still fast asleep. Since she went to work yesterday until now, she has not seen Gahyeon, she misses her daughter to dead.

Currently, Lee Siyeon's arms are really warm and give her comfort hormones.

But it is morning outside, which means the time when human reason is at its highest. SuA is fully awake and she needs to rethink her relationship with Siyeon, what she really needs and what she should do.

SuA sighed, slowly released from Siyeon's arms and sat up. She turned around, sat idly on the bed brooding, turned her back to Siyeon, her eyes absentmindedly looking out the window at the clouds and sky.

Then a hand touched her bare back, SuA turned her head to look, Siyeon woke up.

- Baby, why are you up so early, you don't have to go to work today - Siyeon started with a sweet tone that can melt anything, she stroked SuA's back from bottom to top again.

- I have something to tell you - SuA said in a low voice, her black eyes were still looking up at the sky through the window.

- What is going on? – Siyeon felt that something bad was about to happen, she leaned up against the bed and listened attentively to SuA, her hand still resting somewhere on SuA’s bare back.

- I think we need to redefine this relationship, what we can do together and the limits.

- I know what you told everyone around you about me - Siyeon said helplessly, what she was worried about was about to come true, her heart pounding with fear.

- It's true that I need you in raising and taking care of Gahyeon, I can't do it alone. But our relationship should stop at this level.

- So between us is only responsible for taking care of Gahyeon, not love?

- ……………………..

Siyeon blinked to hold back the tears, it's only early in the morning, but bad things have already happened, last night the two of them were very peaceful next to each other. She didn't have any strength left, the hand that was on SuA's back fell to the bed sheet.

SuA was still steadfastly looking at a certain point in the sky, she didn't have the courage to look back to see Siyeon's reaction.

- If it's not love between us, why are you always sleeping peacefully with me? why are you always satisfied when we make love? - Siyeon's voice was hoarse.

- Lust or pleasure or orgasm is just something temporary and has nothing to do with love - SuA's tone has no emotion.

- What? You make love to me and have no feelings of love? - Siyeon is frustrated.

- You have also slept with someone without love.

Siyeon is speechless, what she did in the past is a stain that SuA always uses to push her away. It's been almost 10 months since that night, but SuA still hasn't forgiven her.

SuA got out of bed, put on a thin robe and walked out of the room. She went to Gahyeon's bedroom, at that moment Gahyeon opened the eyes and woke up.

- Good morning Gahyeonie - SuA kissed Gahyeon on the cheek and picked up the baby.

Every time she sees Gahyeon, she feels peace and safe, this is the only person who gives her this feeling. She pulled out her shirt to feed Gahyeon.

The baby's face looked fresh when she was fed, while pressing SuA’s nipples while smiling mischievously.

SuA burst out laughing when she saw that lovely image.

- Little Gahyeonie, I will only love you.

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A week later.

Siyeon went to Starlight restaurant to meet Solar as scheduled. She did not know anything about this restaurant, when she arrived, she saw the space of the restaurant, the yellow light is dominant, the dining table is decorated very discreetly like separate small rooms, and there are all tables for couples.

Siyeon felt uncomfortable because she didn't think it was necessary to meet and talk with someone who was not close in this romantic place.

Unfortunately…

- Hello Siyeon - Solar smiled brightly, she arrived at the meeting place in advance.

The two of them had dinner together.

- You said you wanted to help me, what kind of help are you trying to? – Siyeon gets straight to the point, she wants this conversation to go quickly.

- It's only been a week that I haven't seen you, but I see your face has gone down seriously, what's so bad? – Solar kindly asked again.

Siyeon didn't answer, after the damaging conversation with SuA, she was completely living in moments of despair.

SuA is still by her side, still sleeping next to her, still eating with her, Gahyeon is still by her side, but she is living like a depressed person. She couldn't laugh anymore, inside she was completely dead.

Her extremely low energy affects many of her SM colleagues, the most affected person is still Wendy. Everyone wondered why she looked so sad, they knew she was living in the same house with SuA and building a family together, they thought she was living a happy life. They found it difficult to understand when she was looking so distressed.

And she couldn't answer them.

Siyeon thought that if she cried one more time her eyes would go blind. She had no choice but to endure and swallow everything inside.

She wanted to scream, she wanted to smash, but in front of SuA and Gahyeon she acted like she was fine.

Deep inside she felt exhausted, there was nothing more she could do. Up to now, touching SuA is also an action that she doesn't dare to do, she doesn't dare to hold SuA’s hand, dare not kiss SuA, dare not hug SuA to sleep anymore. Every night that passes, she just lies next to SuA, looking at SuA endlessly.

SuA's back is an image that she has had to witness for the past 6 months, a devastating image that has been imprinted in her brain, eating away every brain cell tragically.

- I feel like you're going to cry - Solar took a sip of wine.

Siyeon sighed and continued eating.

- Drink wine, this bottle is delicious, drink it and everything will be lighter, all problems will turn into a light paper and fly away - Solar poured wine for Siyeon, her voice very sincere.

Siyeon started drinking, she finished, Solar poured more, then she drank it all, then Solar poured more. Both of them ran out of a bottle of red wine, Solar called the waiter for another bottle, Siyeon also had no problem, compromised to continue drinking.

The two didn't talk much because Siyeon was still immersed in negative thoughts, she just hummed at Solar's few words to start a conversation.

After finishing the second bottle of wine, Solar approached Siyeon, without warning, kissing her passionately.

Siyeon panicked because of this sudden kiss, she thought Solar was trying to help her and SuA, what the hell is Solar doing….

After ten seconds of struggling, Siyeon finally pushed Solar away, this girl was extremely strong.

- What are you doing?

- I think alcohol and kisses will help you cheer up - Solar said casually.

- You know me and SuA are...

- Co-guardian of Gahyeon.

- No, me and SuA are family, I have a bond with her, you can't behave like that - Siyeon said annoyed.

- Do you really think SuA considers you family? - Solar raised her eyebrows and asked.

- …………………….

- If it's nothing to do with Gahyeon, she probably won't care what you’re doing.

- ……………………..

- Come to my house - Solar dropped honey into Siyeon's ear, her hand was slowly slipping inside Siyeon's shirt.

- ……………………

- Obviously you're single, you don't have to be so careful, you have the right to renew all your relationships - Solar's hand smoothly touches the inside of Siyeon's chest, the shirt heart shape has completely harmed Siyeon this time.

- I need to go to the bathroom for a bit - Siyeon got up to leave.

Siyeon ran into the restaurant's restroom, she sat down on a chair against the wall and gasped. She pulled out her phone and called SuA.

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In the warm home of three, SuA is sitting at her desk and talking on the phone.

- I have to take care of Gahyeon a bit in the morning, so book a flight at noon - SuA holds the phone in one hand, flipping through the document and signing in the other.

"Yes, Miss Kim"

SuA ended the call with her assistant Kei, then the phone rang again, the name "Singnie" appeared.

- Singnie, I'm listening - SuA answered the phone, still holding a pen in one hand, handling a bunch of documents.

“Have you had dinner yet?”

- I just ate, Gahyeon also finished eating and was sleeping.

“I have a dinner date with Solar today.”

- Solar? Product Manager of DCC? How do you know her? - SuA stopped in surprise.

"The day before, Solar came to our house to play but couldn't meet you because you were on a business trip to Suwon, she and I had lunch together and talked"

- Yeah, then what?

“Solar asked me for a drink, she just kissed me, and wants to sleep with me”

- …………………… - SuA mused, she didn't know what to say.

"I said that I have a binding relationship with you so I can't be arbitrary with anyone, Solar said that my status is single so I have the right to renew all relationships

- ……………………..

"Is she right?"

- ……………………

“Would you mind if I slept with someone else?”

- You called me and asked me to let you sleep with someone else? – SuA said emotionlessly, feeling a little uncomfortable in her heart. She didn't know what she was upset about.

"I want you to care"

- Are you drunk?

“I want you to take care of this, do you care?” – Siyeon ignores SuA's question

- ……………………..

“………………”

- This has nothing to do with me - SuA proactively hung up.

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Siyeon buried her face in the palm of her hand, her mind was in pain because of the alcohol, she acted completely on emotion. She had hoped that SuA would have something to do with knowing she was with someone else.

But she was too delusional, Kim SuA didn't care about her.

She thought that SuA said SuA didn't have love for her just because SuA didn't want to forgive her yet…

But the truth is that SuA no longer has feelings of love for her, SuA’s love has dried up.

She really couldn't accept this fact.

Siyeon sat in the restroom in such a bad state for a while until someone passed by and worriedly asked her, then she got up and went back to the table with Solar.

- Is everything okay? - Solar rubs Siyeon's back to create a feeling of comfort.

- I'm very tired, I'm going now - Siyeon avoids interacting with Solar.

- ……………………

- Thank you for the dinner, we'll talk later.

Siyeon left the Starlight restaurant and drove to the nearest hotel, renting a room to sleep in.

She didn't want to go home because she didn't want to face Kim SuA.

While her body is tired and her spirit is weak like this, if she meets SuA, she will have actions that are out of control. At that time, unfortunately, her relationship with SuA got worse, she doesn’t know what to do....

SuA is someone who doesn't want to be controlled, SuA has an instinct to want to control everything, so Siyeon has no way to pull SuA to her side the way she wants.

Siyeon lay on the bed, staring blankly at the ceiling, every thought that existed was about Kim SuA, and she kept bringing those painful negative thoughts into her sleep.

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SuA is sitting in the living room, the TV is on a funny cartoon called Larva. The room has a very dark light, revealing the lifeless face of the person sitting.

This movie is very funny but at the funny part, SuA can only raise her lips once then end, because she is busy thinking about other things. She glanced at the main door of the house every ten minutes, then turned on her phone to check the clock.

She was wondering when Lee Siyeon will come home.

It is now 12 o'clock at night, the clock has changed to a new day, there is a high chance that Siyeon will not return tonight.

That means Siyeon and Solar are together.

SuA knows this has nothing to do with herself but she is feeling very uncomfortable, she went to bed to go to sleep but she couldn't sleep, so she went to the living room to watch TV again.

She didn't know where the uncomfortable feeling in her heart was caused, was it because Siyeon called her to ask too much, or because she didn't like Siyeon being close to Solar.

Kim Solar is a very beautiful and talented person, all proven during her work at DCC. Since Solar joined the corporation, DCC has had a variety of products that are suitable for the public, and sales have increased a lot.

SuA works with Solar almost every day, she doesn't know about Solar’s personal life but Solar doesn't have any false rumors around, Solar has a pretty clean private life. SuA herself, when interacting with Solar, also feels that this is a kind and sincere person. From the time she was pregnant to the time she gave birth to Gahyeon and returned to Korea, Solar always had encouraging words and caring actions.

When SuA just returned to Korea, during a break from work, Solar asked her about her relationship with Siyeon. She still has an old answer that this relationship only stops at the level of being jointly responsible for raising and taking care of Gahyeon, nothing more.

She always denies when people think she and Siyeon are back together.

She really never considered that information to be true. All these things that are happening are initiated by Siyeon.

It was because Siyeon automatically went to the US to live with her, because Siyeon created the scene to force her to return to Korea to live. She did so reluctantly, but her plan was not.

Perhaps Solar is targeting Siyeon, the two of them just met not long ago and had such a romantic dinner, Solar even bluntly wanted to sleep with Siyeon.

SuA is also not surprised because Lee Siyeon is the one who has the ability to attract anyone in the first moments of meeting. Siyeon has a cold and sharp aura, beautiful and elegant, and sweet and skillful when talking, anyone who talks to her for a while will easily become flustered.

SuA herself had feelings on her first date with Siyeon.

And just like that, SuA was still sitting in the living room watching TV and still speculating about the relationship between Siyeon and Solar.

End chapter 21.