For better or for worse

You and me, we made a vow

For better or for worse

I can't believe you let me down

But the proof's in the way it hurts

Sam Smith

Jane

It had been exactly 2 months since I last saw Colson. Since it was still summer break Casie was staying with me. Yep Casie has been staying with me for 2 months and do you think her father even called to check on her? Nope, not even once. Smh

Right now I was in Miami to do a photo shoot for the new line with Aubrey. We had an awesome shoot. Aubrey and I even got to do a few photos together. We were looking at them over dinner now.

"I love this. It's gonna cause a lot of buzz when it hits." I stated

It was a photo of me in this black almost see thru lace lingerie set. I was laying on my back on a bed of red and black rose petals. It was an ombre look. So it looked as if the red roses were slowly dying and Aubrey was on top of me with his lips on my neck as my face faced the camera.

"I'm sure it will. Don't be surprised if some of my old hoes start coming out the wood work on your ass." He chuckled

"You got jokes." I laughed

"Speaking of past relationships."

"I already told you. I told Colson, and since then he hasn't spoken to me. I kinda don't even care."

"You care."

"I really don't."

"Don't lie to yourself. I understand your probably not gonna wanna hear this but just hear me out first. This industry, it changes you. When I was his age I was just starting out in the game. I had hoes every where. I messed up numerous relationships. Some of which could've turned into marriages. Yeah I had fun. Shit, I had lots of fun but now at 28 I can't help but wonder if I didn't miss out on the woman I was suppose to marry. Yeah I got money, fame, any fucking thing I could ask for, but I'm fucking lonely. Money can't buy you love Jane. At least not real love."

"Ok but you never cheated on your wife so."

"I understand that but you need to understand that this industry doesn't make relationships easy. Kells is young and dumb. Just like I was and he made mistakes. When you vowed to be together didn't you say for better or for worse? Well this is the worse part they were talking about. So now you gotta decide if your gonna fight for what you vowed to never let any man tear apart or just walk away like you said you wouldn't do when it got bad."

Damnit Aubrey was right. Why did he have to be such a good fucking friend all the time. He always told me the harsh truth even when I didn't wanna hear it.