Sun, Moon and Star

Namjoon's POV

Hoseok is like the sun.

We are bestfriends but we're polar opposite. While growing up, people viewed me as a problematic kid. A rebel. Hoseok is the model student. He is loved by everyone and shines in whatever he do while I struggle to prove myself and be accepted.

As what everyone says, we're an odd combination.

Despite everything, Hoseok's presence became something constant in my life. I just know that whatever happens, he'll stay by my side.

But like the real sun, we will only appreciate its importance during its absence on rainy days.

I'm too focused in chasing Jin Hyung's love that I never noticed what Hoseok felt all these years.

I remembered what he told me that night Taehyung heard us talking.

"Are you jealous?" I asked. The possibility of Hobi liking me never crossed my mind but the way he's acting now, that can be true.

"N-no. It's just that, you still love Jin Hyung and you're not willing to forget him" Hoseok stated. He looked hurt.

My heart still hurt a bit everytime I see Jin Hyung and Taehyung together but it's becoming bearable. Thanks to Hoseok's effort to keep my mind off them so it is not completely true.

Since we started dating, I'm smiling more. I really enjoyed our dates and late night phone calls. I love how Hoseok get excited over the simpliest things. He's also a cry baby and scaredy cat but he wants to act tough even though he can't really hide his emotions very well.

How can I be so clueless all this time? When Hoseok asked me to date him to forget Jin Hyung, what am I really expecting?

"I'm sorry" I looked down. I felt guilty for being careless over Hoseok's feelings.

Hoseok let out a hollow laugh. "Why are you saying sorry? I just want us to break up because I shouldn't have asked you to date me in the first place. We're bestfriends" he tried to smile but his tears betrayed him when it started to fall from his eyes.

"I just realized that I no longer want to be a rebound. That I'm nothing compared to Jin Hyung that's why I can't help you forget him"

"That's not true Hobi-ah" I attempted to brush his tears away but he avoided my touch.

"You can stop taking care of me now, Namjoon-ah. Let's stop while we can still go back to being bestfriends"

"I don't want us to break up Hobi-ah. Please"

He smiled sadly and shooked his head. "I need to let you go"

After that day, I tried hard to convince Hoseok not to break up with me but he's so set in avoiding me. It hurts me but I guess, the distance helped me assess my feelings for both Hoseok and Jin Hyung.

Jin Hyung is like a Star. I know he's out of my reach but I think it is people's nature to look for what we can't have. And I can't have that Star because he already belonged to someone else. To Taehyung.

And Hoseok..he belonged to me since the beginning.

My home.

Taehyung is right. When Hoseok asked me to date him, he risked everything to show me his love. This time, it is my turn to let him know that his worth in my life greater than my fears.

I dialed Hoseok's number and after few rings, he answered.

"Why are you calling me?" he asked coldly.

"We need to talk. I'm on my way to your apartment"

"I went out" I can hear loud music and voices in the background.

"I thought you have a headache? Why did you went out? Are you in a bar?"

"I am. I have a headache but I don't feel like being alone tonight so I went out for a drink"

"Are you with Yoongi Hyung?"

"No. He left after he took me home"

"Where are you? I'll take you home. You should have asked me if you want to drink"

"End the call now and let's have fun Sweet" I heard another person's voice said on the other line.

"Who's that? I'll fetch you now. Tell me where you are" I demanded.

"No"

"Jung Hoseok" I gave him a warning. "Don't do something stupid"

"I just want to forget you Namjoon-ah" he said, almost a whisper. "Let me forget you"

I'm scared. I never felt so scared in my life. My Sun is about to slipped out of my grasp.

"No, please. Let's talk Hobi" My voice cracked as I plead. My chest hurts and I can feel my heart literally breaking.

I heard him sigh on the other line. "Okay, let's talk" he said and told me his location.

When I entered the bar, I immediately look for Hoseok.

The place smelled of smoke and alcohol. Loud music is playing and it's too dim that I have to squint my eyes to see where I'm going.

I was able to spot Hoseok right away since he's really out of place. He's wearing yellow sweatshirt and his green cap which made him literally shine in such a dark place.

My face darkened when I noticed that he's not alone. He's talking with another guy and it seemed like the guy is hitting on him.

I made a quick stride towards them.

"Hobi-ah, let's go home"

Hoseok's eyes widened when he saw me.

"Joon-ah"

The other guy looked at me from head to toe. He turned to Hoseok. "Who is he, Sweet?"

"His boyfriend" I said before Hoseok can answer. "You can back off now" I smirked.

The guy looked unconvinced so I pulled Hoseok and wrapped a protective arm around his waist.

"Hobi is mine" I said and leaned forward to kiss Hoseok. I closed my eyes for a bit to savor the warmth of his lips.

It is our first kiss.

When I pulled back, Hoseok looked like he haven't recovered from the kiss yet so I took the chance to take him out of this place.

When we're already outside, Hobi yanked his arms. "W-what was that for?"

"Don't you get it? I love you!" I blurted out.

Hoseok's POV

Namjoon is like the moon.

We were six years old when I first met Namjoon.

Back then, my family just moved to Seoul and I'm still unfamiliar with the neighborhood. I'm too absorbed in playing with the other kids that I didn't noticed it's already night time.

I was left alone in the playground since my playmates already went home.

It's too dark that night since the moon decided to hide behind the clouds.

I started to hiccup which only happens when I'm really scared. And I'm so scared right now.

I cried my heart out. "Eomma"

"Hey, why are crying?"

When I looked up, I saw another kid my age. He's wearing a matching mickey mouse cap, shirt and short.

"I'm lost. Hik"

He flashed a wide smile which revealed his dimples.

I don't know if it's just my imagination but the night didn't seemed too dark and scary now that this kid is here. He's shining like the moon.

"Are you the new kid in our neighborhood?"

I nodded. "I'm Hoseok. Hik. Can you help me find my way home? Hik."

"Sure"

"Thank you" I smiled.

"Oh! Your hiccup stopped" he pointed out.

My eyes widened. "You're right" It usually take longer before it stop.

"Let's go" He held my hand and took me home.

My mother was so relieved when she saw me.

"Hobi. I don't know where to find you. I told you to go home before it get dark" my Mom scolded me.

"Sorry Eomma" I cried again.

My Mom thanked the kid and when he's about to leave, I called him. "What's your name"

"Namjoon. I'm Kim Namjoon"

Namjoon. My Moon have a very beautiful name..

I pushed our memories at the back of my mind as I gulped down another shot of my beer.

Namjoon always shone his light in my life on my darkest nights. If not for him, I won't even try to achieve my dream to be a dancer.

My parents didn't support me when I told them I wanted to be a dancer but Namjoon said that it's good to have a dream, it is what made people keep going.

"You can do it Hobi. I know you will achieve anything as long as you set your mind to it"

And I believe him. Now, we're about to make our dreams a reality.

I quickly wiped another tear that escaped my eyes.

"Why are you alone?" A blonde guy approached me.

A wide grin is pasted on his face, letting me know he's up for no good so I ignored him.

Good thing that my phone rang so I answered it immediately to avoid talking to the guy. I just hoped that he get the signal and leave me alone.

It is Namjoon. He's really unfair. How can he easily care about me but not give me his heart?

I felt like crying again.

"Where are you?" he asked.

I wanted punch this guy when he suddenly spoke, making sure Namjoon will hear what he said.

"End the call now and let's have fun Sweet"

I gave him a pointed look but the guy just grinned at me.

"Who's that? I'll fetch you now. Tell me where you are"

I panicked. Namjoon can't see me in this state.

"No"

"Jung Hoseok" I swallowed hard. When Namjoon used that tone, I won't be able to say no.

"Don't do something stupid" he added.

"I just want to forget you Namjoon-ah. Let me forget you" I whispered.

"No, please. Let's talk Hobi" I can sense desperation in Namjoon's voice.

This is the first time I ever heard him plead. My Moon never bowed down to anyone.

I sighed and gave him the name of the Bar.

After I ended the call, I confronted the blonde guy.

"Why did you do that?"

He just shrugged. "The guy on the other line seemed to be the reason why you're drinking right now. I'm just helping you out"

"You're not helping. I don't want Namjoon to think that I'm easy"

He chuckled. "He won't. If he really love you, he will be here as soon as he can so that no one can snatch you away from him"

I looked down. "But that's not the case. H-he's in love with someone else" It still hurt.

"I wished you could've minded your own business"

"I don't think so. Is that him?" The guy whispered and when I turned, I saw Namjoon frantically searching for me through the dim light and wave of people.

Like the first night we've met, he's shining in the dark. My Moon.

My heart seemed like it wants to pop out of my chest.

"Hobi-ah, let's go home"

"Joon-ah" I can't believe he's really here.

"Who is he, Sweet?" the blonde guy looked at me and wants me to play along but my mind is numb right now so I can't process anything.

"His boyfriend" Namjoon answered for me.

Boyfriend.

"You can back off now" He added with a cold tone.

Namjoon pulled me towards him and wrapped his arms around my waist.

"Hobi is mine" he declared and claimed my lips.

Namjoon's lips are so soft. I don't know how many times I imagined it locked with mine.

Is this a dream?

If this is a dream then I need to wake up now while I can still stop myself from drowning with hope.

We're already outside when I came back to my senses. I pulled my arms. "W-what was that for?"

"Don't you get it? I love you!"

I thought my heart stopped beating for a second.

"I mean it. I really love you Hobi. I'm just too dumb to notice it" Namjoon hugged me tight. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you"

I sniffed. "It took you so long to realize it"

"Yeah" he cupped my cheeks and kissed me again. "I'll make up for every tear you've shed for me"

"That's a lot"

"Then I have a lifetime to compensate" he whispered, dimple showing as he smiled at me gently.

My heart swelled with too much happiness.

"Let's go home?"

I nodded. I'm home.