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Entry no4: Nam Y/n 01/01/0000⚠————————⚠

It's been about a month since lily left, after a week of not seeing her you had grown overly worried and that kinda set you back on your healing journey.

After confirming with people with seungmins help you had figured That she was in a hurry to leave with a manager she must've been too excited to even say good, even if that Hurt, you were happy she got to finally leave to pursue her dream under her new managers care.

Seungmin made sure you were not lonely at all, which you gravely appreciated, you weren't so sure what you guys now counted as as you never discussed your labels, maybe you were just friends, ongoing friends?, friends with a little pizazz?, makeout buddies? A situationship? It all was unnecessarily frustrating but you intended to make the most of it though. You've already lost one friend,  you weren't sure when you'd lose the other as you noticed that seungmin was getting better too, he could say a few sentences altogether now, although he still struggled it was better than not speaking at all, you were happy for him but also you couldn't help but feel sad.it was selfish really.

"Y/n-ah, can we , do it again?" Seungmin whispered after a while of you two just cuddling when he had snuck you into his room.(which wasn't the first time.) He stood up with a smile slowly taking off his shirt.

Looking up at him, your eyes trailed across the contours of his physique. His strong legs,chiseled abs, those sinful shoulders, and his playful, puppylike , beautiful face, how could you say no?(also kinda felt like you couldnt)

You moved closer to Seungmin, and wrapped your  arms around his neck, pulling him closer to you,  the two of you slowly connected your lips in a passionateembrace.Your lips connected, tongues intertwined in an unabashed dance.

You felt Seungmin’s handstrail up and down your body, resting playfully on my behind. He  squeezed your cheeks, making yougasp softly , As you did, you felt him slip his tongue deeper, dominating your mouth.

"They weren't lying when they said you tasted sweet" he chuckled under his breath before diving back in not giving you much time to breathe.

After such a long time waiting to be in his hold, you can finally feel his soft, milky skin in my grasp.You looked up to his chocolate  eyes, eagerly and impatiently waiting for him to take you as you panted softly.

"Seungmin... please" you begged whilst out of breath, He continued chuckling as he gently brought his hands up to your flushed face, cupping your tinted cheeks andcoyly kissing your  forehead.

Gently, he brought both your bodies down to the mattress, you relished every touch he made and how his weight pinned you down. You  continued to kiss for some time while your hands rubbed along each other.

Soon, he  began to remove your clothing.blushing, you savored your  reward of Seungmin's bare chestgracing your eyes. Snapping out of your daze you looked up at his haze filled eyes.

"I..." you stuttered "Seungmin, I do think I'm ready for this" you said hesitantly and you swore you saw something dark flash in his eyes.

"What's wrong?" He asked "you wanted this like a second ago" he pointed out before leaning closer to you and planting a kiss at the corner of your lips making your breath hitch.

"I won't hurt you"

"I know...I'm just not ready–" you said and he huffed a bit with irritation "what are you afraid of" he scoffed , his hand trailed up to cup your cheek as the other supported his weight above you "it's not like you're a virgin so you don't have to worry about it hurting" he said and you couldn't  help but feel offended because it wasn't like you chose to not be one, he of all people should know that.

You were about to sit up but he pushed your head back down with a kiss "just lay down and let me love you, is that so hard?" He muttered before connecting your lips together again and soon your worries were nothing but a distant memory as you fell Into a daze chasing after what felt good, because to him you wanted this, and he was the one to take you first, not Minho, not  Hyunjin and certainly not Chan nor the others who are yet to made an impression on you , he wasn't so worried about jisung as you two didn't seem to be on lovey dovey terms yet.

"You're so fucking perfect y/n Can I take you?" he cooed in your ear it was almost hilarious that he was even asking.

"Y-yeah" you breathed out as he mouthed at your face before Leaning your head onto the pillow, your neck exposed for his lips, which  seungmin so graciously devoured Placing his mouth on the hollow of your neck, Seungmin placed love bite after love bite marking you as his.

In your willing and definitely not forced daze you felt yourself grow impatient, fuck your hormones.

"Please Seungmin, do something already" you begged and Seungmin removed himself from your neck and chest and sat up.

"Told you,  you wanted it" he teased pecking your lips before admiring his work on your chest and neck "maybe now it's time for you to try and gain some patience" he smirked

"The one I'm losing with my sanity? Doubt i can" you replied.

Seungmin laughed in response before his hands wrapped around your body as he pulled you flush against his lips,your skin waspulled into his mouth as he placed numerous pink and purple hickies along your midsection andchest. Moans left your lips as he continued to tease you.

Slowly,you  felt his tongue trace up your  stomach, to your chest, swirling random patterns on you. Oncehe made his way up to your neck, he bit down deeply on an already formed hickey. You screamed out inpleasure and pain as you felt him kiss away the pain. Even if you were starting to enjoy and fully give in a small part of you didn't want this.

As he paused to sit back, you watched him ogle you with a lust filled gaze (you couldn't really see the possessiveness in it), and his art. He grabbed the fabric of your underwear and freed you of its hold, leaving you completely bare under his view.

Seungmin licked his lips as he leaned back down to you."how i didn't take you when i first had you in my bed is beyond me " that was the last thing you heard him whisper before he traveled between your legs and began to devour you.

Your body spasmed/jerked as you arched your back at the feeling of his hot muscle against you clitoris "seungmin–" you moaned out closing your eyes.

Seungmin continued to lick up and down, leading you to become more and more excited. His tongueplayed with you for God knows how long.

The only thing that broke you from your  bliss-filled headspace was a slight pressure at your opening. Swiftly, he inserted a finger into your  hole and began to prep you for his size. The pressure eased after a few movements of his hand but soon returned as he inserted two more fingers, thoroughly stretching you for him.

Your body thrusted against his mouth as he continued teasing and prepping you , you could feel the heavenly yet foreign feeling of your high approaching. You pushed your  hips up to his mouth encouraging him to continue as you became a moaning mess.

Unfortunately for you Seungmin  had other ideas.you felt him pull away and sit up.you panted heavily your body aching from the denied orgasm, as you looked up at him,you  began to question why he paused, only to be interrupted by his door opening.

"I thought I told you to stop watching porn without headphones—" a buff guy with oreo hair yelled to pause in shock at the sight before him, his jaw dropped to the floor as his ears turned a soft pink tint "what the actual fuck–"

"Ya! Get out Changbin!" Yelled seungmin as he rushed to cover you with his bed covers as Changbin stood at the door shooketh to the door.

"In all my days of living... I have never seen such a sight, goddamn" Shaking his head he turned to leave "use protection" he added before closing the door.

"That was–" you began.

"Just don't" the other grumbled in embrassment as he laid to the side pulling you to his chest before burying his face in the crook of your neck in embarrassment,  you guess you were cuddling now.  Thank the heavens you sighed out happily before your eyes closed.

You were walking around the second floor library after discovering it one time when you were alone and you've been coming to it alot after realising that reason wasn't too bad and that not many people went to it.

You hummed softly as you searched for a new book to feed your interest, walking further into the library,  further than you have before. You paused at an odd looking shelf that had nothing but leather books

"Those are some of the old books that got put into the library" a voice said behind you making you shriek and almost knock a shelf down.

"Careful there buddy" the stranger said patting your back before bending down to pick up the books that fell. "Didn't mean to spook ya" he said as he put the books back on the shelf

You nodded silently as you took a look at the stranger,he was a bit taller than you bit not by a lot,had frizzy yet soft looking dyed ginger hair, fox eyes that gave him a hot yet cute appearance, yarp jawline, pink lips, you'd eyes trailed lower—

"I'm not sure if I should be happy you're checking me out or weirded out.." he smiled at you and you felt your face heat up from being caught. He turned from you reaching for one of the leather cover books

"Here, this is a psychological horror, it's pretty nice unless you find the simplest fictional monsters scary" he said giving you the book and you took it with a small 'thanks'.

The fox library Stalker turned out to not be that bad, he had such a cuddle bug Personality, was funny and kinda too straightforward but that made him slightly more likable

He said his name was Yang Jeongin, 18 and was a 3rd floor residence that just moved to 2nd floor since he's getting better. He mentioned having schizophrenia and now his hallucinations appeared less often than not and he was happy that he didn't have to take medication almost every hour of everyday to keep them away.

"Don't you ever fear that there's something or someone or maybe some kind of monster under your bed sometimes?" You asked looking away from the book you were reading from which turned out to be pretty good, just as foxy had suggested.

"why would I be afraid of a monster being under my bed when the monsters are all in my head?" He spoke softly before looking up at you, he reached over gently guiding your head a bit closer by your chin

"Aren't you afraid of the monsters inside your head y/n-ah?" He asked eyeing your lips for a minute before slowly looking back at your eyes "hm?" He tilted his head and you blushed heavily.

"I-" you failed to say anything as you looked into his eyes seemingly falling under a trance with his enticing gaze, he chuckled before leaning closer , his gaze trailing to the slightly visible marks tainting your skin before looking back to your eyes and for some unknown reason you couldn't move.

You didn't really want to.

What was up with this place and its people kissing barely an hour of knowing each other. "Jeongin–" you said hesitantly as his lips were inches away from yours.

"Do you not want this?" He asked making a bit of space in order to look into your eyes and that last bit of rationality jumped into the han river , he smirked before leaning in.

6 year old Yang jeongin sat in his family's mansion as laughs left his lips as he just kept repeatedly stabbing at his older siblings body , looking at the dead body he cocked his head at the gorey image infront of him.

"You should've just played with me"he mumbled cold as he turned to leave pausing as he saw his mother frozen at the door , her face pale, her hands shining and tears in her eyes after what she had just witnessed and Jeongins cold facade dropped instantly.

"Mommy, noona didn't want to play with me" jeongin whined as he ran up to his mother who instantly backed away "stay away from me you monster" she said as she kept backing away until she tripped and started shuffling away from her son

Jeongin stood at X door way to the kitchen , tears running down his pink cheeks as he hugged his bloody teddy bear to his chest with one arm while the other held the knife he had used to unalive his 15 year old sister

"I.. I don't understand,  why don't you guys want to play with me!" He yelled his baby like persona shifting entirely and the next he knew is that he was stabbing away at his mother's dead body as well , crying, yelling, screaming then laughing

He looked up to see his wide eyed father standing there "do you want to play with me appa?"

"Y-yes... appa will play with you " his father said hoping that would keep him alive

Jeongin smiled at that dropping the knife and handing his teddy to his father "I.N and I will have lots of fun with you, thank you for wanting to play."

That luckily kept his father Alive, a few months after he had murdered his mother and sister his father had put him into therapy and still treated him like a son which he appreciated

He had later learned that what he did was actually bad and swore to never do it again, regrets flooding into his 6 year old brain and that was when he started hallucinating, he felt as if his family hated him and wanted to kill him to so for years he heard voices and saw their bloodied figures around coming for him

And that's how he was diagnosed with Schizophrenia funny enough they failed to acknowledge the other issues he had

Just as his pink cherry lips were about to touch yours the gods above sent a demon right at you "Ya I've been look–" Jisung paused as he saw what was about to happen between the two of you

Jeongin closed his eyes in frustration before giving you an apologetic look and pulling away,  leave it to Jisung to walk in at the wrong time like everytime

"What do you want" jeongin answered coldly glaring at Jisung who let out a nervous chuckle "ah– nevermind I'll go ask someone else " he waved his hand around

"You're here already so why not just ask" you mumbled and Jisung glared at you "Excuse me from saving my numbnut friend over here from catching whatever type herpes you carry" he commented

You slammed your hands on the table as you stood up making your way to the quokka male sho stood his ground "what are you gonna do? Tell me a freaking sob story?" He chuckled and before he knew it he was on the floor with a bleeding nose

"Ya you crazy bitch!" He yelled his hand covering his probably broken nose , God does this woman have one hell of a punch, who tf does she think she is? Freaking saitama? No matter how many times he told Minho he hated your guts for punching him about a month or two ago he had to admit he did find how you stood up to him kinda hot–

"I'm sorry" you laughed bitterly "I thought you'd shit out the stick in your ass after the first punch but clearly my babies didn't hit you hard enough" you referred to your fists as you stood tall looking down at him.

Jeongin stood next to you smirking down at jisung, he was definitely telling the others about this. "Can you stop saying I have a stick in my ass? You're lucky I don't hit women" jisung mumbled lying a bit at the last part

"Well , I don't have those same morals and I will beat your ass han jisung or whatever your name is , I will beat your ass" you warned "you better listen to her sungie, she'll beat your ass" taunted foxy making jisung 's jaw drop

"Who's side are you on?" He cried out "not yours obviously" shrugged the younger "anyway,  what did you need?"

"My stressball"

"All this for a stressball?" You silently scoff before shaking your head, taking the boom you were reading you started walking away "bye innie, and you too or whatever jisung ,hope you choke in your sleep." And with that you walked off

Jeongin busted down laughing at the quokka male that sat dumbfounded and bleeding on  the floor "if I were dumb and dramatic I'd say that's totally you twos love language"

"Wanting to see her bleeding to death is a love language, yeah right" Scoffed jisung as he stood up

"Do better. "

"Do better next time."

"Ugh. Seriously this is not that hard do better Jisung. "

"Your siblings did so much better when they were your age, why are you so frustrating."

Those were the words Jisung was so used to hearing from his mother. The comparinsing was just salt to his pulsing sounds but all he could do was keep it in.

At first when he was younger he just took it all with a smile until she got physical but he couldn't fight back, she was his mother, she was older, he loved her even if she treated him like a burden.

He really really really loved his mother. But God did he fucking hate her too. He resented the ground that woman walked in, he was angry at her, angry at the world, angry at everything, he fucking hated it all.

He got bullied at school by some senior kids along with his siblings so one day he fucking snapped, reports went out to the news and the city was in chaos. One of The cities most well known and popular school was on fire.

He was better than them all  his siblings were nothing than just lucky bastards that got what he deserved. His mother was a bitch who he wanted to personally push off a cliff so that's what he did but first he had to eliminate all threats.

His bullies and siblings were friends and they always had lunch in one of the 2nd floor classrooms, on that day he locked the door, spilled some chemicals into the room through the space between the floor and door and set the room on fire... Not too long after the floor was on fire too, screams and cries were heard all over and they were music to jisungs ears. He didn't care about the rest that got hurt in the fire too it's not like they were going to make it in life anyway.

His mother always went to jog along the mountains before she had to fetch them from school, he made sure he wasn't seen as he followed her not caring much about how long his steps were as she had headphones on

When she paused he didn't take another second to push her off the edge of the top watching I satisfaction as she screamed until he heard a loud crack and thud echoing as her body landed.

No one knew it was him, no one knew how he did it, no one would've expected a 7 year old to do all that anyway. He was 'dump' after all do there's no way he could commit  arson and first degree  murder all in 1 day and not get caught. More than 200 lives were lost that day and he was more than happy to do it again

Until his father found out when he nonchalantly said the rest of his family wouldn't be attending dinner or anything else for the rest of their lives, so not wanting to out your Han name to shame by having his son outed he got sent to stay zone as the 5th child murder to get sent there away from the news away from the public.

"Whatever,  why did you really come here, cause I swear if it's actually for a stressball I will gladly have you bleeding to death " threatened fox man "hm... I found something worth playing with" winked the other

"Don't wink at me , that's weird and in no way funny, cool or hot so stop it please"

"..ugh."

"I found someone snooping around your little crush that I've been keeping a eye on for a while for research purposes,  I got a bit bored,  took that person and I don't feel like playing with him by myself" jisung explained as he uses his sleeve to wipe his nose

Jeongin scoffed "tf am I? 5? Why would I want to play"

"I'm sure I.N would love to play with me, play with me I.N"

Something changed in the youngers eyes and he was instantly back to what he feared most , "I'll play with you Sungie"