Wake-Up

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**Trigger Warning: Car Accident, Anxiety/Panic Attack**

When your back hits something softer, your eyes open and now you're sitting, facing the back of your mom's seat in the car.

What you now can't see, is that Loki is right next to you, sitting behind your dad.

You've relived this nightmare hundreds, if not thousands of times. You can feel that this time something is different, but you don't know what. The entire scene, as usual, plays out in front of you. By now, you're pretty much numb to all emotions, and just close your eyes.

Loki however, looks around, and sees Bucky drag your father from the car.

No matter how hard you have tried though, you can never seem to turn the sound off of everything happening. 

When your leg starts to bounce, Loki's attention is brought back to you. He tries to place his hand on yours, but it simply goes right through.

There's only silence now from where your dad is, but your mom is weeping motionless due to the impact from the 'accident'. Bucky then moves to the other side of the car and proceeds to kill your mother as well. 

You've learned the exact timing, so you know when to open your eyes. Loki has not taken his eyes from you, but then he follows your gaze to Bucky, who turns from you and mounts his motorcycle.

 The sound of the engine leaving causes Loki to jolt awake in your bed, out of breath.

Normally, you would wake-up right after as well, but you're stuck in the car, "No." You try to forcefully close your eyes a few times, pinch yourself, anything. Anything at all. Nothing. You now try the handle, which moves, but the door never opens, "No. No. No. No. No!"

Loki has barely caught his breath before bolting from your room and back to the main room, where you've also started screaming 'No' in your sleep.

"Y/N, wake-up!" Tony stands behind you at the arm of the couch, lightly moving your shoulder.

As Tony moves to the other side of you, Loki shoves him out of the way, "Move."

"What are you doing?! Y/N needs help!" Tony says, startled by Loki's sudden appearance.

Loki kneels down at the side of the couch, but then looks-up at Tony, "And right now I am the only one who can help!"

"What the hell makes you so important?!" the boom in Tony's voice brings most of the team back into the mainroom.

Loki's tongue forcefully presses to the roof of his mouth, "Because....because....!"

Thor pulls Tony back by his shoulders, "Enough, Stark! Loki." Thor nods for him to continue.

Loki looks back down to you, and puts his hand on your cheek, "Come on, Love. Wake-up."

You hear muffled arguing as you keep trying to open the car door.

"No!" How the door handle has not come off in your hand with how hard you've been pulling it is insane. You've also been crying so much, that you feel like you're going to puke. 

"I thought you said you were helping! Y/N is still sleeping!" Tony growls, still trying to get past Thor.

Loki flat out ignores him, but the crease in his brows only deepens in frustration as to why you're not waking up.

"What can we do, Loki? Anything?" Nat walks closer.

Loki pauses, "I...I need to go into Y/N's mind. I can get them out that way."

"No. Not with your track record," Tony shakes his head.

"And what exactly would you suggest? Because clearly your methods were working prior to this!" Loki spits back.

"I don't trust you OR your methods!" 

"Somehow I will try to get over my devastation," Loki rolls his eyes before lightly placing both of his hands on your cheeks and closing his eyes.

"Shit," Tony grabs a bottle from the counter and takes a swig.

When Loki opens his eyes, he is now standing in front of the car, so he immediately runs to your door.

Your head was in your hands, but noticed the shadow approaching your door. This silhouette you would recognize anywhere, but it makes no sense, "L...Loki? How...?"

There's a brief second pause before Loki reaches for the exterior car door handle, which finally opens. The air inside the car releases, along with the air from both your lungs and Loki's.

You quickly get out of the car and throw your arms around Loki.

The second you make contact, both of you nearly fall off of the couch, now having come out of the nightmare. 

You've got Loki's shirt fisted as tight as you possibly can, while Loki holds you to him with his arm around you, "I've got you, Love. I'm here."

No one says a word. 

Neither you nor Loki have made any motion of breaking apart, but as you regain your composure, your grip starts to loosen on Loki's shirt. 

When you finally can, you lean slightly away and look-down at the now messed up material, "Sorry." You try to flatten and fix it, "Your shirt is..."

Loki lifts your chin, "My only concern right now is for you. Are you alright?"

Your hand finds Loki's, fingers molding to his, "Getting there." Silence falls once more, and then it hits you, "How did you know to come wake me up?"

"I..." Loki swallows. "Was there. Sitting next to you in the car. Initially." When you frown, Loki continues, "And I tried to help, but I could not..."

Your eyes never leave Loki's, but you can hear the frustration and helplessness in his voice, and feel it when his hand squeezes yours, as if making sure you're really there.

"When I woke up, I came to you as quickly as possible," Loki concludes.

You nod once and try to think, "Did you...? Was there a dream you were in before? Because I..."

Loki's eyes squint and then widen, "What did you see?"

You rewind everything in your mind, "You were with Thor and...3 or 4 others? Fighting Frost Giants."

Thor approaches, listening as well.

"And then I was in a large, gold colored room," you put your hands out like Loki. "You were holding something. A box or..." you shake your head. "Odin was there. On steps. And arguing. So much yelling."

Loki helps you stand when Nat brings over some water.

"So you two are sharing dreams now?!" Tony walks between you and Loki, facing him. "I think you've gotten close enough to each other."

"Tony..." you try to calmly say.

He ignores you, "You need to stay away from Y/N, or I will have your ass sent back to Asgard."

Loki's jaw clenches, "That is something I cannot do."

Tony steps closer to him, "You WILL do that. You are just making things worse by being around them!"

"Tony, stop!" Your anger slips.

"I am doing NO such thing, and I will NOT be distancing myself from Y/N," Loki's voice raises as well.

"You will do as I say. Y/N is MY FAMILY!" Tony's fist tightens.

Loki takes one more step to Tony, eyes slowly turning red, "And Y/N is MY MATE!"