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Chapter seventeen

TW self harm, if any1 wants to talk I'm always here and you can always skip the beginning of this chapter if you don't wanna read, I love you <3

"How dumb are you?!" My dad shouts in my ear

"You can't solve a simple equation?! You will never get into Yonsei with this bullshit!" He picks up my page and rips it in half, throwing it at my head

"I can't concentrate when you're constantly criticising everything and poking my head!" I snap, I push my chair back and stand up

"How dare you talk back to me?!" He shouts even louder and his hand collides with my face, I stumble back and put my hand over the red spot

"I-I'm sorry" I stammer looking down, not wanting my eyes to meet his

"Sorry isn't fucking good enough!" He pushes me and I fall to the ground

"You will study this whole fucking night and I'll come in here tomorrow and if you can't solve that, you'll be in big trouble!" He storms out of the room and slams my door, I hear the lock click

Tears begin pouring out of my eyes and I manage to reach up into my drawer and pull out someone, an eyebrow shaver

I pull up my sleeve and hold it towards my wrist, when I'm caught of guard by a knock and I jump from shock

The blade slips and cuts my skin open as it drops onto the floor, "Shit shit" I mutter covering the cut with my hand and walking towards where the knock came from

"Are you crazy?!" I exclaim as I see Heeseung at my window, he climbs in and his eyes immediately go to my arm

"What happened?" He asks taking my arm but I just pull it back and keep it covered

"Nothing" I lie

"Haerin, there's literally blood all over your fingers" He points out but then he walks towards my desk and picks something up and holds it up

"Just leave Heeseung, I don't want you here and if my dad walks in—" The door opens

I spin around to see my mum staring back at me, she glances to Heeseung

"Your father wanted me to check if you are studying" She clears her throat, putting her attention back on me

"I was just studying" I reply putting my arm behind my back

"I'll tell him that you're okay and working hard" She says coldly and begins to close the door over

"Get out, now" I tell Heeseung

"Didn't look like she was mad" He shrugs but walks towards me and grabs my arm

"Again?"

"I'm fine, I'm just stressed, now leave" I push him towards my window

"Clean that" He tells me as his back hits the wall beside the window

"Just leave" I tell him but he walks away from me once again and takes something off my desk

He hands it to me, it's my hair tie

"My hairs up?" I question

"God you're so stupid" He groans

"Anytime you feel like doing... you know what, just flick that on your wrist"

"Why?"

"Heard it helps" He shrugs and climbs out my window

"Why did you come here again? I mean how did you even know this was my room or even, my house?!"

"Wanted to ask you to do my homework" He shrugs and drops down to the ground and runs away without another word

What the fuck?

"Hey, what happened to your arm?" Jiwon points out the bandage wrapped around it

"Oh..." I try to think of a reason

"My cat scrabbed me, went kinda deep"

"You have a cat?" She questions

"Yeah" I lie

"Oh my god, girl or boy?!"

"It's a boy"

"Awh, you'll have to let me meet him some time" She smiles

"I will"

I will not

"Everyone, please take your seats" My teacher walks into the room and everyone quickly scurries to their designated seats

"This exam will be worth thirty percent of your final mathematics grade, I expect you all to do well" I get my test and I state at it nervously

"You have ninety minutes" The bell rings and the noise of paper flicking fills my ears as I open my exam

I need to get one hundred percent, if I don't my dad will kill me

I begin answering every single question and by the time there is five minutes left, I have finished

I sigh relieved and close my paper, glancing around the classroom at everyone

Some are still working, some are playing with their hands, tapping their pencil on the table, staring at the clock impatiently waiting for the exam to finish

And some people, more like one, are sleeping, that one person would be Heeseung

I roll my eyes at him and stare at the clock until the bell rings and I get up to go to lunch

"You think you did good?" Jiwon asks

"I better have" I groan

"I studied so hard for this exam" I admit

"Yeah same, but it'll be fine, we are both gonna do good" She smiles reassuring me

"I hope so" I mutter, imagining the look on my dads face if I get any lower than a perfect one hundred percent

This chapter took so long to come out plus I hate it, I've rewritten it a million times but I can't anymore

But next will be so much better!

Drama incoming!!

-K