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Chapter one

'She was a fading petal, ready to fall, until he caught her with rough hands and showed her that even thorns can nurture beauty'

"Please stop" I mutter so quietly I'm not too sure they can hear me over their name calling and hurtful actions

My ears are filled with the sounds of insults as my body suffers multiple blows

Slut

You're good for nothing

Just disapear already

Bitch

I bury my head in my hands as they continue to laugh, point and video me as I suffer

"Imagine what the whole school will think when  they see this" Nari giggles

Lee Nari, the girl who has despised me ever since she laid eyes on me, it started of with a few laughs with her friends at me

But it quickly escalated to her forcing me to buy her lunch everyday, then to her videoing me and calling me hurtful words and putting it all over the internet

It quickly became physical with her pushing me around to smashing my head into the mirrors at school, I still have a scar on my head from the first time it happened

And I still have no clue on why she does it, I didn't do anything, I just keep my head down and focus on my studies

No one has ever found out, my mum and dad are always to busy with work to acknowledge me and see what is happened to their only daughter

They work from before I'm awake for school to after I'm asleep to get rest for the next day, they leave money on the kitchen table for me to get lunch but it always ends up being used for Nari's lunch

My routine has been the same for years, wake up, go to school, suffer all day from Nari and her wolf pack to coming home and studying all night and then going to sleep and repeating it all the next day

And I'm done, I can't do it anymore

I have suffered to much in my sixteen years of living and I cannot bear it anymore, the torturing, the never feeling loved, the physical beatings, the hurtful words, the feeling lonely, the feeling like I have no purpose in life, everything

I'm a top grade student, top of my class, top of my school but it's never going to lead to anything, I'm just going to be a failure and a nobody like Nari reminds me everyday

But today is the final day of my suffering, the last time I will get told how worthless I am, the last time I ever spend the money my parents give me as an apology for never being around, the last time I will study, the last time I will get beaten and tossed about like trash

Today is the day

The ending

I fall slumped onto my soft bed, staring up at the ceiling, tears pouring out of my eyes as I still feel the stings and pain of the cuts and bruises covering my body

I manage to pull together enough strength to get up, get a piece of paper and a pen and begin to write

Hi mum and dad, you will probably not even see this for weeks because you never see me but i wanted to say that I'm sorry, I can't bear it anymore. Maybe if you guys were more involved in my life and saw what was happening this could have been prevented. Yes, your work is important but so is your daughter, your only daughter. I want us to talk, have a real conversation one last time but I know that will never happen, so this is a goodbye

10/4/19 The date of my death

Love Kim Haerin

My tears fall onto the piece of paper, making wet spots all over it, I fold it five times, all pointing towards me as I leave my bedroom, looking at it one last time

My feet drag towards the kitchen as I place the note on the middle of the table and look around my house one last time

I make my way out the front door and down the streets of Seoul, entering my parents building and ignoring every stare I get as I find myself on the rooftop

I drag myself to the edge and stand up on the ledge, staring down at the ground, fifteen stories high in the air

It's scary, heights is one of my biggest fears, but what do you do when you have a fear?

You face it

And that's what I'm doing, I'm going to step off and fall to the ground and end all of my suffering

Tears drip down my face and onto my clothes, I sob and I get closer and closer to the edge, one foot levitates on the air

Just as I'm about to let go, I feel something tighten around my wrist and pull me down, I shut my eyes scared as I realise I didn't fall the way I wanted to

I slowly open them to find myself back on the roof, "What the fuck are you doing?!" A male voice shouts at me and I look up to see a boy staring back at me

He's dressed in all black, his hood covering his faded pink hair, an eyebrow piercing peaking through as he glares at me

"Are you out of your mind?!" He continues shouting

"Do you know how many people would miss you if I wasn't here?!"

"No one" I mutter, my voice breaking as I begin to cry more

"What was that?!"

"No one" I raise my voice as my tears blur my vision, now I'm seeing two of him

"Don't you have people that care about you? Why the fuck would you think that is the answer to all of your problems?!" He shouts even louder

"Man up and deal with it instead of taking the easy way out!"

"Your life can't be that hard!"

I keep my mouth shut as he continues shouting at me repeatedly, about how I'm crazy and I shouldn't be even thinking about doing that

Then he walks away, my eyes follow him as he goes back into my parents building, slamming the rooftop door behind him

I lay on my back and stare up at the stars, they are in the shape of a flower, the petals so visibly seen

First chapter yall!!!!I hope you enjoyed

I feel like I made Heeseung so mean in this, but trist me he will have chatacter development

Anyways, this chapter contained a very serious topic and I want you all to know that it will be okay, if you ever need to talk dm me, Wattpad doesn't let me anymore but dm me on tiktok @kia.writez

I will listen to anyone and everythibg that you want to get off your chest

Apologies for the bad spelling in this authors note 😭

-K