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"Mphhf" Seonghwa stirs in his sleep, hands clutching onto the sheets with a tighter grip than before I decided to annoy him. He's definitely not a morning person as for me it depends on whether I'm working on music which obviously leads me to come back to the dorms late and sleep late as well and if I'm not then I do like waking up early.

"Come on hyung wake uppp" I bring my fingers near his cheek and pinch them making him whine.

The scenes from last night play in mind. Once he apologised I found myself being kissed by him again. I eventually realised there's not backing out of whatever this is either. I agreed to let him kiss me thrice a day. I won't lie, all of this definitely feels really, really weird but it's also so tempting. Whatever this game is that we're playing, that I'm playing. With my heart.

"Stopm I'm sleepfingff" I giggle at how messed his words sound it's so cute. I like it. I like him. It's true that I never fully got over my crush on Seonghwa even when we used to be mean to me and it's indeed confusing considering this crush should he long gone by now but no. It's still there. It will be there. Always.

I get up from his bed and move towards the window, yanking the curtains open allowing the almost skin piercing sunlight to enter.Autumn sun can definitely be really annoying sometimes. I'm glad the company has given us a nice budget to keep the AC or Heaters running.

Seonghwa hyung lets out a loud groans and pulls his sheets on top of his face.

"Comeonnnm wake up" I pull away the sheets from him and grab his hands to make him sit up as well instead i find myself laying on top of him. I can feel my cheeks getting hot. I'm trapped.

I'm trapped between Seonghwa's veiny, muscular arms. And there's no where out of it. I'm being pulled further into the heat of his body as he slightly adjusts it and his grip of his arms around my body becomes tighter. My head on his chest and my pink hair touching his defined cheekbones and perfect jawline. He pulls the sheets on top of me as I struggle in his touch and I feel our body heat mingling together combining into one. I know for sure now how heavily I'm blushing and the faint rose on my cheeks has now formed into a tomato red colour travelling to my ears as well.

"H-hwa" I try shifting my body and turn around to face him, still packed between his strong arms. He grimaces slightly as the sheets move a bit lower from our faces  giving permission to the sunlight to shine on his perfectly, handsome face.

"Since when did you become such a morning person" he asks. His voice is deep and raspy. So perfect that I feel goosebumps travelling through my skin like electricity and forming on every surface of it.

"Since always. I wake up late only when I sleep late in the studio now come onnn let me go and wake uppp" I let out a nervous chuckle trying to remove his arms from around but he doesn't budge.

As my head connects with his chest again I'm welcomed by his slow and warm heartbeat which makes me self aware of how mine is hammering against my chest instead. I don't say a thing this time instead I let it happen. I let us happen. I like whatever this is and even if it isn't going to last for too long, I don't want to care about it. Not right now. It doesn't take long before my eyelids starts feeling heavy as I rest on the bed and in Seonghwa's warm touch. The little sunlight peeking from the window against the sheets isn't something I find too bad. It's nice actually and maybe nice enough to put me to sleep so I close my eyes and let them rest.

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I feel sunlight flash on my face as if I'm the chosen one by the sun itself to let all the sunlight shine upon me and only me. Frowning, I slowly open my eyes and see a figure looking down at me. My blurry vision takes a few seconds to settle before allowing me to see who it is. Seonghwa hyung.

"Well hello there sleep well?" My eyes widen as I sit up on the bed as quick as I can. "What are you doing on my bed hmm?" He further asks me but my mouth stays shut as I apply pressure on my brain slowly remembering the earlier events.

"I- y-you pulled on your bed and wouldn't let me go" my words come out slightly louder than I expected and my index finger makes its way to point at him. Thud-thud-thud speaks my heartbeat as my heart races fast.

He chuckles and pecks my lips before standing up from the bed. "I know" my eyes widen, brain still malfunctioning from the peck as he begins to continue "I was just teasing you again" I wish I could wipe the smirk off his face. Wait what time even is it?

"You're lucky it's only been an hour meaning we actually aren't late that is if you even care about that in the first place because you seem too distracted by the peck. Enjoyed it that much?"

The smirk blends into his stupid yet handsome face so well feels like it never goes away. I look behind me and grab a pillow before throwing it at his face. Something soft so it doesn't ruin his perfect face ofcourse.

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The track stops playing from the speakers allowing me to finally relax my body and breathe. I feel my legs muscles slightly cramp but it isn't too much. Wooyoung hands me a water bottle as gulps the water down from the his own in his other hand.

Clap clap clap.

My head moves up as I'm done opening the cap of the plastic bottle and see our manager. He's standing beside our dance teacher, outfit casual and a blue cap covering his head as usual.

"I have good news for all of you so come sit in a circle and Hongjoong-ah come sit next to me"

I give a small smile to the members observing their confused faces and come sit beside manager-nim. The rest of the boys take their time to drink water and pat themselves with towels wiping off the sweat from the intense dance practice. My index finger makes random movement on the wooden floor as I move it around following its pattern while waiting for them.

"Alright so I'm sure all of you have been noticing the improvement in Hongjoong's performance as well his movement now that he doesn't require anyone to help him walk?"

I hear a few 'yes' and 'yeahs' but I don't look at their faces. I still feel a little nervous talking to them about this again. I just feel really bad our debut got pushed further because of me. I feel my arm being nudged by another elbow and see manager-nim smiling at me. He nods his head slightly letting me know that it's time I tell them.

"Erm I- well I had an appointment with the doctor yesterday as you all remember and he said that..." I pause a little and get a view of their faces again, waiting for me to break this news to them before continuing again— "He said my injury is a lot better now and I can get back to my usual activities now".

Pause. Pause. Pause.

"YES! I'm soo happy joongie hyung" San yanks blth his arms in the air and the second my body is being crushed by his in a tight hug.

"I- i can't believe this oh god finally!" Mingi beams in happiness and joins into the hug.

Laughter continues to flow from my body as the boys yell one by one in happiness and join into the hug. I try sitting up from the floor even the it's quite hard pushing the members away since I'm the smallest here but it works. I watch as everyone's eyes sparkle  and teeth shine and then my eyes land on Seonghwa. He's not a part of this. He's just sitting infront of us. Watching us and not moving at all.

I tilt my head in confusion and I feel a knot twist in my stomach and a lump appear at the back of my throat. My mind spins in a thousand directions as I try to come up with a proper thought. I pinch my temples and close my eyes as if I'm trying to surpass all those thoughts and leave my head empty. Once I open them I don't Seonghwa anymore. Panic rushed though my veins, my heart aching instantly and the knot in my stomach twisting  further. Am I about to cry?

A soft thud is what I hear as I feel something or someone launch theirselves on top of me and then my eyes catch a glimpse of him again instantly shutting back as i feel his warm grasp around me. I fail in trying to keep my happy tears that had turned into sad ones a few seconds ago to stop dripping down my face but they do. Joy, I feel it.

"And the second good news is that the company has informed me to tell you all about your debut which will be in 15 days from now"

The manager clasps is hands together passing us a proud smile. We're back in our little circle on the floor again and yelling happily.

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I grab my phone and water bottle and stare at the dance room for a few seconds before smiling and turning off the lights. Doors locked, keys in my pocket and I start walking away but suddenly I feel my body clash onto the hard concrete walls however it's doesn't hurt.

"Hmphh" my eyes close as I feel his perfect lips on mine. Seonghwa hyung still hadn't left I'm guessing and now he's kissing me. Once he pulls back he wipes off his lips like usual and stares into my eyes. The two of us stay silent for a few seconds before he brings his hand to ruffle my slightly sweaty hair.

"I'm proud of you"

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