Chapter One

Hey guys this isn't new lol this is a old story my first actually that I just gave a little face lift too Enjoy xoxoxo

'If I could find assurance to leave you behind, I know my better half would fade'

Sam sat and looked around at the children playing at the Harry brook park. Watching all the parents to busy on their phones to look up at their children calling for them. She smiled as she saw her child run around in circles as the fall leaves fell off the tree onto her. She twirled around for a few seconds laughing as they smacked her in the face.

Looking up up and brushed the blonde hair out of her face "momma did you see the leaves hitting my face!!" She screamed in excitement as she ran over to her mother

"Yes I did baby" she said as she picked her 4 yr old daughter up and placed her on her lap.

"I'm hungry momma can we go have lunch now?" She asked staring into her mother's eyes.

"Yes Harley we can go have lunch" she said staring back into those eyes. The eyes that have been haunting her for the past 4 years. Her father's. Sam wished that she could just go back in time and fix everything but it would be far to complicated

Sam quietly carried Harley into her room as she slept soundly. Trying not to wake her, its been a rough few months with the night terrors ever since the last episode back in Texas when the 'man' as Harley called him found them. She found a small town in Connecticut hoping he wouldn't find her there. Sam was tired of being on the run. After moving place to place after Harley was born she hasn't found a place to call home. Sam wished she took a different path then she did those 4 years ago. But it didn't work out that way.

Only one person knew where she was and he promised to never tell anyone on her whereabouts. She had to leave it was better for the both of them. He didn't need to be dragged down anymore by her and her excess baggage as a few of them called her. And she needed to just.... Separate herself from those same blue eyes her daughter shares. Opening her laptop and logged onto her email. A few spam letters and then one she didn't want to see the name whenever he wrote he always had bad news. She clicked on 'Opie Winston' and started to read

Sammy

He needs you. Please he knows that I know where you are since you were the idiot who called me when I was with him. His head isn't right. Please as your best friend I beg you come home. I know you are hiding for a reason but let us take care of you like family should. I love you like a sister Sam and I cant stand back and not know if anything happened to you

Op.

Sam sighed she knew it was stupid to call Opie while he was with him. She knew he wasn't right in the head and it was her fault. She looked at the clock it was 10:15pm her time which was 7:15pm his time. She took out her cell and dialed the all to familiar number. Hesitating as her finger hovered over the call button. Maybe just hearing his voice will do. God she missed him so much, they were best friends growing up literally inseparable when they started dating in high school and things started to get serious between but when he got patched into the club all the members kept telling him he didn't need an old lady his head needed to be in the club. Sam knew he needed to follow the footsteps of his father but he wanted her and her only. He proposed to her she was only eighteen and even though she wasnt ready she said yes.

His parents were mad and so were hers so they got married in the town hall and no one knew but them. A few years later after constant break ups she told his mother she was pregnant and she flew off the rocker "he don't need a skank like you having babies ruining his life here's $4000 go take care of it tell him your not feeling well after its done" sam had never felt so upset so she went home packed a single duffel bag and left a note on the dining room table for her husband. 'I'll always love you with all my heart. But I'm dragging you down. Make your dad proud and become the President. Love you always Samantha

"Hello?" The voice said

"Hi I may have the wrong number but I'm looking for Jackson Teller" she said she hasn't said that name in a long time, but it slid off her tongue like she never stopped saying it

"This is his phone but he's busy" the voice said again. It was high pitched and Sam was getting irritated.

"Its important that I talk to him" Sam spoke, she didnt remember it being this hard to get ahold of Jax back in the day

"Well he's busy who's this" it said again

"Its his god damn wife" Sam said getting angry she heard some talking

"Hello?" He said

"Jackson?" Sam asked

"Sam? Is that you?" He said

"Unfortunately it is" Sam said sighing into the phone

"Where are you?" Jax said

"There's a plane ticket waiting at the airport I will pick you up when you land. Just you no one else, don't tell anyone where your going" Sam said

"Please Sam just tell me are you in trouble" he asked sounding concerned

"No I'm not" she said

"I will see you soon babe" Jax said has she hung up the phone

"Who was that and why is she saying she's your wife?" She asked

"She is" Jax said as he pushed the girl off him, Jax wasn't ready to deal with the emotions of seeing his wife, when Sam left he was heartbroken, devedsted

"There's no way you've never spoke of a wife before why is this coming up now? Is there something your not telling me?" She asked

"Ima she's my wife always has been and always will be. Did you ever think why I never asked you to get my crow?" Jax asked she put her clothes back on

"Just thought you weren't ready to ask me to get it" Ima said standing there with her hands on her hips

"Sam already has my crow she will never be replaced by anyone you need to go and I don't think you should show your face in the clubhouse after I get back" Jax said packing a bag

Ima huffed and puffed as Jax walked out of his dorm and down the hall knowing this wasn't going to be the last time that she saw Jax Teller.

"Where ya going baby?" Gemma asked as she watched Jax adjust the backpack on his shoulder

"Gotta deal with business I'll be back in a few days let clay known will ya ma?" He asked kissing her cheek

"Of course baby stay safe" gemma said. As she watched her son walk out the door.

"Hey Slut" Gemma laughed as she watched Ima walk out of the clubhouse

"Gemma come one I've been sleeping with jax for 4 years now" Ima said

"Yeah sometimes i wish Sam would come back and beat the ever living daylights out of you, she was a real old lady unlike you" Gemma laughed. Even though it was four years ago Gemma was still angry with herself telling Sam to get rid of the baby. Maybe she would of made jax straighted out

"Well from the phone call he just got it sounds like you got your wish" Ima spat

Gemmas eyes jusy about popped out of her head. "His what?!" Gemma said as Ima walked out of the club house "Those shit heads got married and never told me... Now i really feel like an asshole" she said out loud.

Jacksons flight felt like it was going on forever. Maybe the anticipation of seeing Sam. He had so many questions that needed to be answered. But alls he wanted was to hold her. And feel her body against his

Sam sat nervously at the baggage claim she knew this was a bad idea. She had a good friend of hers watching Harley until Jax was gone. She didnt want to risk anything happeneing to her daughter. Sam knew that once Jax found out he had a daughter there was no way he was going back to Charming without her. Sam looked up and there he was searching for her. Her head told her to turn around and run. But her heart telling her to stay, Then those eyes looked right at her small figure. Burning a hole into her

Jax dropped his bag and ran right for her he scooped her up into a hug she reluctantly hugged him back. If she wanted to help him get his might right she needed to do this as much as it killed her. He cupped her face in his hands and searched her empty eyes. "Babe... My god" he said and there it was that smirk. Those lips. The one thing that could always make her weak at the knees, Sam knew there was no going back now

"We should go" she said looking around. Jax looked at her something was up but he wasn't ready to press her.

"You've been here the whole time?" Jax asked as he got into her small car and headed towards her small house

"No been all over the place been here just a few months last place was Texas" Sam said

"Then why am I here Sam Do you need money? Protection" Jax asked slightly annoyed

"No Jackson I can take care of myself. I brought you here to talk" Sam said turning a corner

"So then talk." Jax spat, hearing Sam sigh he knew it wasn't going to go the way he wanted it too.

Sam pulled her car into the driveway of a small one story brick home "let's get inside" she said getting out.

Jax stood looking at the house for a moment it looked run down somewhere he didn't envision Sam to live. Her house was small but it worked for her and Harley. Jax put his bag down by the door and followed her into the kitchen as she opened the fridge to get a beer for them they both sat down and taking a deep breath

"Heard your heads not where it should be" Sam said taking a sip of her beer.

"You can't play that card Sam your the one who left and I want to know why" he said hoping that Sam wasn't going to shut down and not talk to him

"You wouldn't understand i had a lot going on. I left cause I had to I was distracting you from the club and I didn't want to make you give up your dream for me" Sam said looking down at her beer

"I would of given my life for you Sam, you were and are the love of my life the one person I actually counted on and you left me high and dry with no trace of where you were" Jax said sipping his beer. He looked around seeing drawings on the fridge. "Who's are those?" He asked panicking on the inside she let out a big sigh.

Just as Sam was about to start talking a knock on the door interuptted her she started to freak no one knew where she lived. She got up and answered the door seeing her friend holding her daughter.

"I'm so sorry Sam but a family emergency came up I have to be with my family" she said

. "It's ok let me take her" same said taking her sleeping daughter. Sam watched as Jax walked into the foyer. His eyes scanning the little girl that was in Sam's arms as she walked towards the back of the house and opened Harleys door. Jax stood there staring. Looking at the walls and seeing the name painted over the little girls head board. Suddenly everything became real. "Is she mine or did you get knocked up by someone else" Jax asked before she could even close the door. Sam went to sush him but Harley started a night terror. Screaming, kicking, thrashing. Sam immediately ran over to her daughter and held her. "Shhhhhh it's ok baby mommas here" she whispered rocking her back and forth. Jax stood there not knowing what to do. Jax had never seen anything like this before

"The man mommy the man" Harley cried

"He's not gonna hurt you baby mommas here" Sam whispered.

Jax watched as a tear escaped from Sam's eye. Jax didnt know what the little girl was talking about but he was going to find out. After a few min Harley fell back to sleep she gently laid Harley back down and got up and closed the door

"What the hell was that" Jax asked

"A night terror she's been having them for a few months that was a short one long ones have lasted up to 4 hours" Sam said as she looked at Jax

"Babe?" Jax asked grabbing her arm as she tried to walk by

"Jax" She said looking into his blue eyes.

"Did someone hurt her?" Jax asked

"No. He didn't touch her just me, I wouldn't allow him to hurt her" Sam said looking away. Jax felt slightly relieved that no man hurt a little girl that might be his.

"Who is he? And where can I find him? Jax asked

"He's no where to be found he only finds me. But he can't find me now he doesn't know the name I'm using" Sam said

"What name is that?" He asked

"Sam Teller, I was using my maiden name when I left" Sam said

"What did he do to you" Jax asked he needed to know what kind of monster he was dealing with

"Jax I can't talk about it I can't relive that" Sam said Jax pulled his arms around his wife how dare another man lay a hand on his old lady

"I'm so sorry I left Jax I didn't want to but i had to. Opie has known where I've been since I left incase anything happened to me he knew where to find me, If he didn't hear from me. Jax I know you can never forgive me and I'm sorry for that. I thought what I was doing was best for us" Sam cried

"Babe the best thing for us was to be us. To live happily ever after I didn't want you to make that choice for me. Your my wife unless you had that kid with someone else then I'll never forgive you especially since you named her Harley" Jax said pulling away from her.

"Jax she's a Teller through and through. I'm sorry you have to understand why I did it" she said searching for some kind of expression. Hoping that this wasn't going to piss him off "Your mom knew I was knocked up and handed me four grand and said get rid of it. So I left" Sam said

"Of course she would say something like that. She told me she didn't want us having kids but that wasn't her choice babe it was ours and you took that choice from me. But now that you have brought that girl into my life don't think your splitting again" Jax said as he cupped her face

"I know. I'm so sorry" Sam said as a tear ran down her face

"Babe. Just stop and let me love you" Jax said as he crashed their lips together

Hey guys!!! So this isnt new by any means...This was my first story I posted back in 2015 so I decided to take it down and give it a little revamp!!!! I hope you all enjoy it!!!