Ten

Recovery sucks, Namjoon decided. He hated dangling between bad and good moments like he were riding a sine graph. He hated feeling like he was out of control by eating. He hated the pity, he hated the supervision, he hated the way his body was differently functioning. He hated being weak and cold and tired. He hated not being able to graduate when he had planned.

But he loved living again. He loved eating Seokjin's food, he loved being able to walk to class without having to pause. Namjoon loved being slowly able to love himself. And he most of all loved life beyond recovery. He loved the tattoo of a sine graph he had gotten, he loved him and Yoongi's cat. He loved seeing all the bruises disappear. He loved. And he was alive, an added bonus if you'd ask him.