19;그 외 아무것도

Thea pov

Three days.....three fuckin days.....he ignored me....my calls..my texts...all of them are left of delivered but not seen...

He called, he called his wife every single day but he never dared to pick of my calls. These three days felt like three years to me and only I know how I have spent my time alone wondering why he suddenly changed.

Have I done something wrong to him unknowingly which hurted him? Or he..... I can't think of any other thing because I know he can't just leave me in between..

He promised to love me and I trust him more than myself, I must have hurted him unintentionally and I'll apologize, I'll apologize as soon as he will arrive because I can't stay without him anymore....it hurts,Nah! It kills to be honest....

Right now I was in my school, my chemistry teacher was giving lacture while I was listening to him uninterested.

The weather was so cold today, roads were covered with snow but it was beautiful. I always have been fond of playing in snow with my family back in London.

I miss them a lot and they also call me everyday to ask about how I was doing here. I sighed, only if they knew.....

Departure time finally came, it was evening. I shivered walking out of school and Alex was there, I ran towards him and sat inside the car "Hey Alex, did ta- I mean uncle arrived?".

Alex looked at me turning his head back "Yes mam he arrived half an hour ago already" I excitedly gave him a big grin "Then why are you not driving already Alex!! Let's go home fast!". He laughed seeing me so exited.

Fianlly I was going to see him, I miss him more than anything in these three days and I'm not leaving his side for one second now.

After what felt like ten minutes, we arrived at mansion and I ran outside the car without even locking the door.

Hurridly talking my steps inside I looked around, some maids were placing dinner on dining table "Where is uncle?" I asked one of them. "Sir is upstairs with mam, miss." I nodded at her. "Okay thanks" saying that I made my way upstairs.

I don't know why I was getting so nervous but I surged it off. Suddenly I heard some murmuring sounds. I frowned getting closer to his room, the door wasn't locked, just close.

I thought to peek inside once before knocking, it's not like something is happening inside which I shouldn't see, i chuckled on my own as I took a deep breath and peaked from half opened door.

But I regretted.....

I regretted my whole existence then and there.

Everything was a lie...a while lie I was seeing as my truth but right now that lie was showing me why I should have controlled my feelings....but too late...

Looking at him.....kim Taehyung...all naked under the duvet with his wife...with a big smile on his face...

I realised what I should have realised earlier....

Without making any sound i ran downstairs, nobody was around as I didn't thought twice before running out of the mansion.

My whole body was numb of anything even tears weren't coming out of my eyes, i was just.... empty...like my whole reason of feeling anything was snatched harshly before I could react..

I ran as fast as I could and finally reached an empty park, the whole ground was covered with snow like my heart which was covered with black clouds but no rain was yet to come.....

I sat on a bench brushing off the snow with my hand as I felt my whole body shivering....Never leave me Thea..

A voice rang in my mind like nostalgia, i shooked my head, aggressively.

"No...why would I...you love me....i love you....we can't live without each other...we can't....we can't..." I chuckled, laying down on the bench as I hugged myself, giggling.

He loves me...

He said he loves me...

He...said he loves me..

He never did...

It was a lie

Black dots start appearing infront of my eyes, the only sight infront of me was cold endless path of snow and I was a person without proper any clothes on my body.....which could save me from dying in cold...

Like I was drowing in an ocean without knowing how to swin to the surface and got back to where I came from....go to being the kim Thea who never knew she's gonna get ruined this badly...like the thea was happy being alone even if it was lonely there......

I gulped holding myself together for as long as I could, not knowing how much time have passed before I felt my everything giving up, my breathing was shallow, my blood was frozen, my body was numb of pain.

I smiled,

Maybe it was time to pay for my sins

Maybe it was time to say goodbye

Maybe it was the end...

But before I could close my eyes I felt myself getting picked up in a warm embrace, i felt another hand covering me with something warm and rubbing my palm.

I closed my eyes the second I felt something wet on my cheeks.

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