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"Not a single word more Thea....not a single word more...."

A shiver ran down my spine hearing his deep wisper near my face..my eyes turned glossy when he clutched my throat..not that it was tight or anything but him holding himself back from hurting me was not something I was wanting..

I want him to hurt me...to torn me...to destroy me so I won't get attached to him...but here he was doing exactly the opposite...

"Why not uncle? Am I lying?" I asked in my broken tone. "Why coming to me when you were already happy with her....with someone you're actually meant to be other than a burden like me who is just here as your responsibility?" A soft sob left my mouth when I noticed his eyes to turn red.....his eyes were glossy....the tears in his eyes were shining by the moonlight falling on his face.

"Please don't do this to me...." I sobbed closing my eyes tightly...now my emotions were high and I couldn't hide my vulnerability from him....

"It's hurting...it's hurting so bad...i-"

"What's hurting Thea..? What's hurting you little girl?"

He finally opened his mouth, his thumb caressed my cheeks, wiping my tears away. I looked deep into his eyes....no words were forming in my mouth but my eyes were telling him thousands of things which my mouth wasn't able to say.

"Please...." Was the only thing I was able to say, he breathed heavily and slowly attached his forehead with mine....his hand leaving my throat as he sensually travelled them down around my waist as he pulled me closer while closing his eyes....

"Just say once little one...and I promise I'll take away your pain"

Those words came out of his lips making me close my own eyes....my sanity leaving me long ago....in this moment he wasn't my uncle and I wasn't his niece.......he was just Kim Taehyung...the Kim Taehyung I fell for crossing all the boundaries...

"I love you....and it hurts...." He slowly opened his eyes, and stared deeply into mine. I didn't said anything but just looked down not being able to look into his eyes which was showing no emotion.

His next action raised my heart beat in anxiety, he detached his body from mine and took some steps back making me look at him with wide eyes..

"We can never be one Thea"

Something went numb inside me as soon as I heard his words....were those words or bullet I wonder..

"You and me....we can never be us....it's wrong... we're forbidden for eachother...."

No......I can't accept that.....I can't...I just can't......my head start spinning as my legs start trembling.....

"No..... please...." Before I could complete my sentence I feel energy draining from my body as I suddenly went still..

But before my body could touch the cold floor I felt two strong arms getting wrapped around me as feel myself floating in air.

"THEA"

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"We can never be one Thea"

"You and me....we can never be us....it's wrong... we're forbidden for eachother...."

"NO"

I woke up from the horrible nightmare, my forehead was sweety and my heart beat was faster.

"Tae-"

Before I could say I heard loud footsteps and suddenly the door of my room opened and a worried Irene aunty ran towards me.

"Thea....are you okay? Why did you faint suddenly? Your uncle was literally shaking with fear of what if something happened to you!".

I didn't said anything but stared at her....he was worried for me...? Why...? Why when he was the one who was killing me inside slowly..

"I...I don't know aunty...." I murmured playing with my fingers, her eyes softened as she sat beside me putting her hand on my shoulder.

"Thea...you know we're like friends...you can tell me anything". She uttered softly making me chuckle in pain mentally.

What I'm supposed to tell her that I fell for her husband and my love for him isn't helping me stay sane...that I have lost my mind from the moment I have seen him together with her? What I'm supposed to say...?

She sighed beside me as she caressed my back "Thea....I think you should meet your uncle once....he wasn't well when you faint....you know you're his one and only niece and he loves you a lot" aish...how I wished I wasn't....

Just how much I wished I wasn't his niece....or maybe his love for me was different...I nodded at her in reply "I'll meet him aunty....where is he?"

"He's on the rooftop of our mansion...he barely likes to go there but today after the doctor left...he wasn't feeling well and said he needs alone time" Irene aunty said with a sad tone, my heart cliched knowing the reason he might have been upset.....maybe I shouldn't have confessed my feelings.....I regret doing that...

"I'll go there aunty" i answered getting up from my bed weakly. "Are you fine?" She asked checking me up and down as she helped me getting up softly.

I sometimes regret coming here and being an obstacle in her life...she is the sweetest lady I know and here I was literally being a homewreaker....I hate it....I hate myself for not being able to control my feelings.....

I took a deep breath to calm my nerves "I'm okay aunt....you rest...I might have been a burden to you since I came here... isn't it?" Her eyes widened hearing me.

"No Thea what are you saying kid? I absolutely love that you're here with us..with me....I don't feel alone anymore... please don't think that you're a burden to me niece..." She replied making my eyes teary.

Without thinking too much I hugged her tightly while sobbing "You're amazing aunty.....you're more than amazing..." I can never be her....he deserves better and he deserves her......he deserves someone amazing like her who can take care of him and be there for him....

Unlike me who is nothing but a kid infront of him....my chest tighten painfully as I gulped down the painful lump in my throat. She broke the hug while smiling "Okay now cheer up little one and go to your uncle" she said in a cheerful tone making me smile a little as I nodded.

I made my way towards upstair with a heavy hurt, it was midnight already. I don't know how he manage to call a doctor at night but whatever...

I have made my mind that I'll apologize and from now on I'll maintain my distance from him for as long as I'm going to stay here.

I'll complete my studies and go back to London....I don't want to be a burden in someone's married life...

I gathered myself for a while standing infront of the rooftop door, after fighting my inner battle I slowly pushed the door opened and the first thing I saw was him.....