Chapter 14

I got into the car, Zayn doing the same and he drove us back to his place. It was complete silent, the only noises were our steady breathing.

"Shall I drop you at your Mum's place?" Zayn asked, breaking the silence.

"No, no. Anywhere but there, the nearest hotel will do." I replied.

He stopped on the red light and looked at me with furrowed eyebrows.

"Hotel? Fuck no, you stay at my house and I'll go to the hotel." Zayn said sternly.

Hotel? No, that was too far away from me... What am I saying?

"There's always the sofa...?" I suggested.

I saw him smirking from the corner of my eye.

"Yh, okay."

I don't know why I did that, I honestly don't. I'm so confused right now it's like a little bit of me feels betrayed and hurt but the bigger side of me wants to keep him close to me and wants him to protect me and keep him close to me.

I wish I hadn't met Zayn. I regret everything from the moment I met him.

"No I don't." I suddenly said out loud.

Zayn glanced at me with a confused expression.

"I don't regret everything from the moment I met you. Your the best thing that happened to me, the best experience ever." I glanced at Zayn and he did the same, this time his eyes were gleaming.

"But then my mind keeps reminding me about what you've been doing all this time behind my back and the pain and betrayal is unbearable." I added, this time he was looking at me with eyes full of regret and sadness.

"Sky I--" his voice cracked and for a minute I thought he was actually going to cry... I was right.

He parked the car in front of his house and I stayed silent while Zayn cried soft sobs, his two large hands covering his face.

I didn't know what to do or say. I've never been in this kind of situation before.

"Don't cry please.. I can't stand it." I was telling the absolute truth. I couldn't stand it, it made me break a little and deep down I actually felt for him and everything he did behind my back just vanished. The only pain I was carrying right now was seeing him cry.

I couldn't hold it any longer. I removed his hand and grabbed his face then kissed him hard. His lips tasted salty from his tears but at this moment I didn't care, I just wanted him.

He kissed me back soft and passionately and I did the same. This kiss was different compared to the other ones.

It was more passionate and more meaningful.

Right there I knew he was more than sorry for what he had done.

Zayn released the kiss.

"Stop, stop no. No you can't be crashing your lips on mine after everything I've done--" He started.

"It's done. Forgive and forget right? I know your truly sorry so it's alright." I cut him off.

ZAYN'S POV

It wasn't true, it couldn't be. How could she possibly forgive someone like me? She was right, I am truly sorry but what I've done is just extreme.

"But .I.. I've betrayed you.. I did shit behind your back how could you forgive me?" I asked, still stunned.

"Because I love you." Those words were enough to to make me grab her and kiss her again.

I kissed her hard this time, pulled her off her seat on onto my lap.

I never knew the feeling of love could be so incredible.

As we exchanged saliva I thought about it. Could I take her back after all I've done? Even if she forgave me can I forgive me first? Never.

She pressed harder onto my lips and I broke the kiss, getting her off my lap and onto her seat.

"W-what happened?" She asked, full of concerned eyes.

"We're done, I can't do this. It's not you it's me."

I looked into her beautiful blue eyes and they started tearing up.

"What? Everything's just over now? 'It's not you it's me' is that what's happening now? We can get through this we know we can." She sobbed, tears trickling down her face.

"No. You can get through this, I don't think I ever can or ever will. I just can't forgive myself." I spoke, making sure our eyes were locking into each other's.

Her beautiful blue eyes were hurt.

"I told you it's done I've forgiven you why can't we just give this a go? Is that too much to ask for? You can get through this I know you can, it might take some time to forgive yourself but you'll get there, if I have then so can you just please--" Her voice broke and she was full on crying now.

She sobbed and sobbed and I didn't know what to do. I know that we can get through it but the memory of what I did will just haunt me forever.

"I think you should go." I said finally.

Sky stared up at me, her mascara running down her cheeks and her eyes all red and puffy.

"Your serious? Your letting go of everything now?" This time her eyes were full of anger.

It's better to let her go while she hates me than while she still loves me, I thought to myself.

I nodded, "it's for the best."

She was even more angry now.

"For your best!" Sky shouted, "you never think of what I want do you? It's always about what you want or need!"

I stayed silent and looked at my hands.

"How could you just let go now? Doesn't it hurt you?" She asked.

Fuck yeah it hurts, worst pain I've felt my whole life.

"Well I guess I have way more feelings for you than you have for me." She opened the car door and stormed into the house.

I followed after her and watched her grab a suitcase and stuff her clothes in. It's for the best, I repeated over and over again.

"I will always love you and my feelings towards you will always be strong, even though you clearly don't feel the same I would never hate you."

She threw the last of her clothes and went to the drawer near the bedside, grabbed a brown leather journal and stuffed it into her suitcase.

She zipped the suitcase shut and went down the stairs and out the door.

SKYLYNN'S POV

I couldn't believe it, after all this he just gave up. He wouldn't even give it a try. Well that's what happens when you love someone.

Just as I got into my car Zayn called my name, running towards me.

My heart skipped a beat, did he finally realise his mistake? Is he ready to give it a try.

I rolled down the windows with hopeful eyes.

"You um, you still have the keys." Zayn said, not making eye contact what so ever.

I dug through my purse and handed him the keys, my fingertips brushing his soft hands making me tingle all over.

"I will always love you too." He whispered.

And with that, I drove away.

ZAYN'S POV

As I walked back to my house I thought about what she said.

"I will always love you and my feelings towards you will always be strong, even though you clearly don't feel the same I would never hate you."

I went inside and shut the door behind me then crumbled down on the floor and started sobbing.

Why the fuck did I just let go of the one person I love so much?

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